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In spite of a little meditation in the morning and a walk around noon, my brain felt like mush all afternoon. Very scattered and difficult to concentrate. I finally did dive in to a Makefile and made some progress, though not as much as I would have liked, and fixed a bug in the one of the last two systems that actually still run my demo.

Spent most of the evening hiding out in the office until things thinned out somewhere between 10:30 and 11.

Quote from a comment made elsejournal: "I often wonder what it would be like to be, if not 'normal', at least enough like other people to be able to experience a few things in close enough to the same way as to find them comprehensible." It's an exageration, of course; many things about other people are comprehensible to me. With others, though, I'm never entirely sure.

Links: My sister-of-choice [livejournal.com profile] pocketnaomi pointed me at this post by [livejournal.com profile] osewalrus, in part to introduce me to the phrase "Elija moment". [livejournal.com profile] cflute pointed me at books about self-esteem by Nathaniel Branden and Jean Illsley Clarke. I'm currently starting on Ten Days to Self Esteem by David D Burns.

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Yesterday was a pretty good day; a nice way to put me back into the groove of "done" posts.

I got in a proper walk, and a fair amount of actual work.

"Date night" consisted of a huge salad and leftovers at home, followed by a pleasant drive, and ended up in bed with a particularly sensual cuddle. I slept very soundly, for once.

 

Today's link sausage includes the Karmic Koala release of Ubuntu, and Scott McCloud's comic about Google Chrome.

Some of my poly friends might be interested in [livejournal.com profile] theferrett's recent three-part series. The middle one, The Vital Skill Of Jealousy - is particularly interesting and a little more generally applicable than the others.

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A good day. I felt very dragged out in the morning, and didn't do much in the way of journaling. It may have been mostly blood sugar, and I was ok by the time I got to work, A little while after that I got a happy, almost bubbly call from [livejournal.com profile] cflute that got the rest of the day off to a great start. We agreed that it was wonderful to have good things to talk about. The last year has been horrific for both our families; we're ready for Samhain to bring us a bright, shiny new one with good jobs for those who need them, good health for all of us, and homes filled with music, love and contentment.

I followed this with a walk around the pond; I took 10 minutes out for meditation, and another five or so to simply sit and watch the beautiful koi. I could feel my mood lighten. I returned to work and was contentedly productive for the rest of the afternoon, turning an ancient EeePC into an Unbuntu server that can be taken to Japan next week for a portable version of $DEMO.

There were too many conversations going on for me to sing, but I came out of my hole for some up-tempo noodling a couple of times.

Yeah; a good day. Let's have some more of them.

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It appears to have been a productive day yesterday: I got a gift package into the mail, started a private journal, took a walk, meditated for 20 minutes, and finished sorting the financial and charity mailings to the point where I have a decent chance of finding the paperwork I need for my taxes.

I figured out that I need to water my nose three times/day; it really helps.

And in a time when I'm suffering considerable angst about the disconnect between my conscious awareness and my emotions, I was surprised and delighted to discover that looking at little kids reliably makes me happy. I smile when I see a baby, or a class on a field trip to the post office, or even a kid making a fuss in a restaurant. (This last may be because I know the kid isn't one of mine.) I may be able to leverage that into actually becoming aware of my feelings.

On the other hand I got some disturbing news from a friend, and spent some sad time pruning a couple of dead relatives from my .mailrc file.

On the gripping hand, I finished the day with a 10-line shell script for journal maintenance, a hot bath, and a bit of warm, loving snuggle. A pretty good day, on average.

As for link sausage, today we have The Meme of Yay!, and pictures inspired by my interests by hsiffyppah and sweetmusic-27. Yay!!

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I spent much of the morning moving directories around to put things like River drafts, my to.do file, and my new private journal all in one directory under version control. I spent some time in the evening, though not much, deciding on a name for my Dell netbook and putting it and Colleen's Eee into DNS. (The naming theme for mobile devices at the Starport is "stars with high proper motion"; the Dell is barnard.)

Got a reasonable start on sorting out the piles in the office that combine financial stuff (which I'm going to need for taxes) with the latest charity mailings. There are also two or three boxes of earlier charity mailings that I'll have to at least glance through before I toss them, and a big pile of cards and calendars and so on.

My walk, like Wednesday's, was twice around the pond, with a 20-minute meditation break. Reasonably focussed. I spent some of the walk time thinking about the new directory organization and scripts I could write to help manage it.

