River: Distracted?
I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.
I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.
I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.
I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.
Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed
At this point the only SHOULD is that you and your family survive. All else is optional. You sound that close to the edge.
Re: Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed
Re: Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed
No, I haven't called county social services. The way the state budget looks right now I'd be astounded if there were any we qualify for, but I suppose I ought to try anyway.
Re: Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed
(Verified; also neither of us is old enough for social security.)