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Apr. 18th, 2014 10:07 am
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Off to archery club to do the scoring again, no internets there, so will be offline till this evening.

The robins are peeved that I haven't been to put them any more mealworms. Tough.

Days I Enjoy

Apr. 18th, 2014 07:01 pm
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Days I enjoy are days when nothing happens,
When I have no engagements written on my block,
When no one comes to disturb my inward peace,
When no one comes to take me away from myself
And turn me into a patchwork, a jig-saw puzzle,
A broken mirror that once gave a whole reflection,
Being so contrived that it takes too long a time
To get myself back to myself when they have gone.
The years are too strictly measured, and life too short
For me to afford such bits of myself to my friends.
And what have I to give my friends in the last resort?
An awkwardness, a shyness, and a scrap,
No thing that's truly me, a bootless waste,
A waste of myself and them, for my life is mine
And theirs presumably theirs, and cannot touch.

Vita Sackville-West

Trip, Day 1: To Eugene

Apr. 18th, 2014 01:35 am
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We’re going to be going over mountains, so I take the special meds. I hate it with a burning passion, and you’ll understand why in a bit.

I take it because it increases oxygen concentration in the blood, which means less altitude sick. I get altitude sick in a ten story building. Only a slight exaggeration.

Four thousand feet is where I really start to feel it, though. Since I’m doing a lot of the driving, I take the damn meds.

I am not a morning person. I have not truly ever been a morning person (I quite literally lack the gene), but the last few years in particular I have especially not been a morning person. I was saying that to a friend who got run over by a car last year, and she said, “Because the pain meds have worn off!”

Exactly. That is why.
Read the rest of this entry  )

Originally published at deirdre.net. You can comment here or there.

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[personal profile] minim_calibre had a terrible idea:

Or, why the hell did I decide to put on Acqua di Gio (pour femme)?

HELP, I SMELL LIKE 1995.

WHICH, APPROPRIATELY, WAS A YEAR OF POOR LIFE CHOICES.

I can't even review it. It's... a fruity floral with notes of Weezer.

Shenanigans, and also blood.

Apr. 18th, 2014 12:51 am
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I have handed off Indexing to Purple, as I think this will be a great introduction to Seanan for him. He's already been introduced to Mira's writing.

For some reason, Purple said "Hello Mudder hello Fadder" at lunch, followed by "I love that song." I brightened, and informed him that one of my very favorite literary formats was the non-reassuring letter home. He was briefly baffled, so I started composing: "Dear Mama: Don't worry, we're all mostly safe now, and the doctor says that the worst of the injuries will be healed up in a couple weeks." He brightened in his turn, and we spent a while trying to yes-and each other's allusions to horrible events past and arguably ongoing. "I like the way your brain works." "Likewise." We beamed at each other.

Did I say that my team now knows where we're going? We know where we're going. (Mostly.) Shenanigans. Also, blood. )

THE "alien" in the story...

Apr. 17th, 2014 10:36 pm
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Conversations from readers have compared Alien Nation to Enemy Mine, and it would really fit well as a continuation of the themes I’ve touched upon with both Alien Nation and District 9.

But this is where the conversation, like most of the thoughts in my brain, takes a sharp left.

Instead of thinking about the “alien among us” finding a person or a group which accepts him, I started thinking about the “alien” who isn’t changed, but IS the catalyst for the people around him to change, or to cling persistently to their view of the world (which also changes them in subtle ways tangential to the ‘threatened’ element). I was thinking about the “alien”- the outsider- in the classic sense of acting as a lens through which we, the readers or viewers, look at the society he is trying to participate in.

I’ve deleted about two pages of text, trying to work my way from Alien Nation, or District 9, Enemy Mine, Blade Runner, Thor, Herakles, Highlander, Aragorn, Edward Scissorhands or Frankenstein: the Modern Prometheus, Wolverine, Charlie X, any narrator in an H. P. Lovecraft story…

My fingers are tired, and I’ve barely touched upon the most memorable “stranger in a strange land” tales, which is in no way to be confused with the book of the same title because tackling any R. A. Heinlein story before ten hours of sleep and a stiff drink of coffee is a dangerous proposition. Science fiction is only one of the latest ways to explore the concept, and it isn’t likely to be the last.

Words and timelines swept like a scythe through a large percentage of my personal favorites, leaving me to winnow through the bounty (or the chaff) to something I consider a truly WORTHWHILE read, or viewing.

The Man from Earth.

Go to IMDB, and watch the trailer for it. You’ll get almost exactly the WRONG ideas about the movie itself, I promise you. Pretty much the only thing I /mostly/ agree with that’s presented on the catalog entry is the viewer rating- 8.0 out of 10, though it sits well above the 9.0 mark for me.

Why? There’s very little violence,and no outside ‘enemy’ at all. Almost all the danger faced is psychological, as well. The entire setting is a small cabin in the desert - and not even the whole cabin; we only see the main room. There are a couple of exterior shots, but clearly of the same cabin in the same day. Seriously! It doesn’t even encompass a twenty-four hour timespan-- how can this movie call itself science fiction? There’s no explanation of WHY John is exceptional, only conjectures verging on wild guesses.

There’s so MUCH fiction about alienation, loneliness, insurmountable foreignness and saudade, some of which has surrounded their characters with ray guns and metal tripods tall enough to flatten pine trees, or described logic-driven, living “calculators” whose efficiency helped harvest and broker alien fuel between fictional worlds… Reductio ad absurdum, there are modern cultural icons like Mork from Ork, at least a third of the incarnations of the Doctor, and a bewildering array of comic book characters all predicated on that one concept.

When John Oldman asks, “What if a man lived, day by day, through fourteen thousand years?”, I am willing to believe, to suspend medical science, physics, quantum theory, and psychology, but WHY?