For Date Night Colleen and I went to Tony Roma's; I had mahi-mahi, and she had steak. Lots of things there for Callie and Naomi -- their spinach dip appetizer is based on corn chips, not the more common sourdough bread. After dinner we drove back the long way, through Saratoga and Los Gatos.

Yeah, a pretty good day.

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Maybe not the most productive day possible, but I managed to get enough space cleared in the office for someone to sit comfortably. That's more than I could have done a week ago.

A good walk (nice, suddenly-cool weather for it) with 19 minutes of reasonably focussed meditation. Go me!

Decided, on the basis of an evening conversation and some good examples among my friends, to start a private (i.e. totally local and off the web) journal. I may conceivably keep a paper journal as well.

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Odd day. Not very productive at work, but I got a lot of decluttering done at home. A good walk; a little ankle pain, so I didn't push it too hard. Five bags of magazines taken out of the office; after this it gets harder because I'll have to sort envelopes and lots of small objects and gizmos, and make decisions about where to put them.

Marty ended up making dinner -- I have no idea what the YD's problem is.

Spent some time on system administration; turned out that my webmail accounts on Dreamhost were over their disk quota, probably because of spam to "postmaster". I'll have to make sure I run fetchmail often enough to keep it cleaned up.

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So, yesterday we drove down to ConChord. Despite my worries, Colleen handled the trip very well; we had to stop a little more often than usual, but she managed just fine in the public restrooms along the way. She took a spill at the hotel, going sideways along a very gentle slope, but escaped uninjured, undeterred, and cheerful. I love my turbo-snail!

It turned out to be a Forgetful Friday in a couple of ways -- Colleen left her phone at home, and I left the directions I printed. Fortunately all I had to remember was the exit: Topanga Canyon Road. It's 101 all the way down. I also realized too late that I should have packed a badge holder.

I also forgot to take my meds in the morning -- naturally I only found that out when I went to take them at night. I took the essential once/day stuff. The noteworthy thing about it was that I found this very amusing, rather than beating myself up over it. Go me.

No singing -- we crashed about 11pm after conversation in the con suite.

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I guess it was a good day. I worked from home in the morning so I could take Colleen in to Kaiser for a PT appointment, followed by training in subcutaneously injecting one of her new meds. Easy, compared to the things I was doing around the TPN, except for having to stick a needle into somebody I love. The new drugs appear to be working, though -- her colon appears to be absorbing water again, after half a year of diarrhea. Yay!!!

I got some exercise in lieu of a walk by going up and down stairs at Kaiser. Tiring, but not a lot of fun. I also got in 15 minutes of meditation while waiting for Colleen to come out of PT. It's a good way to fill wait time, I've found.

At work, I got my my demo back in shape for Friday. Since I won't be there, I gave my coworker MG the information he needed to ork it if it breaks, though it probably won't.

Two items from my Wishlist got done: [livejournal.com profile] screaming_angel installed Eeebuntu on Colleen's EeePC netbook (which is now named Eeyore), and Rick Moen got a good, solid start on weeding the front yard. YAY!!

A good practice session in the living room; I should probably do it every week, since it will give me practice handling distractions. Did I mention that bears are easily distracted?

The session left me in a very weird mood which I eventually (tentatively) identified as some form of happy. I was talking with Colleen in the bedroom when I realized that I was smiling and burbling. It still felt weird. N suggested afterwards that I bask in it, and try to remember what it felt like for times when I'm not happy. I found both of these to be very unfamiliar concepts. I need more practice, obviously; I'll have to keep that in mind for when the next opportunity comes up.

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A good day; relaxing. My service rep at the Honda dealership called about 9:20 to say that my car was (finally!) done; a quick check of Google Maps confirmed that it was only a little over three miles. So after a reasonable-sized breakfast of leftover Mexican, I put on my walking shoes. The trip took about 1:10; not terribly scenic, but a good walk.

There were quite a few vacant buildings along the route. These are not good times for business. Also a good number of curb cuts missing, which is something I tend to notice these days.

I can haz concert at ConChord. Yay! Did some brainstorming with Colleen about the setlist, and how best to showcase my songwriting talents. So probably not Riverheart or Ship of Stone, much as I like them.

