There was a gentle rain early this morning; when I went outside the air was washed clean and sunlight was sparkling on the lingering raindrops. It felt remarkably appropriate.
I have learned many things over the last, oh, 36 hours. Here, in no particular order, are some of them:
- "Never let the sun set on your anger" is good advice. So is "never go to bed with your anger." I'll settle for "never go to sleep with your anger" -- that works, too. I know damned well who I'd rather sleep with.
- Some things are better than sex. Long, close cuddles and deep, loving conversation are in that set. Especially when combined.
- I can still cry from missing my Dad.
- There are many things to value in a relationship, and peoples' ranking of them can differ. Love, loyalty, passion, honesty... Friendship, understanding, and working through problems are high on my list. Anyone have a good single word for that last one? It may be the most important for me.
- You get higher social security payments if you keep working until you're 70. Not that I have much choice.
- A long-term intense relationship, whether physical or platonic, is time-consuming. I need to manage my time and my priorities better.