What is the thread pulling the viewer toward a science fiction “stranger in a strange land” or one in a fantasy world, rather than the more plausible stories which are merely called “fiction”?

Why are some people drawn to the fantastical, the phantasmagorical, the impossibly far future or never-extant past where magic and nature twined together into living castles in the trees?

Who are /we/, really?

Ms. Marvel #2

Apr. 17th, 2014 08:19 pm
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When last we left our intrepid heroine, she had broken out of the Inhuman cocoon looking like Ms. Marvel in her classic outfit. Confused and disturbed by what's going on, she reflexively changes form several times as she stumbles towards the riverside.

TRANSFORM!!!! )

Around 6 2/3 pages of 20.

[poem] w/hole-hearted

Apr. 18th, 2014 12:50 am
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for JJ, because how couldn't it be?

It's not the watching
of any one particular sunset
that's the thing:

it's finding time to breathe the steam that rises from your mug
to feel the warm seep into your cupped hands
to scribble in the margins of your day:

if every one's an island, then so what?
an island isn't ever watertight.

we're leaky vessels. so
drink your fill of sunlight--
and then go about your life.

[housekeeping] Heads-up

Apr. 18th, 2014 12:22 am
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I'm going to be dropping my citalopram to my summer dosage a week on Monday, so the 28th of April.

If you spot me going a bit wrong and I don't seem to have noticed, I'd massively appreciate you pointing it out, but t'isn't any of your jobs; and I'll be self-monitoring with PHQ-9 all else aside.

(ps thank you to everyone going "what the fuck" about my GP; I think I'd got into learned-helplessness mode about the entire situation. I have Done Some Preliminary Investigation into potential replacements.)

[ SECRET POST #2662 ]

Apr. 17th, 2014 07:22 pm
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⌈ Secret Post #2662 ⌋

Warning: Some secrets are NOT worksafe and may contain SPOILERS.

01.

More! )


Notes:

Sorry about the lateness, work's been keeping me late recently.

Secrets Left to Post: 01 pages, 021 secrets from Secret Submission Post #380.
Secrets Not Posted: [ 0 - broken links ], [ 0 - not!secrets ], [ 0 - not!fandom ], [ 0 - too big ], [ 0 - repeat ].
Current Secret Submissions Post: here.
Suggestions, comments, and concerns should go here.

Might I Suggest

Apr. 17th, 2014 06:48 pm
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I see your cake fell.

Might I suggest
Trying an extra egg and more baking soda?

You are so cranky after work.

Might I suggest
Explaining to your boss that you don't appreciate her attitude?

You were complaining about weeds.

Might I suggest
A garden service?
Let me hire one for you.
Here's a number.
Did you ring them back?
They're coming over Thursday.

Oh, a new dishwasher!

Might I suggest
Loading it sideways?

Your hems are ragged.

Might I suggest
You go shopping for new trousers?

You're out of milk.

Might I suggest
Going grocery shopping?
I can drive you.
Let me drive you.
Why did you buy milk without me?
Here, have some more milk.

This second carton of milk doesn't fit in your fridge.

Might I suggest
It's time to replace your fridge with a truck?

Your doctor works far away from your house.

Might I suggest
You go to a mechanic instead?

You posted a poem on the Internet.

Might I suggest
Calling the paper
Calling a publisher
Calling your senator
Calling the dogcatcher
Calling the Pulitzer Committee
I'm sure they will pay you for it.

(no subject)

Apr. 17th, 2014 07:00 pm
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much tired. so sleepy. very awake. wow, body. wow.

I mean, I realize it is only seven pm, but jesus coffeepot body I need sleep to get over this sinus infection, may I please have some sleep.

(also I hurt my back. very ow. much prescriptions, not real willing to add ibuprofen to the chemicals currently circulating in my body.)

in more cheerful news, [community profile] jukebox_fest has opened the tag set for nominations!
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Thought others here might find this new article to be of interest.

"Some 54% of Americans currently read ebooks, according to the new poll, conducted in March 2014 among 2,234 U.S. adults. This result conflicts with a recent study from Pew, which found in January 2014 that 28% of Americans read an ebook in the last year.

The Harris Poll also found that those who read ebooks more read more books on average than other Americans. About a third of those who read ebooks exclusively or more than print read more than 20 books a year, while about a fifth of those who read more in print read more than 20 books a year.

Ebook readers also purchase more books, about double what other readers buy."

Tiny Fluffy Fics

Apr. 17th, 2014 03:55 pm
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just three little short fics.


Candy Crush (288 words) by eerian_sadow
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Transformers Generation One, Transformers - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Jazz/Prowl
Characters: Jazz (Transformers), Prowl (Transformers)
Additional Tags: Fluff, Established Relationship, cultural crossover, Silly, robot smoochies
Series: Part 1 of tiny fluffy fics
Summary:

Jazz catches Prowl doing something unexpected in his downtime.




Besdise Manner (269 words) by eerian_sadow
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Transformers Generation One, Transformers - All Media Types
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Prowl/Sideswipe
Characters: Prowl (Transformers), Sideswipe (Transformers)
Additional Tags: Post-injury, Fluff, mentions of spark bonding
Series: Part 2 of tiny fluffy fics
Summary:

Sideswipe comes out of stasis in the medbay.




Best Friends (233 words) by eerian_sadow
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Transformers Generation One, Transformers - All Media Types
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Prowl (Transformers), Red Alert (Transformers)
Additional Tags: Fluff, Friendship, another trip to the intergalactic market
Series: Part 3 of tiny fluffy fics
Summary:

Prowl gives Red a gift.

