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2025-04-13 01:44 pm
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Done Since 2025-04-06

I'm always hesitant to put down just "okay" as my mood -- I'm not sure I know what it's supposed to feel like. But it's not a bad morning. The rest of the week hasn't been so good. According to my doctor, who I had an appointment with on Monday to discuss the results of last week's bloodwork, I'm very anemic. Also I have a referral for cardiology now, to go with the previous oncology referral. Both of those appointments are tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes.

There are yellow tulips blooming in two of the planters on our back patio. Sometimes I have trouble wrapping my head around the fact that we're really Dutch residents now, but the tulips are very convincing.

In the links, Is It Time To Leave The US? is alarming. Good luck. To leave on a much lighter note, watch Three Kobolds in a Trenchcoat (Animated Music Video) - YouTube. And if you're my kind of geek, read 20 years of Git. Still weird, still wonderful by Scott Chacon, one of the authors of Pro Git and one of the founders of GitHub.

Notes & links, as usual )

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2025-04-10 10:33 am
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Thankful Thursday

Today I am grateful for...

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2025-01-03 10:36 am
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River: Thankful Thursday--Addendum

It's Friday, but it was still Thursday, nine timezones away in Seattle, when J picked up my abiraterone and prednisone at the United Pack and Smash Store on Aurora Avenue. So, an especially heartfelt thanks to

  • Eric and company at the Fred Hutch Outpatient Pharmacy, for browbeating talking the people at the UPS store into allowing someone with a different last name to pick up a package addressed to me. It probably helped that I authorized them to release my medical information -- presumably the fact that the package contained drugs for treating cancer helped in cutting through their red tape.
  • J, for going back two or three times.

NO thanks to UPS's insistance that the person picking up the package had to have an ID with both the same address and the same last name as the addressee. This is the 21st Century, idiots. No two people in the family living at that house have the same last name. (Strictly speaking j and his father do, but j's away at University of Leiden right now.)

mdlbear: (rose)
2024-01-03 02:08 pm

River: Remembering the FlowerCat: 48

Forty-eight years ago today, Colleen and I exchanged wedding vows and rings at the altar of University Lutheran Church in Palo Alto, next to the Stanford campus. Neither of us was a Lutheran, but we had been going to the singles dinner at the church for several years, so it was an obvious choice of venue. We catered the reception ourselves; it included a side of smoked salmon, mini-bagels, and a barrel of home-made pickled mushrooms.

My parents didn't think it would last, but we stayed together "in sickness and in health,..." until her death finally parted us on July 12, 2021.

mdlbear: the constellation Cancer,  original 1730 (cancer)
2023-11-28 09:52 pm
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PC: Transitions

Content warning: unpleasant medical details. See icon. )

TL;DR, now I'm taking testosterone blockers. That's the other transition. If I were transitioning all the way to a trans woman I'd also have to be taking estrogen, but I'm not. So I guess I'm transitioning to a trans enby. I find this amusing.

mdlbear: the constellation Cancer,  original 1730 (cancer)
2023-11-10 04:58 pm
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River: State of the Bear

I'm starting this at a quarter after ten pm on Friday the 13th of October. It will either wait for a week before completing it, or push it out sooner and add a Part II next week. Content warning: Medical bad news, serious and maybe triggery, but not hopeless. )

New tag pc.

See CW above; enter at your own risk )

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2023-03-20 05:52 pm
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Exposure

So... this morning my phone greeted me with a notification that started with "Possible exposure reported. Someone you were near has tested positive for COVID-19." Further investigation showed that the exposure took place on March 17 or 18. I'm not worried. Since I was home alone on Whidbey on the 18th, that narrowed it down to our housekeeper or one of the stores I stopped at for groceries on the way up. Or conceivably someone near my car on the ferry.

Our housekeeper hasn't called, and if she'd been the source of the exposure everyone else who was in the house at the time would have been notified as well. I shop with a mask on, and Molly just had her passenger compartment air filter replaced last month. So the probability that I've actually been exposed is rather small.

For the next couple of days, I'm treating it as an excuse to hang out in my apartment and spend more time with the cats, who really deserve more attention anyway. Food choices are a trifle limited, but include tinned sardines, which Desti for one has no objection to at all.