We took a very pleasant drive up Highway 9 to Santa Cruz, and back on 17. A little over 2 hours, if I remember correctly.

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Mostly a good day; well, a good evening, anyway. I spent much of the afternoon feeling oddly down and discouraged, for no detectable reason.

The evening, though, was great: we arrived at Seanan McGuire's book signing early enough to get dinner at a tasty little Mexican hole-in-the-wall called Cactus, and still had time to hang out, buy copies, and get them signed. Lots of people we usually only get to see at cons, and it gave Colleen a chance to show her face in public. Yay! We win!

Sang for Colleen. I probably need to get streaming audio set up, don't I?

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A good day, reasonably productive on a personal level. (Work time was mostly taken up by a pair of meetings and a little coding, but also recovering from Wednesday's successful demo.)

A good, calming walk by the pond.

We had dinner at Chevy's with the YD because her school was having a fundraiser there; the food was salty and the chile verde seemed to consist of dry pork with a little green sauce poured over it. Bletch.

After Colleen and I got back from a lovely drive, I sang for her and Naomi (via speakerphone). We agreed that we need to do that more often.

I slept badly, but got in a couple of hours of lazy, comfortable snuggle. On the whole I'm not complaining.

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It was, on the whole, a very good day. Busy, occasionally frustrating, but good.

It started badly -- I overslept, somehow thinking it was Sunday (maybe because I often sleep in on Sundays, and that's what I wanted to do). Luckily the YD gets up early these days so she can call her BF before he goes to work.

The goodness started a little after noon with a Call from a Cheerful Callie, followed by a good walk. I then got back on my head in the code, trying to update two new devices to the point where they would run my demo. Fortunately, I saved the state of the one working device before I started, because it turned out that somebody broke the svn tree. Oops.

I finished the day around 7pm with three working devices, declared victory, and went home. (Extra points if you know the origin of that phrase.) Just as I was pulling into the exit I got a delightful call from N's kids, thanking me for the paper dolls and sticker book I'd brought up to Seattle last week.

When I got home dinner was ready. Also, Colleen made it through the entire day without TMI )

incidents, which after a solid four months was welcome news indeed. And her PCP apparently lit a fire under her gastrointestinal specialist; she has an appointment next week.

I took a bath around 10pm and we went to bed at 10:30. We both woke around midnight and had a full hour of lovely Snuggle. I was awake for another hour or so, but it was worth it.

The link sausage for the day is Gizmodo's gallery of houses built from unusual materials.

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Not a very productive day, but a pretty good one on the whole. Lots of yummy links, which I'll get to shortly.

I noted that the YD has been getting up on her own, this first week of school. Not always early enough to make me coffee, but at least I haven't had to go upstairs to rouse her. Go, girl!

I managed a medium-length walk, with 15 minutes of meditation, so that was good.

Colleen told me that in her opinion I had a low-grade virus; the fact that both my nasal congestion and muscle aches have mostly gone away over the last two days is supporting evidence.

The major insight of the day was realizing that PE in junior high and high school was nothing but continuous humiliation for me. It could hardly have been otherwise, for someone with neither interest nor ability.

We ended the day with our "date night" dinner at El Torrito -- tasty and much less expensive than some of the places we've been going -- and went to bed early. Snuggle. Yay for snuggle.

Link sausage for the day.

a computer, a CD drive, a short shell script, and a piece of string rocking a baby to sleep. Silly, and terribly sweet.

Calibre, an open-source, cross-platform e-book library organizer. I definitely intend to take a look at this for the Kindle.

Giz explains how to actually make coffee using a variety of pots.

Some nice-looking hardware: the Touchbook tablet/netbook ($399, available for pre-order), and two articles about Nokia's N900 Maemo (Linux) phone. Gadget lust.

The No-To-SQL anti-database movement. Most of the time you don't need one.

A Newsweek article on polyamory, and Woody Guthrie's song Philadelphia Lawyer round out the day's collection.

I rather like this method of clearing my tabs.

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Not so good a day. Ted Kennedy died. I've already posted about my shoulder and school shootings. I did get a walk in -- that was good. Plus some meditation.

Don't know how it balances.

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The elusive Amethyst remains elusive, but apart from that it was a very good day. A little meditation, a visit to my wolfling daughter [livejournal.com profile] chaoswolf, taking her and her flatmate out to yummy sushi at Riki Riki, an evening of tasty Tempered Glass rehearsal, and deep conversation starting in the library and ending up in the hot tub. Got to bed late but very happy.