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Well, that's scuppered my rainy-day plan to go see CA:TWS again (though as I type this, the sun is flirting with clouds, and it's all looking rather more gloomy, so hmmm).

tabletop season three

Apr. 17th, 2014 07:45 pm
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Posted by Wil Wheaton

How busy have I been? So busy that I forgot to write a blog about TableTop Season 3, and how you can help make it happen.

tl;dr: We’re crowdfunding Tabletop’s 3rd season. We’ve raised $500,000, so we can afford to do 15 episodes. If we get to $750,000, we’ll have enough to do 20 episodes (like seasons one and two), and if we get to one million dollars, we can afford to do the RPG spin off that I’ve wanted to do for years (a season-long campaign, cut into about 20 or so 40-minute-ish episodes with the same players, characters, and GM).

Here’s a spiffy video I made about it:

(Don’t read the comments; they will make you mad. Or, if you’re me, they’ll make you sad, because a lot of people don’t understand television production, and how much shows cost, so they yell at you a lot, based on presumptions that turn out to be wrong.)

Because we’re going completely independent , we can do some things we’ve always wanted to do, like an episode that’s me, Anne, and our kids. We’re also going to do a special episode that’s just a game or two for children, played with children, because thousands of people have asked me what I recommend they play with their kids.

We’re also going to do the SUPER DIRTY and PROFOUNDLY INAPPROPRIATE “TableTop After Dark” episode, where we play Cards Against Humanity. There may be beer and a couple of dirty comedians involved. This will be the episode that likely makes the world hate me forever.

We have a bunch of perks for people who choose to contribute various amounts to our effort, but I want to be really clear that we’re making Tabletop for everyone who loves it, whether they can give us zero or infinity dollars.

I’m not entirely positive when we’ll be filming the first 10 episodes, but I know we’re going to try to get them done soon, so we can release them later this summer. A lot of that schedule is going to be determined by how busy I am with The Wil Wheaton Project.

There have been a lot of FAQs about this campaign, so we did our best to answer them in the standard way:

Why are you going Independent?

Felicia: Geek and Sundry (and Tabletop) up until now was funded by YouTube’s original channel initiative, which is not continuing to go forward anymore. We have been talking to a bunch of partners and are excited about some of our options to continue G&S as a company, but Wil (and we) were passionate about being able to keep Tabletop on schedule to release more episodes this year, and stay independent of influence to change the show for sponsor/commercial reasons. That is why we are fundraising like this.

Wil: We want to make the same TableTop that we’ve made for two seasons, and give our audience something that we’re proud of, and we wanted to do that without compromising our vision for the show. The quickest and most reliable way to make that happen was to go directly to the people who love TableTop as much as we do, and ask them to help us make our third season as awesome as our first two.

Why are you asking for so much money?

Felicia: This show is a standout for a reason: We pay professional people to make it. It’s polished and stands next to TV show quality because we wanted to make something long-lasting, and impact in a big way, like a TV show when we conceived it. To put it in perspective: The average 30 second commercial you see on TV? Costs 1-3 million dollars. EACH. The average 1/2 hour comedy? 2-3 million dollars. Shows like Game of Thrones? 7-9 million dollars. PER EPISODE.

We are doing a minimum of fifteen, 30 minute shows for a fraction of ONE TV SHOW. If you put it in that perspective, we are definitely not paying people professional rates to work on it. I do a lot of low budget web videos (to help do shows like TableTop, actually), and I think the ones that last beyond that moment of consumption are the ones that have budgets, that people tend to enjoy over and over. My goal always has been to show the established TV world that people can work outside the system and compete with their business, Tabletop is our best example of that, just like The Guild before us. We are doing this show for the minimum we can do it and keep up what we have established before us.

Wil: This is a question that I wasn’t expecting, and I feel really stupid for not explaining this more in advance. I’ve lived in the film and television industry my whole life, and I’ve been an active producer on TableTop for 40 episodes, so I know how much it costs to make an average show, and how much it costs to make our show. Let me be clear right away: we’re not getting rich off TableTop. In fact, if TableTop was my only job, I wouldn’t be able to support my family for even one year. That said, to anyone who does not live in the film and television world, i completely understand a sense of ‘sticker shock’ upon hearing that this YouTube show needs half a million dollars to produce fifteen episodes.

This week, I’m doing an episode of The Big Bang Theory, When it’s all finished and cut together, it’ll be about 22 minutes (approximately the same length as the average episode of TableTop), and it’ll cost several million dollars to produce. If you do a strict math problem, you’ll see that we do fifteen (or 20 if/when we get there) episodes of TableTop – 33 minutes, at least, that’s 660 minutes of TableTop – for less than the cost of a single 22 minute episode of network television.

We put everything we have into TableTop, because we love it, and we push our budget to its maximum limited so the show that we put out on YouTube can stand next to anything you see on Broadcast or Cable, and I’ll keep doing that as long as we can. I also want to make one thing really clear: we’re incredibly grateful – I am personally – incredibly grateful and honored by the contributions we’ve been given by the TableTop community. I know that you’re trusting us to keep doing what we’ve been doing, and I’m going to honor that trust by making the very best show we can possibly make.

Will TableTop still be free to watch? Do I have to donate to see it?

Wil: It will absolutely be free to watch. And now that we are completely independent, we aren’t limited to broadcasting on YouTube, so we’ll be able to make Tabletop available to even more people in even more ways, as we release season three.



Felicia: You do not have to donate, we appreciate it so much if you choose to do so, and understand if you don’t. It will still be free and watchable by you if we make our fundraising goal.

So there you have it. Tabletop Season Three is guaranteed at least 15 episodes, and we’re feeling pretty optimistic that we’ll get to 20. I think it’s a longer shot that we make it to the RPG show, but Tabletop fans keep surprising me, so maybe I’m more uncertain than I should be.

Thank you to everyone who has supported us, and PLAY MORE GAMES!

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Translation by Robin Flowers:

I and Pangur Bán, my cat
'Tis a like task we are at;
Hunting mice is his delight
Hunting words I sit all night.

Better far than praise of men
'Tis to sit with book and pen;
Pangur bears me no ill will,
He too plies his simple skill.

