Done yesterday (20110528 Sa)

[mdlbear]

0528 Sa
  * up 7:45ish; drugs, nose, teeth, hair, coffee, light
  % discovered that I'd left the netbook unplugged.  :(
  * bring:  purple corset, garbags, moshe's cd, duct tape, gin, extension
    cord, cyrano
  * eggs with swiss cheese  
  * left home about 10:20.  20min trip
  @ Fascism USA - A Review of the Growing Loss of Democracy via The Dendarii Chronicles - IS AMERICA SINKING INTO FASCISM?
  * 11:30 AM - 1:00 PM in: Lawrence	Making A CD
      How to produce music to make your own CD.
      Panelists: Jeff Bohnhoff, Margaret Davis, Steve Savitzky, Kristoph Klover
  @ ysabetwordsmith | Read About Sexuality & Asexuality 
  * 4:00 in Lawrence: Filk Inspired by Mythology (in audience)
    added myself to the panel, but didn't say much.  It's ok.
  : Lots of people recognize me by name who I don't remember at all.  Mildly
    disturbing. 
  * conversation in the bar with Mouse, joined by Colleen for bar-snacks
    Very slow, confused service, but the bar still has better and cheaper
    food than the restaurant.
  : toilet backed up.  no house phone -> idiot bear pilot error; just didn't
    hit the talk button.  Old habits, I guess.  When *I* was a boy,...
    (that plus just being flustered, angry, and not thinking clearly)
  x so much for having some quiet time in the room for a phone call.  Or
    getting to Moira's concert.
  : and they took our toilet seat riser.  So they brought me a razor.
  * brief call to N.
  % my supply of cope for the weekend is considerably reduced.
  % dinner is not sitting all that well.  Not sure which component to blame.
    Colleen agrees.  I'm guessing one of the dips.  Or the corn chips, which
    were greasy.
  : Someone's still using my book!  Or at least has it on their desk --
    someone came up to me in the lobby and said that one of his coworkers
    has a copy.
    ! pleased.  I haz a fan!  Or something.
  : Somebody else, forget who, said that my river posts about the care and
    feeding of geeks had helped them deal with a difficult coworker.
  * Finally delivered Moshe's copy of the Walk In the Day CD.
  & up to the room to go splat sometime ~10:30.  Very sleepy.  
  ! seriously down; probably just depleted rather than depressed.
    It's likely that the noise level is a contributing factor.

I seem to have more notes than I usually do at a con. Possibly due to the fact that I'm spending more down time. The lobby (where the bar is) and mezzanine (where the programming is) are connected, and incredibly noisy. That's probably a large part of why I ran out of spoons around 10pm and went upstairs to bed. That, the fact that something in dinner wasn't sitting well, and that I'd just spent two hours in the room waiting for the hotel to clean up the mess made by the overflowed toilet.

The apparent problem with the phone was just pilot error -- it's cordless, and I didn't press the talk button. Not so much as "idiot bear" as totally overloaded and flustered, and perfectly willing to believe that One More Thing was going wrong.

... so I didn't get to any of the concerts.

I did get a couple of nice strokes, though -- one person told me that one of his coworkers has a copy of my book on his desk, and another told me that she'd used my River posts about the care and feeding of geeks to understand and deal with a coworker. Those felt good.

Lots of people seem to know me by name who I don't recognize at all. "He's losing his memory and some of his hair"? That's somewhat disturbing.

It was a good day for most of it, I ended the day feeling seriously down and drained. This was almost certainly a simple matter of being out of spoons rather than depression -- I'm ok now. I think it's hard for me to distinguish physical exhaustion from sensory overload from emotional depression, though. That's something I'm going to have to work on.

A couple of links.