Chaos doesn't like uni. More for me.

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A very good day. Relaxing. Tagged along with Callie while she ran errands, hung out with Naomi and noodled away on guitar, helping her relax while doing stressful work. Sang her QV with the new verse (Pandora) as well-earned congratulations on getting through a couple of weeks of hell. Music and conversation, and getting parboiled in the hot tub. Yeah, a good day.

Two major (to me) steps along the river. The first was that I actually noticed that I was smiling, and when I called Colleen she said she could hear the smile in my voice. Note: I didn't notice that I was happy, I noticed that I was smiling. Happiness was an inference.

The other was rephrasing a statement that "I should have (done X)" to read "I could have (done X) if I'd thought of it at the time." That goes along with the "I should stop shoulding myself" project, and means that I actually am more aware of what I'm saying to myself.

Naomi and I sang "There Is a Healing In This Night" in the hot tub with me, and afterward we sang her braided Tempered Glass arrangement with Callie.

The day ended with some Middle-Sized Bear time, Naomi and I taking turns leaning on one another's shoulders. I am loved. The only thing that could have made it better would have been having Colleen along. Next time.

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A good day: an uninteresting flight, a good insight, good conversations, and music. Can't ask for much more than that. Kat's guitar, a Little Martin, was easy to carry thanks to a backpack rig, but occupies a bit more space in the overhead bin on a 737.

The main thing I forgot to pack was the six blocks of Kraft mozzerella we'd bought for Naomi. Grump -- that's going to be hard to ship up.

The aha! of the day came from realizing that being a Middle-Sized Bear probably has a lot to do with mindfulness - it's a matter of expanding centered awareness and stillness to include the other person. Cool!

On the way back from the airport with Callie I mentioned the difficulty I have in making the transition from random routine to concentrated work and finding time for geekery at home. She told me about homecoming rituals -- the things you do when you get home to leave the work day behind. Perhaps I could devise something similar that could get me into the hacker headspace. Well worth thinking about.

Spent some time with Naomi in the evening alternating song-swapping with being in Middle-Sized Bear mode. I win.

It looks as though Sunday will be my day to visit the Wolfling.

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Pretty decent day, and pretty productive, though a whole lot of stuff still didn't get done. :( No walk.

The promised email from Dell still hadn't shown up, so I tried calling. No love to Dell's customer service. They call it "customer care", but it doesn't.

10 minutes of meditation, which was calming but generated no insights. Minor argument with Colleen about telling me things. She tried several times, apparently, to tell me that the YD was using her sister's room as a playroom but would clean it up for guests, but then gave up because I wasn't paying attention. When it's important, I really need her to keep trying, but apparently it's hard for her to determine when I'm sufficiently not-busy to be paying attention.

Hint: if we're in the same room, I'm looking at you, and not reading or engaged in some task, I'm probably paying attention to what you're saying. Otherwise all bets are off. Saying "Steve, I have something to say to you" will probably work best to get my attention -- I may not hear the whole phrase, but I'll probably catch my name and a few keywords. But wait until you can see I'm listening before you go on.

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A much better day than Monday. Of course, that's not saying much. Still a lot of... resistance?... whenever I probe around Monday's meltdown.

But I got quite a lot done, including a full half-hour of meditation in the car waiting for Emmy to get through picking up her class schedule. Evidently I needed it. No walk, though.

Someone allegedly from Dell called to say I'd won a netbook in the drawing at OpenSourceWorld last week, but her promised email never showed up. Probably eaten by work's spam filter.

Link sausage: An article on holy wells from this post by [livejournal.com profile] ysabetwordsmith. A comparison of blankets with sleeves. And a fascinating but possibly triggery blog post on how much to tell about yourself on your blog, from ryanstephensmarketing.com.

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A rather frustrating day, mostly described upstream. I got quite a bit done, but not nearly as much as I meant to; I didn't get out of the house at all. No walk, no shopping.

I ended up feeling mentally and physically drained. It got better after Colleen got home, though, so maybe it was just a combination of frustration and missing my Cat.

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It would have been a good day to get my car serviced, if I'd scheduled it sooner. I did a little maintenance on my main workstation computer instead, and got the new backup drive installed. The plan is to work on the fileserver tomorrow.