'Tis a merry thing to see
At our tasks how glad are we,
When at home we sit and find
Entertainment to our mind.

Oftentimes a mouse will stray
In the hero Pangur's way:
Oftentimes my keen thought set
Takes a meaning in its net.

'Gainst the wall he sets his eye
Full and fierce and sharp and sly;
'Gainst the wall of knowledge I
All my little wisdom try.

When a mouse darts from its den,
O how glad is Pangur then!
O what gladness do I prove
When I solve the doubts I love!

So in peace our tasks we ply,
Pangur Bán, my cat, and I;
In our arts we find our bliss,
I have mine and he has his.

Practice every day has made
Pangur perfect in his trade;
I get wisdom day and night
Turning darkness into light.


Original version... )

D.O.P.-T.

Apr. 17th, 2014 12:29 pm
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I'm starting to have to remove grass seed from Bear's hair and my bed. And it was fully light when I left work this morning.

D.O.P.-T. (yesterday)

Apr. 17th, 2014 12:26 pm
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The housemate apparently crept in the house sometime in the early hours. Now we have to get her un-jet-lagged. She had crashed out by the time I left for work last night, although she did help me wake up.
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[personal profile] thingswithwings has a really lovely meta post about Steve Rogers' 1930s/1940s neighbourhood with lots of book recs, maps, and engrossing links. Apparently new MU/MCU canon has Steve living right in the middle of a notoriously gay Manhattan neighbourhood.

This put me into a wild tail spin of links hopping, and thinking about Allen Ginsberg, but how he was only published after Steve's crash, and then I couldn't stop thinking about how anchored in Manhattan Walt Whitman was and wondering about the likelihood of Steve knowing and reading Whitman...

The summer air, the bright sun shining, and the sailing clouds aloft,
The winter snows, the sleigh-bells, the broken ice in the river,
passing along up or down with the flood-tide or ebb-tide,
The mechanics of the city, the masters, well-form'd,
beautiful-faced, looking you straight in the eyes,
Trottoirs throng'd, vehicles, Broadway, the women, the shops and shows,
A million people--manners free and superb--open voices--hospitality--
the most courageous and friendly young men,
City of hurried and sparkling waters! city of spires and masts!
City nested in bays! my city!

(Mannahatta)


And then I had a usual bout of intense frustration at the erasure of Whitman's sexuality, so I angrily googled "Walt Whitman gay" and I was reminded of the Live Oak With Moss cycle, which is explicitly about same-sex love and was broken down and incorporated by Whitman into the Calamus cycle, and there is a great article by Alan Helms about that. He prints the whole cycle at the end of the article, and the third poem goes:

And the next came with equal joy—And with the next,
at evening, came my friend;
And that night, while all was still, I heard the waters roll
slowly continually up the shores,
I heard the hissing rustle of the liquid and sands, as
directed to me, whispering, to congratulate me,
For the one I love most lay sleeping by me under the
same cover in the cool night,
In the stillness, in the autumn moonbeams, his face was
inclined toward me,
And his arm lay lightly around my breast—And that
night I was happy.

(Live Oak With Moss, III)


IDK, I just love Whitman so much, and it makes me happy to think of Steve identifying with his poetry, reading it, talking about it, recognizing all the queer vibes in it, the way queer men and women have always done...

ETA: I thought I had already posted about my favorite Whitman poem, but apparently I haven't, and I just made both myself and Kabal really emotional with it, so here have some feels:

AS I lay with my head in your lap, Camerado,
The confession I made I resume—what I said to you in the open air I resume:
I know I am restless, and make others so;
I know my words are weapons, full of danger, full of death;
(Indeed I am myself the real soldier;
It is not he, there, with his bayonet, and not the red-striped artilleryman;)
For I confront peace, security, and all the settled laws, to unsettle them;
I am more resolute because all have denied me, than I could ever have been had all accepted me;
I heed not, and have never heeded, either experience, cautions, majorities, nor ridicule;
And the threat of what is call’d hell is little or nothing to me;
And the lure of what is call’d heaven is little or nothing to me;
...Dear camerado! I confess I have urged you onward with me, and still urge you, without the least idea what is our destination,
Or whether we shall be victorious, or utterly quell’d and defeated.

(As I Lay With My Head in Your Lap, Camerado)
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If you enjoy academic takes on fandom, here are some interesting conversations & presentations to share: http://bit.ly/QrHyzr
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'Imagine this conversation: "So, what's your name?" "Logan." "And your first name?" "I prefer not to use it." "But if you did?" "It's James." And that's that. The fact that he doesn't go by his original name is meaningful, and we'll get into that. And for those people who think that "but if you did?" should be followed by "snikt," oh grow up...' - Paul Cornell

Read more... )
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Posted by Kendra James

by Racialicious special correspondent Wendi Muse

Author’s note: Before anyone jumps all over me, I use “brown” here as a general term for people of African or indigenous American descent, not solely South Asians or Central Americans, though the article discusses issues for all POC travelers, not just the ones with darker skin.

Ah, Madrid.

I had decided that for spring break in 2005, instead of going to Memphis as planned, I’d take a week-long trip to Paris and Madrid instead. After all, in a weird twist of fate, the plane tickets to Europe were only about 100 dollars more than those I had bought to go to the place Elvis and I both called home. I figured as I could speak, read, and understand Spanish and French, I’d be fine. I’d been to Paris before, and loved it, and had heard awesome things about Madrid from my friends, so I thought, “Why not? Just breathe, and take a chance.” So I did, though I wasn’t exactly prepared for the less than warm reception in one of the liveliest cities in the Iberian Peninsula.

