River: Distracted?

[mdlbear]

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.

Comments

Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed

[capplor.livejournal.com]

and I'll second the motion to farm out or ignore whatever you can (other than family, on the ignore part, of course). HAVE YOU CALLED COUNTY SOCIAL SERVICES?? Any programs they have that would help, GET THEM!!!

At this point the only SHOULD is that you and your family survive. All else is optional. You sound that close to the edge.

Re: Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed

[mdlbear]

Family and work. There's damned little else; LJ counts as self-care.

Re: Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed

[mdlbear]

The only one she's tried to use so far has been Outreach -- there was a mountain of paperwork to sign up, and they were 2 hours late both times she tried to use them.

No, I haven't called county social services. The way the state budget looks right now I'd be astounded if there were any we qualify for, but I suppose I ought to try anyway.

Re: Clearly you're exhausted and overwhelmed

[mdlbear]

Colleen says she called them a couple of months ago; they told her we make too much money. What I figured.

(Verified; also neither of us is old enough for social security.)