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2022-06-02 12:13 pm

Signal Boost: Two health-related articles

I was pointed at a couple of fascinating health-related articles (which I should have posted about Tuesday, but procrastinated):

First, Drinking Coffee Daily May Stave Off Early Death, Study Suggests. Which I was already assuming from prior reading, but this is good confirmation. What was new to me was that a teaspoon of sugar actually enhances the effect -- I don't use it, but generally eat something fruit-like with it, which presumably counts. Good to know, given my liter/day habit.

(Supported by this research article: Association of Sugar-Sweetened, Artificially Sweetened, and Unsweetened Coffee Consumption With All-Cause and Cause-Specific Mortality: A Large Prospective Cohort Study: Annals of Internal Medicine.)

Second, On Your Back? Side? Face-Down? Mice Show How We Sleep May Trigger Or Protect Our Brain From Diseases Like ALS | IFLScience tl;dr: side. Lately I've found that I can't get to sleep lying on my back (I used to; darned if I know what changed), so it's good to know that side-sleeping is healthier as well.

(Supported by The Effect of Body Posture on Brain Glymphatic Transport - PubMed The Glymphatic System – A Beginner's Guide - PMC.) The glymphatic system was apparently discovered in 2013; this set of articles was the first I'd heard of it.

Sleeping on one's left side, in particular, is better for other reasons, including reducing heartburn. (See "Side Sleeping: Benefits and Which Side to Sleep On | Sleep Foundation" and "6 Hidden Health Benefits of Sleeping On Your Left Side That You've NEVER Heard About" -- although I'd already heard about several of those.) The benefits for sleep apnea and back pain appear to be less side-dependent, and there seem to be arguments in favor of both directions, e.g. Right vs. Left Side Sleeping: What's the Best for Your Health? - Sleep Junkie.

Edited to correct paste error in the coffee study link text.

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2022-04-24 12:36 pm
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Done Since 2022-04-17

Not a great week, mainly due to medical issues (probably less serious than I thought they were, and apparently mostly resolved as of today) that I wasted a great deal too much time and anxiety over. Tl;dr: )

Further details have been redacted from the notes. Maybe a separate post later.

The other thing I've been struggling with is WordPress. On the whole, the formatting on GoingSideways.blog is pretty decent, but there are some details that I simply can't figure out how to fix because they appear to have been hacked in by the designers in some obscure way. Coding standards? Documentation? Ha! A rant post on that subject will be coming out sometime later this week, hopefully. For now let's just say that some WP themes and page builders lead to a lot of lock-in, and since there have been some major changes in the platform over the last few years, that's a problem for people stuck using the old stuff. Also, several plugins that would really make my job easier have become unavailable -- some aren't keeping up with the recent changes (hint: anything where the last update is more than two years ago is almost guaranteed to stop working soon if it hasn't already), and at least one (the official one that crossposts to Medium) has been removed.

Anyway the latest GoingSideways post, Figuring It(aly) Out, went up yesterday.

Among the links, I suggest "4 of the Most Profound Theorems in Math are Also the Easiest to Understand" -- it's a nice, easy-to-follow exposition some pretty deep topics. Watch outfor rabbit holes.

Notes & links, as usual )

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2022-04-19 08:26 pm

River: Waffling Wednesday

I know -- it's actually Tuesday. Because I have trouble keeping track.

I should change my userpic to a waffle for this one. I won't (though I waffled about that, too). I'm waffling about several things:

Changing doctors. -- Now that I'm mostly living in Seattle (with intent to move almost completely in a few months), I need a new PCP. Fortunately UW has only a limited number that are taking new patients, are based nearby, and list a specialty in geriatric medicine. That doesn't keep me from waffling, because it's a big step, I haven't done it recently, and I worry about getting it wrong somehow.

Moving. -- Getting my stuff moved, getting rid of what I don't need, and getting the house and yard in decent shape. The yard is a disaster -- it's been neglected for five years -- and the whole place is probably going to have to be repainted. All of that will mean hiring people, which is a huge problem for me. N may be able to help, but mostly it's on me. Which means I'm going to waffle.