Paris was no problem, possibly due in part to the city’s expressed love (read: borderline fetishizing) of black folks (Josephine Baker, anyone?) or the running assumption that I was Moroccan/generally North African and not a black American. Most people just treated me like I was French, before I opened my mouth, of course (despite my perfect French accent, my occasional pause to find vocabulary words from my high school French mental database was a dead give-a-way). No one was rude to me or my friend with whom I went out on occasion (who is half white American, half indigenous Mexican, and clearly “of color”).

Madrid, on the other hand, completely did me in.

On a super basic level, I wasn’t a big fan of the traditional Spanish food, and, instead, flocked to the numerous Middle Eastern restaurants like water in a desert mirage. And though I was only there for three days, these little hole-in-the-wall, family-run eateries ended up being my surrogate safe havens as walking around on the street proved, well, difficult. I would say the city, overall, was far from receptive. While I understood having a pride in being Spanish, or a Mardileño, to be more specific, what I did not understand was why that translated into racism. I faced constant stares, and I mean constant, many of which were steeped in anger or confusion, despite my more than proper attire (I was not one of those fanny pack-wearing, head buried in a map, incapable-of-speaking-the-native-language types of tourists, trust me). I was cat-called, a lot, and though I was conditioned to that from having lived in NYC for four years at that point, what I hadn’t been exposed to was the overtly sexual racist epithets thrown my way (none of which I will repeat here). I tried to search the eyes of other people of color for an explanation. People of Asian descent seemed happy, even moreso there than in Paris. And people clearly from Africa also seemed OK, though I am sure their black skin proved problematic at times (look no further than the Madrid soccer related racism or even the recent Formula One racing incident in Barcelona). It was the somewhat racially ambiguous brown folks who seemed to run into trouble.

El Salvadorans, Guatemalans, Mexicans, and other phentoypically outcast Latin American immigrants (along with black Africans) held lower-echelon jobs and noticeably received stares and a little street harassment as well. Their spoken Spanish was a reminder of Spain’s colonial past that history had erased, glossed over, or simply euphemized, much like textbooks of Japan, the United States, or any nation, and their appearance even more so—typically indigenous and/or African features blending with those of the Spanish conquistadores and settlers of yore rendering many of the Latin American immigrants who had come to Spain in search of work easy to spot. I noticed that Caribbean Latinos and mulatos caught hell too, receiving the same sets of glaring eyes that I did when on public transportation or simply andando a pié.

To put it nicely, it was an awkward existence I led, at best, ceasing my outdoor activities more or less once the sun set because I had been propositioned more than once in the day time, and didn’t want to risk full on sexual assault at night due to my having been assumed to be a prostitute on account of my skin color. The hostel employees (all of Latin American descent) and the falafel bar owners loved me, but they were about the only ones in Madrid who made me feel somewhat human. On the cab ride to the airport, a place where I would later be racially profiled (read: separated from a line of a ton of other people, searched, forced to weigh my carry-on, a small backpack, and made to pay 60 Euros for it being a few kilos overweight on account of an art book I had bought for a friend from the Museo del Prado!), I vowed never to come back and counted down the minutes until I’d return to Paris for my departure to New York.

But during this cab ride, I learned a few things to which I was not initially privy prior to going to Madrid. The cab driver asked me how I liked Madrid, to which I replied, “I liked it, but I don’t think it liked me too much,” which led to our discussing (no kidding) race relations in Spain. The driver, born and raised in Spain, offered a perspective I had not fully considered. He mentioned the abject poverty and limited knowledge of Spanish that plagued African immigrant communities, and in many Spaniards’ minds, the state, as they were paying taxes to support unwelcome refugees. He also discussed the cause for my frequent run-ins with men who had less than Puritan intentions in their approach: that many women from the Dominican Republic and North Africa became prostitutes in Madrid to make ends meet. His explanation for the differing treatment of Asians vs. people of indigenous or African descent boiled down to the ability to assimilate.

“They come here already speaking Spanish,” he said. “. . . and with money” he added. He didn’t agree with how I was treated, and noted that I “seemed fine,” but was sure to note that “a lot of Madrileños aren’t ready for that kind of change. The young people, maybe, but their parents and people my age, not so much. They think they are pure, and forget about the years the Moors were here. They want things to stay the same. Come back in ten years, and maybe things will be better.”

Though I was back in Paris a few hours later, I thought about what he said for a while after that. While comfortably nestled in the plush leather-upholstered seats of the Swiss Air flight back to New York, I wondered if my little trip to Spain would have been different if I possessed a lower level of melanin, or even if I looked noticeably more African instead of bearing an appearance that confused people. Upon returning to the United States, the same friends who had recommended Madrid felt a tinge of regret for not having mentioned “the racism thing” or at least not having forewarned how it may have affected me. In retrospect, they all noted, as whites, they had never thought about it. They had only heard stories, those they had selectively compartmentalized in a place far away in the back of their brains because they didn’t really have to worry about it in Europe or in the United States in the same way, say, someone visually different from the majority would.

The experience and the discussions I had in the aftermath of my time in Madrid made me reflect on the privileges, or lack thereof, we have while traveling. Though I had a bad experience in Madrid, that is not to say every person of color has a comparable story. In fact, I know a few black women who loved Madrid and who have gone back several times, stating that they experienced a few incidents of racism, but mainly that it was more an issue of mistaken national identity than anything else. I think, too, of what the cab driver expressed in relation to his (and, arguably, the city’s) impression of Asians. Even my white friends had expressed a considerable sense of alienation in Madrid at times, not due to language, but mainly in relation to cultural differences or even physical ones (being super tall or Nordic in appearance, you name it). In looking back on the experience and after hearing those of others, I was able to put things more into perspective.

Even I am “privileged” (in a physical sense) in some locations, notably northern and central Brazil, where my appearance did not garner unreasonable attention, many assuming that I was just “one of them.” I even thought of my experiences in the United States. I didn’t feel as if my physically assigned racial characteristics made me stand out in some Brooklyn neighborhoods, whereas my white or Asian-American friends expressed extreme discomfort on account of stares and even statements geared toward them. I find myself losing sight of how powerful my appearance can be at the right place and at the right time, but never forget how much of a burden it can be in other situations.