I took a walk, but felt slightly down and very anxious about something. Never did figure out what. I might have had a touch of a virus, or simply low blood sugar; I was OK by the time I got home.

I had a nice IM conversation with [livejournal.com profile] pocketnaomi, where she praised both my kids. We agreed that it's easier to believe people when they say good things about our kids than when they say good things about ourselves.

Colleen bought a ceiling-projector clock this afternoon. Major win. Why didn't we do it years ago?

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A pretty good day, though not too productive. A good talk and a productive meeting at work, and a drive with Colleen in the evening. Colleen used the walker, not the scooter, to get to and from the car.

I meditated in the morning just after waking up; it got rid of essentially all of my neck pain and tension. Big win. I'm probably going to have to re-arrange things once I start having to take the YD to school in the morning, but for now it works.

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It appears to have been a fairly productive day, in spite of ending rather badly. I did quite a lot of puttering, installed the other new shelf in the office, did some shopping, went to Kathy Mar's bash (and bought her new CD/DVD set), and boxed up Kat's computer, keyboard, and monitor. Discovered that just after getting up seems to be the best time for meditation.

On the minus side, no walkies, I got a well-deserved chewing-out from Colleen about the fact that email still doesn't work on her computer, and I ended the day sore, dead tired, and unable to get to sleep. A bath and a bit of IM conversation with another insomniac helped.

My stomach muscles were all knotted up as if I was afraid of something, but I still don't know what. Weird.

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Not really anything spectacular; I got a good walk in, and made more progress at work than I have in a while (which probably isn't saying much).

I suppose that going to bed earlier has to be listed as an accomplishment. I still don't have to like it.

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The walker holder for Colleen's scooter arrived -- it should be very convenient for travel, though it would be one more thing to take off and put back on for the car. Especially good for places like hotel lobbies, airports, museums, or anyplace else where she might need a bathroom break or to get up and walk for any other reason away from home.

Signed up for giving a half-hour talk at work about the git distributed version control system. Since I wasn't being nearly as productive at work as I want to be. *wry grin* Next Thursday. Eeep. I also found out that the deadline for the demo I've been working on is sometime in late July. Since it dovetails nicely into my longer-term project, it's not as though the time will be wasted in any way.

And the need for examples will give me an excuse to finally convert some of my websites to git from cvs, which I've wanted to do for at least a couple of years now.

Colleen had a touch of a stomach bug in the morning, and spent most of the day dozing in her chair subsisting on ginger ale and toast. She was fine by evening, and asked for a bowl of ice cream when I came to bed after my bath. And I was able to make her laugh, and give her some good snuggle and late-night conversation.

Good day, on the whole.

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Going back over my notes last night, yesterday was a very good day. Surprisingly good. Look at all those boldfaced items up there. Somehow I didn't really notice while I was out and about doing things. The YD done with school and passing all her classes (even if by the skin of her teeth), a walk, real progress on the demo I'm writing at work, sushi with Colleen and the Younger Daughter, a drive, a little meditation... It was all good.

I'm caught up on my sleep, I feel rested, there's a party today -- and Colleen's home for it, after missing the last three.

I keep looking for the "but...", and feeling vaguely discontented that I can't find it. Never mind.

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I combined my lunchtime walk with sitting and meditating by the pond; it seemed to work well. Very calming.

I had some interesting insights at work, which I can't talk about much, regarding the relationship between $immediate-short-term-demo and $current-project.

Mentioned during the "Being Mindful" group that my mental state in meditation is very different from my mental state when I'm reading or focussed on a task: I'm alert and present rather than cut off from everything else. There's no moment of disorientation when I come out of it.

Took my first "caregiver's evening off" by wandering around the Pruneyard shopping center, and then "historic downtown Campbell". There was a vague plan to get a massage at Massage Envy, an instance of which is located in the Pruneyard, but by the time I got there they were closing up. Similarly, by the time I got to Campbell everything but the restaurants and bars had closed, and by the time I left at 9:30 only a bar or two were left. I could almost hear the sidewalks rolling up behind me. It was OK, but not what I was hoping for.

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I woke up around 7:30, but added another hour and a half of semi-conscious dozing. Took some cyclobenzaprine (it's not nearly as good a sleeping pill if you take it in the morning); it seems to have done a pretty good job on the various muscle spasms. I still don't like what "getting enough sleep" -- if that's what it is -- does to my day.