Finding a cat gate for my new digs. -- My "apartment" in Seattle is a studio apartment -- it's a converted garage where the only separate room is the bathroom. It has double doors, though one half locks in place and I don't normally use it. ... And starting in a month or so it will have cats. (There's a bar counter with a sink and cooking equipment, but it's only enclosed on three sides. Desti is still spry enough to be fond of jumping onto counters.) So I'm looking for something that I can use to keep Ticia and Desti away from the door. Basically something that I can arrange in a rough semicircle that will enclose enough space to open the door, set down a suitcase, and step away from the door far enough that I can close it.

There are actually quite a few maybe good enough possibilities, but when you add wanting it to be high enough that Desti can't jump over it, with narrow enough openings that she can't squeeze through it, the problem becomes more complicated. (Though I'm pretty good at getting through a door without letting cats escape, so I don't need to keep her out completely as long as I can slow her down enough that I can get in and evict her from the entry space for long enough to re-open the door long enough to bring in a suitcase or a box.)

One of the big problems is that it's difficult to find out important things like the spacing between bars and the width of the door, and impossible to search on them. (It's usually possible to find out the height, which is only marginally enough in the ones I've found.)

I may also decide to put a similar enclosure outside just in case -- the requirements for that are somewhat weaker and there are more possibilities that might work. These tend to be made of wire -- several reviews complain about sharp ends, but they'd work for the (hopefully very short) time it would take me to re-capture a cat.

Upgrading GoingSideways.blog. -- This is really the big one, because the page builder (WPBakery) we got from the designers is just about the worst ones possible for upgrading -- there's a whole lot of lock-in because it does layout in the worst way imaginable, and differently from the way modern themes do it. Also, the theme (Woodmark) is extremely limiting in what it allows me to channge, and the designers appear to have hacked on it and put the pieces in obscure places rather than doing things right. We didn't know what we needed when we hired them, but knowing that doesn't help much.

It's not helped by the fact that WordPress is changing over to a brand-new, hopefully simpler, editor (the Block Editor, AKA Gutenberg) that will let me completely get rid of WPBakery and the old theme -- as long as I can make the transition. Which neither of those ancient wrecks is designed to enable. It's also not helped by the fact that almost all of the customizability has to be specifically enabled by the theme, and they all enable a different subset. Block themes hopefully will let one get around that.

</rant>

At least I don't have my taxes to waffle about anymore -- I finished those on Sunday.

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2021-08-29 11:00 am
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Done Since 2021-08-22

On the whole probably not a bad week. I've started trying to both exercise and make music a little more regularly. Having considerably more consistency with the exercise than the music, which is... strange?

I had an appointment Friday with Dr. Chopra, who had been our doctor during most of the five years Colleen and I were living in Seattle. So I was able to tell her about Colleen's death when she asked how Colleen was doing. Unfortunately she's only taking returning patients, and apparently a five-year gap is too long to be considered "returning". We'll see. Got a referral for PT, and some stuff for my ongoing blepharitis.

I never did get my medical records (from WhidbeyHealth) merged into UW's system, so as a result I omitted a couple of things - the prescriptions for meloxicam and tizanidine, and the details of the CAT scan of my hips. Hopefully that won't be too much of a problem. I'll send the missing information directly sometime this week via their message system, and hand-carry print-outs to my lab appointment on Wednesday. The whole thing is totally stupid -- the records are in a standard XML-based format, but there doesn't seem to be any of getting that from one system to the other. Blarg.

I also managed to get a little done on $writing-gig-2, though not as much as I'd wanted to; I may get it finished in the next couple of days. And I unpacked the air conditioner I'd gotten for the studio apartment; it will actually get used this fall and winter because it also heats.

Notes & links, as usual )

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2021-07-12 01:00 pm
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River: State of the FlowerCat, Final Episode

Karen Colleen Savitzky, better known as Mama Colleen, Grandma Colleen, Mama Con, The FlowerCat, and Colleen Elizabeth de Cassis, passed away at 4:30 am this morning. She never regained consciousness after an epic surgery that we both knew going in was risky as hell. (See Episode 9 for the details.) Doctor Rangel, who pulled off a minor miracle two years ago when Colleen was dying of a raging infection, was on duty and called me about 10:30 last night to say that she was fading. Her blood pressure was still dropping, even after being maxed out on medication and fluids. I drove up with N to spend the rest of the night in her room in the ICU.