In reflecting on my previous travel experiences as I prepare for an upcoming trip to Portugal, I began thinking about how many additional things I have to consider as a woman, and, in particular, a person of color before I travel. It’s amazing how many things travel guides leave out when it comes to the treatment a person of color may receive in a certain country, how to react to incidents of racism, or even whether or not what you are experiencing has nothing to do with race and all to do with cultural miscommunication. Though maybe I should expect it by now as many of the travel guide writers are white. Then again, only white people travel, right? (kidding, though on average, whites DO travel more widely and frequently than blacks, at least.. . though, given, this could be due to a series of factors that would lead me into an entirely new post, so I’ll shelve this for now).

Besides consulting the Minority Travel Forum on Rick Steve’s Graffiti Wall with posts from travelers of color (including people involved in interracial relationships, who have adopted children of a different race/ethnicity from their own, etc), which I highly recommend, it’s worth considering the following:

1. The travel guide will most likely leave out information about the reception, or lack thereof, you may experience as a person of color. This includes common words/sayings with which you may not be familiar, but that are actually not racist (i.e. if someone in the Dominican Republic were to call you “negrito” or “indio,” it would not be meant as a racial slur, rather a term of endearment based on your skin color and/or heritage).

2. Expect the unexpected, and don’t go into the situation assuming your experience will match those of your white peers and/or friends and family of color. Your command of the native language, body language, familiarity with the culture, style of dress, etc can alter how you are perceived and treated.

3. Don’t always assume racism is at play. As a result of the history of the United States, people of color and whites alike have been rendered into sensitivity machines, often analyzing things at a level of sociological sophistication that may not be of issue in some other countries. Also, bear in mind that every nation has its own respective history and deals with race and ethnicity accordingly. Don’t attempt to color their history with your own. Think of these things before you jump the gun.

4. Find out what you can do if you ARE a victim of racism. There are several anti-racist groups (i.e. SOS Racismo in Spain and Portugal) that hold workshops and do outreach based on race-related issues. Sites like this may be worth checking out prior to taking a trip.

5. Reconcile your prior experiences with those of the present. The United States and/or your home country more likely than not has witnessed acts of racism, many of which continue. Don’t assume that it’s only the country you are visiting that has problems. If we think of the Amadou Diallo case or the Jena 6 or Vincent Chin, the U.S. is a scary and ugly place for POC too. It doesn’t make racism here or elsewhere any better, but it definitely makes you realize that every country has its problems, so you can’t let a few instances of racism frighten you away.

6. If traveling by yourself and feel threatened as a result of your race/ethnicity, try to remove yourself from the situation, if possible and find a place where you feel more welcome. You may even want to try to get to know other people like yourself in that country, depending on the duration of your stay, to get tips on places to avoid, how to behave in the case of a threat, etc.

7. Do your homework. Before traveling anywhere, ask around and look up information detailing the experiences of people like yourself. As I mentioned before, their experience may not entirely mirror the one in which you are about to partake, but it may offer some helpful advice.

8. Have a good time, despite any adversity you may encounter. If anything, I learned to laugh at the experience in Madrid in retrospect, and in a weird case of Stockholm syndrome, have considered going back one day, though with a friend this time. If you have spent the money to go somewhere else, you might as well try to get as much out of it as you can!

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The artists' series: Jae Lee - Part 2

Apr. 18th, 2014 12:24 am
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Part 1 here: http://scans-daily.dreamwidth.org/4625802.html

Following his Jim Lee/Whilce Portacio/Bill Sienkiewicz (lite) style during his earliest Marvel stint, Jae Lee was snapped up by Image founder Jim Lee to illustrate an early WildCATS mini-series.

Soon after he launched a creator owned title, Hellshock, refining his art atyle in the process.

9 scans under the cut.

Read more... )
These scans from:
WildCATS Trilogy #3, November 1993
Hellshock (Vol1) #1,July 1994

The Owl, Edward Thomas

Apr. 17th, 2014 07:39 am
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The Owl

Downhill I came, hungry, and yet not starved;
Cold, yet had heat within me that was proof
Against the North wind; tired, yet so that rest
Had seemed the sweetest thing under a roof.

Then at the inn I had food, fire, and rest,
Knowing how hungry, cold, and tired was I.
All of the night was quite barred out except
An owl’s cry, a most melancholy cry

Shaken out long and clear upon the hill,
No merry note, nor cause of merriment,
But one telling me plain what I escaped
And others could not, that night, as in I went.

And salted was my food, and my repose,
Salted and sobered, too, by the bird’s voice
Speaking for all who lay under the stars,
Soldiers and poor, unable to rejoice.

Random Things for the Day

Apr. 17th, 2014 10:10 am
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Just back from the first two days of Passover with Batya's sister and family.  I believe the appropriate term is "ded from cute."  A five and a half year old with a tooth about to come out, a three year old with the biggest smile, and a very friendly baby.  Also, older kids you can have a conversation with.  A fun if exhausting time for all.

Alas, I have to head to work for the afternoon would be nice to have all of the holiday off, but there is too much to do, as ever.

But I had just a bit of time this morning to decompress.  And to finish off Scooby Doo: Mystery Incorporated on Netflix.  If you had told me that there would ever be a version of this beloved but rather juvenile show that I would binge watch, I would have called you nuts.  But amazingly, this series, clearly influenced by Buffy and X-Files and surprisingly smart and clever, is really worth watching.  The voice cast is generally strong, the use of pop culture references and of the history of the show itself is great, and there are even real (or close to real ) relationships between the characters.  Plus Harlan Ellison shows up.  Really.  If you have a spare moment or two, I highly recommend you give this a try.  Especially if you loved the original Scooby Doo as a kid, and still have a soft spot for it despite knowing better.

