Productivity? What's that?

[mdlbear]

I've actually been fairly productive the last few days. If I'd been this productive two months ago, around the end of March, I'd have my FSA receipts all sorted, the Consonance concerts all up on the web, and be feeling a lot less panicked and harried and depressed.

There's a receipt that I know was on my desk, where I needed it. It's not there now. There's a phone call I should have made 12 hours ago; it's too late now.

As it is, I'm feeling frustrated, panicked, defeated, worthless, and hopeless. Also, paradoxically, bored and restless. I can't focus, can't concentrate, can't sit still, can't relax. Which is not helping.

Knowing that it's some combination of burnout and depression, and that depression lies, doesn't help either. Neither did taking a walk this afternoon, except maybe temporarily.

Comments

[callibr8]

What she said, so VERY well. Thanks, C. I hope Steve takes your cogent, valuable suggestions and implements them. I've been worried too. Admiring the "cope", but worried for the friend who's been coping with so much for so long.

[mdlbear]

I hope I do, too. I hope I can figure out how to implement them; I'm very deep in unknown territory here.

I've never been very good at organising my time; there's barely enough for work, care, housework, and errands.

I've never been good at simply "enjoying" anything -- I'm not sure I know how it's done. Maybe we could talk about that sometime; deep conversation is one of the very few things I know that I do enjoy.