Colleen was the toughest woman I ever met; after beating the odds two years ago and living a good and mostly happy life for a year and a half more than anyone expected, we all kind of figured she'd win this fight too. I'm deeply sorry to have to tell you that we were wrong.

It was a good thing she never got the transfer to UW -- at Whidbey General she was surrounded and cared for by people who'd known her and loved her for years. We joked with the people at the reception desk about needing a frequent flyer card, and everyone knew her as the woman with purple hair.

I cut off the braid with the last of her purple hair, gave her a final kiss, and said goodbye. When we got home I sang "Eyes Like the Morning".

...

I'll post more later -- Colleen was too great a force of nature to be summed up in a single post. Or a hundred. No need to send flowers; the FlowerCat doesn't need them. Hug somebody close to you and tell them you love them, because you never know whether you'll get another chance.

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2021-05-21 03:02 pm
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River: State of the FlowerCat Episode 8

Colleen is back on Whidbey Island, as of late Monday afternoon, in the nursing home/rehab center formerly known as Careage, and now called Regency Coupeville. (Regency Pacific Management runs some 40 facilities in Washington, Oregon, California, and Hawaii.) Their visiting policy is a lot more restricted than we would like -- they have only a single room with a limited number of slots that have to be booked in advance, but they allow multiple people, so V and I were able to visit her on Wednesday. We have additional slots booked for Tuesday and Thursday of next week.

It beats her stay at UW, which didn't allow visitors at all for most of it. Visiting policies change frequently around here, depending on the latest word coming from the CDC, the Governor's office, and the local county health commissioners. Possibly also the phase of the moon.

She appears to be making progress with physical therapy -- she was able to stand up for two minutes (she says; might have been less) while they swapped her mattress for a better one -- and has had some good discussions with the head chef (who, like Colleen, views unusual dietary combinations as a challenge). I'm somewhat worried about her mental state, which I guess can be described as some combination of volatile and fragile. (Bearing in mind that I'm not particularly clear on the meaning of either word.) She's been in one institution or another since the end of March, so this is probably not unexpected, but...

We have a care conference scheduled for Monday; hopefully she'll be strong enough to go home later in the week.

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2021-05-10 09:20 pm
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River: State of the FlowerCat, Episode 7

You'll notice the cut tag is back this time; Colleen is back in a hospital (UW, this time). She's being well taken care of (finally) (hopefully), but sheesh!

Episode 6 was written just after Colleen started at Prestige Post-Acute and Rehab Center. She'd liked it the last two times she was there, but they seem to have gone downhill since then. I imagine COVID has been hard on them, but... It's not a good excuse.

Content warning: serious medical issues, bodily fluids. tl;dr: if she needs rehab again it won't be at Prestige. )

Colleen was not happy about having to spend her Mother's Day in a hospital, that UW is not allowing visitors.

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2021-05-02 10:42 am
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Done Since 2021-04-25

Colleen is still in rehab. Prestige has gone considerably downhill since the last time she was there; very short-staffed especially on weekends (with a response time occasionally measured in hours), and the kitchen seems to be totally unable to give her something she can eat (low fiber, mainly, which precludes beans, corn, and many vegetables; and low acid, which precludes most things containing tomatoes and fresh fruit). She's lost a lot of weight. With luck she'll be coming home this week. With luck that will be before Snohomish County drops back to Phase 2 and I stop being able to visit.

With luck she'll be home in time to celebrate Mother's Day with N and her kids. With luck I'll be able to take care of her. This week has been stressful despite my having very little to do.

Taxes are going more slowly than I'd like, and so is $writing-project. It's easy to blame the stress of Colleen being in rehab (and hospital before that), but that isn't really the problem, and I know it.

Now that we're all fully vaccinated our housekeeper, L', was finally able to come in and clean inside the house -- huge improvement, although a few things have migrated to odd places. It's amazing how much crud accumulates on the floor in the course of a year.

