Thank you!

There seem to be all sorts of distorted thinking and bad self-talk going on, and the clutter makes it hard for me to tell whether my problems are trying too hard or being afraid to try hard enough. But I think your suggestions of environmental cues or incentives may help in either case, if I can figure them out.

Incentives -- ways of rewarding myself -- are particularly hard to figure out, for reasons that I don't quite have a handle on.