mdlbear | Done Since 2021-08-08 (Reply)

It's been over a month -- just short of five weeks -- since we lost Colleen. I still wouldn't be surprised if I fell apart completely at some point, but I haven't yet. I don't know how I want to feel about that. And it's mixed with a lot of anxiety and some grief around moving.

Hopefully this week was my last week couch-surfing -- c is in the process of moving out of the studio ADU (sometimes called the Lair) behind Rest Stop. The bed, at least, is usable, and accessible without having to step over too much floor clutter. Theoretically there will eventually be a desk and a recliner out there, but damned if I know where those could fit. We'll see after c's stuff gets completely moved out.

I ordered an air conditioner for the Lair; it will supposedly arrive on Friday; hopefully that will be before the next heat wave.

Notes & links:
0808Su
* up 6am; S=6:55, p=2, BP=123/73, P=61; heat, shower
: The last update on Sherman seems to have broken X. Growf!
-> X works fine, it's gnome or gdm
@ PLAQUE: Colleen Savitzky AKA Mama Colleen (by R in alt.callahans)
~ test mask with larger hose but no humidifier. Probably won't help, but... -> nope!
* set myself as Colleen's legacy contact on FB
& mostly-useless garage dive. pulled Eagle Creek tote, Eddie Bauer duffle, OVFF sling
% 4:15 or so: sleepy
* Found spare marriage certificate
* verified that Colleen's NOT on the car registration
* deconstruct Colleen's braid (both kids want locks)
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% meloxicam 8:40ish with pm drugs
: Sherman is still borked -- display resolution unusably low. Something got munged.
missing firmware or drivers?
* laundry
* load drugs

0809Mo
* up 6:15; S=7:04, BP=131/78, P=60;
: on Raven. According to git reflog, machine was last used in early May:
45c8d739 HEAD@{2}: commit: Push from raven Fri 07 May 2021 04:33:55 AM PDT
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* dishes
* pick up a dozen bagels on the way down
One poppyseed, a couple -> 3 salt, whatever you want->2 sesame, and the rest->2 plain.
* leave 11:30ish for dentist (allow time for bagels on the way down)
* 2pm dentist % more exhausting than I would have expected
* pick up order for Stone at the Safeway at 75th and Roosevelt on the way home.
~ -mac and cheese- bagels. Pick up lox and cream cheese at Safeway
% headache. Mostly right side, so maybe due to the dental work
% 9:15 ibuprofen 200mg - 1 every 4-6 hours. With pm drugs
% I appear to be particularly sluggish tonight

0810Tu
: woke up 5:30ish to find the air mattress bottomed out.
% shoulder pain -> heat; unsteady. Gleep
* up 5:30; S=5:59, p=4;
* (12:50) patched the punctures I could see. We'll see whether that worked ~5pm (4h)
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* 15min: set up wire shelves under counter overhang in RS
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* chicken broccoli stir-fry - I'll have to do something else next time
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: late night - G returns -> 11pm
* inflate/test airbed. Maybe? We'll see.

0811We
& awake 4ish; S=4:00;
: airbed had not bottomed out but distinctly low; hard to get out of
: phone charging stand blinks red and blue when there's an excessive heat warning
-> the rest of the week is going to be scorching -- maybe go back to Whidbey?
don't think I will, but it's tempting.
* up 7:40; S=5:11;
: Biggest problem with a partly-deflated airbed is getting out--the edges go soft
: email from Zillow - the Starport is back on the market -- for ~1.6M
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-> purchased, but it won't play in Chromium on sable. phone or tablet...
-> I had to use Chromium to _buy_ it, but I can _play_ it in Firefox.
: (surgeon)Dr. Angelos called to see how I'm doing and give me the pathology report
(which was basically what was on the death certificate: fistula, abcess, chronic
Crohn's disease, septic shock; white blood count spiked to 60 (normal WBC 4.5k - 10k
cells/mm^3). Seemed somewhat upset -- it can't be easy losing a patient no matter how
slim the chances were, and I expect talking to the survivors is a potential minefield.
-> Said that we're in their prayers;
-> Relocated to Redding, CA. -> Added to phone contacts.
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: m asked whether I could bring bagels down _every_ Monday. Works for me.
: call from CP (apologizing for awkward things in the last call)
someone apparently pointed her at a list of things not to say to a grieving person
% I suppose I might have triggers around Colleen's death, but not so far.
* -Th am- _We pm_: set up AC in LR (much help from c)
% 4-4:30ish tired. p=3.5-4
* watched "The High Frontier"; quiet tears. The book came out the year we were married
N was unfamiliar with the idea of space colonies.
% with the air conditioner on, I'm likely to be spending a lot more time wearing
noise-cancelling headphones.
* subscribed to Neptune Society's "12 weeks of peace" and "thinking ahead" lists
& sleeping on couch because the airbed was not cat-proof

0812Th one month
& awake 5am; S=5:15; didn't get back to sleep
* up 5:30; BP=126/79, P=61, S=5:48;
* got the dishwasher loaded and running -- couldn't fit everything but at least the
housekeeper will be able to load and run the rest when they get here.
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0813Fr
* up 7am; S=6:19;
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0814Sa
& awake 4am; S=5:11, p=3.5; heat
* up 6:15ish; S=6:55, BP=116/78, P=64;
& assemble the other two wire shelf units for under the counter
* stay at RS so that I can help N work with the organizers
* determine floor area of lair; measure windows; order air conditioner
# studio is 11x18 = 198 ft^2
* go back to Whidbey 3ish
@ order AmazonSmile: BLACK+DECKER BPP08HWTB Portable Air Conditioner with Heat
* */15 pay AX card. There was a survey but it was unusable. Probably something
broken by having its size forced. Tough.
* sort mail