Notes & links, as usual )

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2021-04-15 09:58 pm
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River: State of the FlowerCat Episode 6

You may note that there is no cut tag in this one. Colleen transfered from the to Prestige Post-Acute and Rehabilitation Center in Edmonds on Tuesday. She traveled by "cabulance" -- wheelchair van -- and managed the bed-to wheelchair and wheelchair-to-bed transfers under her own power.

She did a little walking yesterday and more today, and is looking and feeling a lot more like herself. Her recovery has been impressively fast, probably because she has -- or maybe we have -- gotten the hang of getting her back on her feet as quickly as possible. In the hospital, that meant getting a couple of nurses to help several days before PT showed up to evaluate her.

Things went fine until lunchtime, when a pair of miscommunications about bed rails (no, she does not want them to help her maneuver on the bed) and diet ("soft food, small bites" does not include tasteless ground-up meat and mashed potatoes when she ordered steak tips with a sherry sauce over noodles). Colleen is prone to meltdowns when something like that happens. Fortunately I was in the room and able to translate; I think we have it figured out now, but there will probably be more discussions tomorrow.

After that, of course, it was my turn to have a meltdown. Fortunately mine are quieter, and probably look to an outside observer somewhat like clinical depression mixed with a combination of apologies and curses. You see, I was trying to get her phone to call home and sync, so that I can replace it with the new phone I ordered last week. It did not help at all that she hadn't done anything requiring a login for years. (I had apparently managed to log in earlier in the month because I needed to get something out of her email.)

The phone/Google login kerfuffle was on top of an ongoing frustration with Sable, which keeps randomly shutting itself off. There is apparently a screw loose inside -- I can hear it rattle when I tilt the case. It works perfectly sitting flat on a desk. I'm going to have to go in there with a screwdriver. Later. And after a drive up that was somewhat more exhausting than usual because of unfamiliar exits, construction work, and ambiguous lane markings. Ambiguous to me, anyway. After all that I was pretty close to the edge, and the phone was just enough to tip me over.

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2021-04-12 10:24 pm
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River: State of the FlowerCat

It's been a crazy few days, complicated by some incomplete messaging. Briefly, when the hospitalist said Saturday that she was nearly ready to be discharged, he and just about everyone else made it sound like they expected her to be going home. And it's true that she made tremendous progress over the weekend. But she's in no physical shape to do car transfers and walk around the house.

Content warning: medical details. tl;dr: you can safely skip this part. )

... so after consultation with the case manager and follow-up with the physical therapist, we all agreed that she needs a week or two of rehab. There are two possible places she could go -- Careage on Whidbey and Prestige in Edmonds. The case manager had only heard back from Careage as of this afternoon; we'd prefer Prestige if they have a bed open (better food and a better gym, according to Colleen) but either will work. Expect more news tomorrow. ETA: Prestige - we heard back from them. They also have inside visiting if both patient and visitor are vaccinated.

Fortunately she's in good enough shape to transfer in and out of a wheelchair, so she can take a wheelchair van rather than needing an ambulance this time.

mdlbear: (river)
2021-04-09 12:25 pm
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River: State of the FlowerCat (part 4)

Yesterday I drove down to Seattle to stay at N's while visiting Colleen in the hospital (Swedish First Hill). It's good to be back with my chosen family for the first time in over a year, thouogh I would have preferred a different excuse.

The drive from N's to the hospital yesterday was something of a disaster thanks to my stupid phone's GPS being flaky to non-existant, and stupidly taking Google's advice as to the route. The GPS only had a signal when the phone was next to a window, so I put it on a convenient ledge. The directions it gave were mostly useless because it didn't tell me which lane to use, and it propmtly fell out the window when I rolled it down to pick up the parking lot ticket.

Today went more smoothly, and I was able to locate the car chargers this time. (They were on the top floor; yesterday I took a wrong turn and wound up on the bottom.)

Content warning: serious medical issues. tl;dr: Colleen is still in the hospital, but aeems to be improving. )

The new phone arrives tomorrow; I intend to have dinner with E and go back to Whidbey to spend Saturday night and Sunday morning. I'm hoping to make progress on my taxes, pick up a few missing items, do some laundry, and cuddle the cats.

On the whole things don't seem to be quite as bad as they looked last week, but I'm not going to count on that continuing.

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2021-04-07 08:17 pm
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