Added a couple more books to my Powell's order. Of course, my "to be read" shelf is already overflowing, but at least the psych stuff is important enough to go to the front of the queue. If I'm ever awake long enough to read anything.

Installed the cheap USB printer switch that I got at Fry's on Saturday, so that visitors like [livejournal.com profile] cflute can use the laser printer without having to mess with swapping cables. It still prints from Nova, at least, so I'm happy.

Took a 3-mile walk, but it felt like I was walking through invisible mud; I think I was more depressed afterward than when I started. Dinner, noodling on the guitar... At least I seem to have bounced back to "sort-of OK" as of this morning.

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Got up at 9:30, and went to bed at about 10:30. DO NOT LIKE. Yeah, I know I have to get enough sleep, and I'm making up for at least a week's worth, but this does nothing at all to relieve the sense that I'm not getting anything done.

Cyclobenzaprine has definitely helped unknot my shoulders, though there is now a knot near the base of my spine. I've also spent the last couple of days getting by during the work day with a little shoulder bag with just room for my wallet, my keys, and my 3x5 card notepad. Naturally that does not include things like my coin purse, camera, business cards, car clickers, checkbooks, ... For work, I carry the big bag in my rolly along with the computer. I suspect that a lot of my shoulder problems were caused by a too-heavy backpack and shoulder bag.

I got in a good walk, about 3 miles by Los Gatos Creek. I managed to stay mindful and in touch with my surroundings for about the first 20 minutes; it did seem to make a difference. Unlike the state I get into when I'm reading or hacking, I seem able to snap out of meditation instantly if I'm needed for something.

Got to Fry's and bought a video card for the YD so she can run the latest version of Sims. Half a gig of RAM in that thing -- I remember when that was a hell of a lot of disk.

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My main accomplishment for the day has to have been splitting the Tempered Glass concert at White Blossom, only two weeks after the event itself. OK, that's not all that great, but I still have recordings from a year or more ago that haven't been split up and posted. So go me anyway.

Since Tuesday's "being mindful" group session I've been trying to get back into the habit of meditation. I find that it's been comparatively easy to slip back into my old (from 40 years ago) habit of meditating while waiting for things like appointments. We'll see whether I can keep it up.

There's still a lot of muscle tension in my left shoulder; I'm going to try taking a rolling laptop bag today (for both the laptop and my shoulder bag) and seeing whether that helps. Sitting still and trying to be aware of my body seems to have helped, too.

The other major bit of news was Colleen ordering groceries from safeway.com to take some of the shopping load off me. I also felt free to go in to work in the afternoon, knowing that Ali was around to help with the shopping.

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Again, a pretty good day. I'm not sure what's making the difference, but I'm not complaining. Colleen and I are starting to think about ways of taking some of the caregiving and errand-running load off of me (see comments on this post in particular). I expect to be posting more about this later.

The short version, though, is that she's going to be shifting a lot of the grocery shopping to Safeway's online store, and holding a Ladies' Sewing Circle and Terrorist Society meeting on Tuesday nights to give me some time off.

Colleen went off to San Francisco in the afternoon with Marty and Ali to a 50%-off sale on Britex's remnant floor. I'm delighted -- she had fun, and came back happy and unharmed, and planning additional fabric-oriented mayhem. (See previous paragraph.)

The "Being Mindful" group finally started up at Kaiser. (For those not into the latest psychobabble, it's about the theraputic version of Buddhist meditation techniques aimed at achieving mindfulness: a "mental state, characterized by calm awareness of one's body functions, feelings, content of consciousness, or consciousness itself.") Mindfulness looks like a useful addition to my mental toolkit, and I'm starting to try to apply it. (Tag: zen.)

Finding a support group for caregivers may take a little more work; there's one at Kaiser, but the description is specific to caregivers of Alzheimer's patients.

And the YD made dinner -- the chicken was OK and a trifle underdone; the roasted zucchini slices drizzled with olive oil and maple syrup were surprising and wonderful!

I don't think I mentioned it at the time, but [livejournal.com profile] artbeco's gorgeous Amethyst Rose card that I ordered from her Etsy shop arrived a couple of days ago. Wow.

Good conversations, a little silliness, a happy Cat, and snuggle. Yeah, a pretty good day.

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