And that is all for now.  On to work.  And more holiday!


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Apr. 17th, 2014 09:13 am
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New bed has been very comfortable and firm so far. Makes some creaking noises when I get into it, but once I'm there it's quiet. If I could brace the headboard better maybe that'd be good- it's not attached to the bed proper, so pushing my pillow up too far bumps into it. I may look into getting some brackets to fasten them together or something. Have not motion-tested the bed much, though. I don't really toss or turn or bounce. Hopefully this should not be an issue.

On the RP front: )

More fic recs

Apr. 17th, 2014 01:21 pm
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Lots of fics today, mostly short Tumblr fics, a lot by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterter. I've just linked to my favourites, but they've linked to a masterlist of their Winter Soldier ficlets here: ifeelbetterer's winter soldier tumblr fic


Steve outliving everyone by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer
Anonymous asked: reminder that steve will probably outlive all his friends AGAIN due to the serum and also because everyone's older than him anyway. the thought would probably depress him like hell, maybe he'd think that he really wouldn't mind dying in combat. it's not like he's particularly attached to his life anymore. just cuz everybody's been crying about bucky barnes and i thought a change of pace would be nice. or maybe bucky feels and steve feels don't hurt in the same place. it's like set-aside

Social Media and Other Grievous Errors by [archiveofourown.org profile] fmo
Bucky discovers Facebook and Twitter, takes a lot of unnecessary photos with his phone, and briefly breaks Steve's heart by not friending him back.
Or: sometime vaguely a while after the Winter Soldier movie, there's still a bit of distance between Steve and Bucky, but they're working on it.

the avengers' first reactions to bucky by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer
Anonymous asked: how about something with the avengers' first reactions to bucky? or how they'd come to accept him, if ever?

sam/bucky fic by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer
badparsi asked: okay so in your tags for that sebastian stan and anthony mackie interview you ask why no one is asking you for sam/bucky fic. I AM ASKING. If it is an option, this is me, asking. I WANT IT SO MUCH AND NO ONE IS WRITING IT.

Steve and Bucky and dogs by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer
Anonymous asked: I love your ficlets so much! I saw your tag that says "steve rogers is adorable like a bagful of puppies" and now all I can think of is that I need something with Bucky and puppies. And frankly, he's been through enough that he deserves hugs and puppies at this point. Can I get a ficlet? It doesn't even have to be a puppy, he could rescue a mangy three-legged dog or something.
~Sequel moment with bonus Quvenzhané Wallis

Service Dog AU by [tumblr.com profile] ghostinthemxchine
Imagine Bucky gets a PTSD service dog
he complains about having a dog all the time - “why can’t she just walk herself, steve, it’s dark o’clock and i am not ready to be awake yet” - but it’s a poor ruse because he absolutely loves her and it’s so obvious. he takes her everywhere and kisses her head and lets her sleep on the furniture even when steve scolds him for it. all the avengers love her; even tony can’t pretend that he hates having a dog running around stark tower because it’s so wonderful to see bucky unabashedly heap affection on another living thing

Who's The Best Bird by [archiveofourown.org profile] ifeelbetter
Sam and Clint duke it out in medical over who's the best bird.

bucky's memories by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer
Anonymous asked: i had this idea last night and thought it might make a good ficlet, if you wanted to write it -- sometimes it takes bucky a week or more of picking at his own brain in order to unearth a single memory, but other times steve will begin to tell a story from before the war that bucky's never heard and didn't remember anything about until two seconds ago, but when it gets to the punchline he can finish it easily, without even thinking about it. it's the best kind of surprise.

After they find Bucky, he can't stand to be around Steve by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer
blueshoesandbluemountains asked: RE: Sam/Bucky prompts, I'll bite. After they find Bucky, he can't stand to be around Steve. So he goes to stay with Sam (where Sam can also help with PTSD counseling).

Troy and Abed are SHIELD Agents by [tumblr.com profile] melannen
Headcanon: Abed only got his job at SHIELD as a spousal benefit when they recruited Troy for their gadgets division

Bucky learning to be human again by [tumblr.com profile] waldorph
lazulisong asked: I WANT LIKE FIFTEEN BILLION STORIES WHERE BUCKY HAS TO LEARN TO BE A HUMAN BEING AGAIN AND HE SUPER FUCKING HATES IT BUT ... STEVE.

Steve and Bucky live together by [tumblr.com profile] febricant
hellotailor asked:
NON-MISERABLE post-CATWS fic where Steve and Bucky live together and Bucky has totally gone to therapy for years so it's OK for Steve to be a famous person with a boyfriend who can actually leave the house without having some kind of traumatic flashback? :D? :D?

Steering by [livejournal.com profile] salmon_pink
They don't have time for games, but Natasha doesn't care. And she's starting to see that Steve likes to play too.

Southpaw by [livejournal.com profile] salmon_pink
Revenge beats revenge.

Left and Slow by [livejournal.com profile] salmon_pink
He'll accept every part of Bucky, old and new.

Antiques by [archiveofourown.org profile] gladdecease
With museums as a backdrop, Steve and Bucky find themselves, and each other. (Or: the Smithsonian fanwank you probably didn't want or need.)

falls, falling, fallen by [archiveofourown.org profile] gladdecease
When the soldier falls, he begins to remember.

Standing Forward Bend by [archiveofourown.org profile] nerdwegian
"I feel slightly coerced," Phil says to Maria, looking at the various people rolling out their yoga mats across the floor.
(Tumblr prompt: Meeting in a yoga class.)

Whosits and Whatsits Galore by [archiveofourown.org profile] nerdwegian
"Hey, so, uh, there’s this thing that I wanted to mention," Clint says, and he sounds awkward and embarrassed.
(Tumblr prompt: We know Phil collects stuff. What if Clint does too?)

