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mdlbear ([personal profile] mdlbear) wrote2009-07-23 10:12 pm
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River: Distracted?

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.

Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed

[identity profile] capplor.livejournal.com 2009-07-24 12:36 pm (UTC)(link)
and I'll second the motion to farm out or ignore whatever you can (other than family, on the ignore part, of course). HAVE YOU CALLED COUNTY SOCIAL SERVICES?? Any programs they have that would help, GET THEM!!!

At this point the only SHOULD is that you and your family survive. All else is optional. You sound that close to the edge.