Done Since 2020-05-24

[mdlbear]

I am not okay. This has not been a good week.

Not even a successful rocket launch makes up for the ongoing disasters (plural) being visited on our unfortunate country by the Trumpists and their fellow bigots. See mood.

... and having had this draft open all afternoon while dealing with assorted phone bill-related issues (not even my bill!) I'm going to post it and try to wash an assortment of bad tastes out of my brain with something containing ethanol.

Notes & links:

0524Su
  * Up 7:25; S=8:13, W=197.8; shower
  @ dreamshark | Excellent local writing on coronavirus/COVID-19
    5 Common Coronavirus Questions Answered by the Experts 
    More Questions about COVID-19 Answered by the Experts
  & work on new song by N.  Still needs music, though I have a few ideas.
    Pointed out missing handling for \hskip.  Still not working for plain text out.
  & put in for a concert slot at FotLR-3  Early July.
  / 8:30 major cleanup  ->  % meloxicam, heat
  : Desti's been in my lap for about an hour, in the bedroom recliner

0525Mo Memorial Day (obs)  * litter boxen
  / 2 cleanups, 1ish and 3:55ish
  * up 6:30ish; S=5:53;
  & took advantage of a $29 promo offer for a year of The Washington Post.  I suppose I'll
    end up getting the Seattle Times too at some point.
  % took out the used litter in a beautiful light rain.  Very quiet and peaceful.
    (because I use The Ultimate Rain Sound Generator so much??)
  / minor cleanup; antibiotic ointment and band-aid on boil.  Don't like the look of it
  % heat on the inevitable back pain
  * install shelves in garage (entered 0524)
    Set up the bottom shelf with room for two stacked banker's boxes.
  @ Self-Compassion
    Self-Compassion Exercises by Dr. Kristin Neff
    Self-Compassion Resources | Kristin Neff
    10 Self-Compassion Practices for COVID-19
  % working on melody... 
  * on part 3 of Ria.  I had been remembering only flashes of it, and for
    some reason it didn't fascinate me then the way it does now.  Can't remember when I
    first/last read it.  I wonder whether I had finished it.

0526Tu
  * up 7:05; S=7:50;
  @ Cassandrafreude: Definition
  @ COAST, Machine names, Sun, and Microsoft - CERIAS - Purdue University 
  @ Sooooo far behind on links (COVID-19) | MM many many links
    Nasal Irrigation Can Help Reduce COVID-19 Progression, Doctor Says
  / major cleanup; went through three washcloths.    -> meloxicam, heat (as usual)
  ! ~ some kind of distress, probably either depression, stress, burnout, or exhaustion.
    Not actually all that bad, compared to, e.g., my burnout at $A.  So there's that.

0527We
  * Up 5:15; S=5.5; 
    % health-care-related dreams
  * load Colleen's drugs
  * 8:55 open Google Duo on phone - (open app 5 min before call)
  * 9am Whidbey Health Sleep Center Google Duo
    -> will order an improved headgear; will contact about a better supplier
    -> said I should lose weight
  @ NASA Live | NASA
    first manned commercial launch - CrewDragon
    -> scrubbed due to weather
  * 11:30 leave for S dentist
  * 1pm S dentist appointment Oak Harbor -> she needs to have an oral surgeon extract it
  : Molly was getting over 4m/kWh.  Sable had over 5 hours of battery.  Nice.
  @ Will coronavirus end? Covid-19 may become endemic and last years - Washington Post
  @ Please, oh please, use git pull --rebase (Example)
  % 6:45pm I seem to be starting to fade.  (probably due to my wake time)
    I seem to have a lot of inertia and no motivation.
  
0528Th
  * up 6:11; S=7:19;
  @ Climate Change Burns Its Way Up the Pop Charts - The New York Times (osewalrus)
    
    Cassandrafreude: Definition - I surrender — LiveJournal
  * `make sl` make target.  preloads with headings.  Print with  `lp $(make sl)`
  * forward all of L's mail (taped to door for L')
  ~ 1pm C 1-2 me 2-3 Dentist -> call to reschedule when ready
  * 1pm leave for MAC clinic
  * 2pm C MAC clinic catheter change
  @ COVID-19 (Coronavirus) Press Release
  : Molly is currently getting a little over 4mi/kWh
  % meloxicam
  / cleanup

0529Fr
  * up 7am; S=7.1;
  / major cleanup  % heat
  * empty dishwasher, start loading, about half the pots/pans,
    second cup of coffee interrupted by...
  / 10:50 major cleanup.  leakage, blood in urine.
    % Forgot walker again, seconds after taking out wheelchair.  gibbering meltdown
      -> some no doubt C's despair/hopelessness/depression bleeding into mine
      -> .5mg lorazapam, at C's suggestion.  Whether that was a good idea is... ??
      -> Interaction Between Effects of Caffeine and Lorazepam in Performance Tests and
         Self-Ratings - PubMed -> don't finish second cup?
      -> of course, the amount of caffeine already in my system is probably enough to
         cancel the lorazepam. ->  12:24 don't notice much effect.  ? a little sleepy?
      ~? the problem isn't anxiety, I don't think.  Overload/stress/depression
      -> very low energy
  @ Caregiver Burnout: Symptoms and Treatment
  @ What Is Caregiver Burnout? - WebMD
  % 14:42 been staring blankly at the screen for about the last hour.  Short rant to N
  & sat in bedroom recliner, read Feynmann and Sabine's Notebook, some Desti time
  * garage time.  more excavation in the hutch box -- so many kazoos!  The most useful
    find was a plastic trash can, which will replace the cracking one under the sink
  * uncovered tax paperwork (again?)  This weekend!
    -> entered income, except for the one I couldn't find.  Look later.

0530Sa
  * Up 5:15; S=6:03;
  @ Flawed COVID hypothesis may have saved Washington from being NYC | Ars Technica 
  @ Coronavirus May Be a Vascular Disease, Which Explains Everything | Elemental
    " the use of statins and ACE inhibitors were linked to higher rates of survival. "
    -> good news for me -- I'm taking both.  C isn't, though.
  @ Inside an Extraordinary G.O.P. Event: ‘Pressing Flesh and Kissing Babies’ Again - The
    New York Times a plague that targets ultraconservatives?  One can hope.
  : Some nice thunder this morning.  At this point it's mostly just rain.
  : there was, briefly, a fawn on the lawn.  Just bounding through, apparently.
  & order pipe wrench, worm-gear pipe clamps, and C-fold paper towels.  The latter because
    they'll get here on Monday, and I could easily be out by then.
  : Riots in Seattle this evening.
  * track down a pipe wrench for chair -> ordered from $A
  / C has been through 2 bottles of gatorade today.  (1 yesterday)
  @ Mullvad VPN - Privacy is a universal right
  * finished the Griffin and Sabine trilogy.  Will start the second trilogy soon

Comments

[ellenmillion]

*sending lots of love*

[mdlbear]

Thank you so much! *hugs if you want them*

[radiantfracture]

Hugs offered.

[mdlbear]

*hugs back*