Where Love Falls From The Trees by [archiveofourown.org profile] nerdwegian
"Oh, no," Natasha says back. Clint can hear the smile in her voice. "I’m not his type. This one’s all yours."
(Tumblr prompt: What happens when Clint and Natasha are a team of con artists/thieves, and Clint goes in to "seduce the rich guy?)

Cap 2 thoughts by [livejournal.com profile] inkvoices

Bruce Banner fic rec list by [tumblr.com profile] ifeelbetterer

Yesterday we made our Bronx Zoo trip.

Apr. 17th, 2014 07:03 am
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The weather was really quite nice, and the girls and their friend did nothing but eat like birds. By which, of course, I mean they attempted to eat three times their own body weight. They might actually have succeeded in that. I thought I brought enough food. I really thought I brought enough money! The only thing I brought enough of was books, and despite what my sister thinks I just barely did.

Ana also finally got to ride a camel. Now she is irritated that she didn't get to sit in the front. I suspect they did it in size order, so she's outta luck there.

~~~~~~~~~


Russian President Vladimir Putin has said he has "a right" to send troops into Ukraine but hopes he will "not have to exercise that right".

http://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-27065782

Mafia mobsters are more sensitive, family-centred and less selfish than other criminals

http://ind.pn/1j5OV8h

Norwegian Fisherman Discovers Dildo Inside Cod Stomach

http://bit.ly/1qyyshq

Fox News outraged that all the people it told not to buy insurance can't get insurance until fall

None of this would even be an issue if we just went with single-payer....

http://bit.ly/1hRJ6sH

Pro-lifers can't reverse Roe v Wade. So they're shutting down clinics with red tape and a smile. Don't believe the lie

http://bit.ly/1eMPt69

The shooting at Jewish centers in Overland Park, Kansas, is tragic, but it is only one of hundreds of attacks against Jewish persons and institutions each year in the United States. Anti-Jewish hate crimes are the most common religious hate crime in the United States.

I would have assumed it was anti-Muslim hate crimes myself. I don't think demographics explains it - there are only about two or three times as many Jews as Muslims in the US, but the percentage of hate crimes seems more than two or three times higher!

http://bit.ly/1iP8AZS

U.N. climate report: We must focus on “decarbonization,” and it won’t wreck the economy
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Probably because it was an old receipt from the last time it was checked out. And I told her that when I was a kid, we didn't get a receipt.

Eva: What, they just expected you to remember when all your books were due?
Me: No. See, in the back cover there was a little yellow pocket, with lines making boxes. And when they had the book, it had a card, which also had lines and boxes. You signed on a line, and they took the card and stamped a date on it so they knew who had it and when it was due. And they stamped the same date in one of the boxes in the book so YOU knew.
Eva: So they had lots of stamps for each day???
Me: No, the stamps turned so they could set it to different days and months. On a wheel.
Eva: (utterly sincere) That's amazing!

I didn't tell her this method is much faster, although you miss out on seeing who else checked out the book.

The Mower, by Philip Larkin

Apr. 17th, 2014 06:26 pm
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The mower stalled, twice; kneeling, I found
A hedgehog jammed up against the blades,
Killed. It had been in the long grass.

I had seen it before, and even fed it, once.
Now I had mauled its unobtrusive world
Unmendably. Burial was no help:

Next morning I got up and it did not.
The first day after a death, the new absence
Is always the same; we should be careful

Of each other, we should be kind
While there is still time.

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Apr. 17th, 2014 02:45 am
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* Things are incredibly complicated in Ukraine right now. I'm exhausted and am simply not up to trying to explain.

* TW. They have found 55 bodies of boys buried on the grounds of a reform school in Florida that was closed for systematic abuse for a hundred years. That's twice the expected number. They are hoping to return the remains of the boys to their families. No fucking words.

* The thing the right wing media machine isn't telling you about the cattle dispute in Nevada is that the man they are championing as a hero is a just another rich man who is taking public resources while refusing to pay his taxes.

* "Attacking The 'All Transwomen Are Sex Workers' Meme:" http://www.transgriot.blogspot.com/2014/04/attacking-all-transwomen-are-sex.html

It disgusts me that as a society we've decided to jail people on the grounds that identity is de facto proof of criminality with no other evidence needed.

* "About Time The Offensive Trans Slur Terms Were Dropped From 'Drag Race':" http://transgriot.blogspot.com/2014/04/about-time-offensive-trans-slur-terms.html

* "Overpolicing Language? Seriously?:" http://www.transgriot.blogspot.com/2014/04/overpolicing-language-seriously.html

* "The Gay Father I Never Knew:" http://www.slate.com/articles/life/family/2014/04/twenty_two_years_ago_i_asked_my_dad_if_he_was_gay_then_he_was_gone.html?wpisrc=burger_bar

* Glee: 5:18 "Tested:"

Spoilers: )

In some ways, it was like this episode as a whole was scraping away layers of old paint and wallpaper being laid down in the culture for decades and while acknowledging those things, painting the walls afresh and reopening discussions silenced for decades in the media.

* I've got circular swaps with openings.
Hot drinks: http://www.bpal.org/topic/83154-spring-drink-swap-open/
Scented Products: http://www.bpal.org/topic/83239-spring-scented-products-kitchen-sink-circular-swap/

O, Canada

Apr. 16th, 2014 09:40 pm
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Mom and I are going to drive up to Canada.

I’ve driven to Seattle before, and I’ve driven from Seattle to Vancouver before. However, the next stage is the ferry from Vancouver to Vancouver Island, which I’ve never taken (I’ve always flown).

I’ve also never been to Victoria before, so I’m excited that we’re going there, too, probably on the return. We may have some time for a quick visit on the way up or back, but I’m guessing that our timing is going to pretty much miss anything of interest in Portland. Seattle’s more possible.

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