Done Since 2024-02-25

[mdlbear]

Very lethargic most of the week -- can't tell whether it's depression or something else. Feels like depression, though. Colleen's birthday is two weeks from yesterday, and that may have something to do with it. That, and cleaning out the house. I have been getting some walks in, so that's something. One was with my old friend Ted Kaehler, who had just discovered that his (girlfriend's dog's) vet's office was only a block away from our house.

I tend to lose track of people, unless they come seeking me out. Colleen was the one who always kept in touch with people.

The subject of Things With Names came up a couple of times -- I thought I'd written more about them (or, more accurately, about more of them) but apparently not. Mostly they're cars, musical instruments, or pieces of luggage. The only post with a tag is The Hartmann bag; "things" isn't really a very good tag, and in any case I don't have the bag anymore.

The Other Significant Others: Reimagining Life with Friendship at the Center: Cohen, Rhaina looks interesting. More under Saturday.

Notes & links:
0225Su
  & awake 5ish??
  * up 6am; S=6:59, BP=138/81, P=68; exercises; Dutch
  * abiraterone 6:30; rest of am meds 8:05
  & move wake-up time to 6am
  @ Google extracted ChatGPT’s Training Data using a silly trick. | by Devansh
    Scalable Extraction of Training Data from (Production) Language Models 
  : The missing shipment of drugs from ExpressScripts turned up in the shopping bag I'd
    brought it out to the Lair in.  Well, that will give me an extra 3 months, which may
    prove useful.
  & 15min:  on-and-off during the day, unload Molly.
  @ 50 Fictional Librarians, Ranked not really worth the time to read
  @ Why health care has become a top target for cybercriminals | The Seattle Times
  * walk:  4ish Dayton+90th. -> 4:40;  w=0.9mi, 22min, 17hp, s=2271.
    today:  17hp, 31mm, 1.17mi, s=3222
  * 15min:  walk time also includes taking 2 items from Molly out to the Lair.
  & pick up j at Lake City
  * 21:15 take Bronx out to Lair (m is coming back tonight)  (needed help from N)
  % 22:47 feeling slightly "out of it"/unsteady  not queasy but in that direction

0226Mo  * litter boxen
  & awake 00:??
  * up 5:30; S=6:17, BP=130/75, P=67; exercises, Dutch
  * 05:40 abiraterone; 7am rest of am drugs
  * 07:25ish brought Bronx back to the house, taking advantage of a good opportunity to
    scoop him.  May have been too early.
  @ Sorry We Machines Destroyed Your Civilization in Such a Boring Way - McSweeney’s
  # N suggests keeping an ongoing list of bookstore questions we need answered
    * create tracking file  -> NL.do
  @ The Killer Mobile Device for Victorian Women the Chatelaine
    cf Inro - Wikipedia
  * 10am Elizabeth Geschiere on zoom
    *- filk.  Bigger on the Inside - passed a link in chat.
    *- Coffee, Computers, and Song - wanted to send link but can't message
    -> sorting out emotions around moving.  think about for next time
    -> have I found a support group?  -> need to take another look at what's available
  * add Whidbey Island verse to the version of "Bigger on the Inside" on s.s.net
    (the definitive version was on the Lookingglass Folk site)
    links: on s.s.net and lgf.com
  * 15min:  dishes
  * 13:44 underslept
  @ PRESS RELEASE: Future Software Should Be Memory Safe | ONCD | The White House
    “Back to the Building Blocks: A Path Toward Secure and Measurable Software.”
    White House urges developers to dump C and C++ | InfoWorld
  * steve/Lyrics/bigger.flk is missing the newest verse and chorus.  Snag from lgf
  * 15min:  bring in (mac mini)Whitewood, and the "goes with iMac" bin.
  * 15min:  determined that the UPS fits in the MEI backpack.  So _that_ simplifies things
  * SA: attach the wired thinkpad keyboard to nova, set static IP 192.168.0.2
  * (start)Bronx-proofing bathroom:  pill sorters to dop kit, move COVID tests to top of
    med cabinet, other pills out of open med cabinet shelf to top shelf.
  % it's snowing.  only a little, but...
  @ FAA panel finds Boeing safety culture wanting, recommends overhaul | Sea Times
  * SA create users ssavitzky and steve on nova.  /home is still in the root partition.
    ssavitzky appears to have a different userid from the original; hopefully easy to fix.

0227Tu
  & awake 00:30ish; dry mouth -> add water to CPAP
  & awake 5:30ish; very cold -> put on another blanket; dry mouth
  * up 6:40; S=7:19, ; ILU, exercises, Dutch
    # ILU = colon massage:  down on L, across then down, up then across then down
  * abiraterone 6:45, rest of am pills 7:45
  * 08:25 back to house, with Bronx.  Cut exercises a bit short, because cat-wrangling
  : apparently we had sleet last night.  Or hail.
  @ Why firms are racing to produce green ammonia
  @ How to get ready for therapy | Psyche Guides
  * 10am Memory Keepers grief support group - zoom
    *- multiple losses
    *- things with names.  (Couldn't remember Chami's name at the time),  Molly, laptops
  @ Request ABA’s "Opening a Bookstore" electronic kit
  @ Seattle ranks No. 1 for phone avoidance among large U.S. metros | Seattle Times
  @ Western WA weather: Heavy lowland rain, mountain snow ahead | The Seattle Times 
  * call Premera and tell them Colleen is dead  800-722-1471
    -* can't find the most recent statement.  I _know_ I brought it home  -> found
    -> premeramembership@premera.com my name, her name, her account#, scan of death cert.
       acct 102 034 228.  current address
  @ How to Let Go of Sentimental Items | 1-800-GOT-JUNK?
  * walk: Dayton+90th 15:34 w=0.9mi, s=2267, 23min, 18hp.
    % Cold.  Don't think I noticed any pain, though
  @ What Type of Exercise Is Best for Mental Health?  2.5h/wk = 30m*5/wk
  % trying a little gin, cautiously.  so far so good 17:57
  & received email about taxes for Dad's trust.  Greg's firm wants $1500 to do them.
    There's only $800 income on the 1099.  -* sent reply cc Al and Greg.
  * load drugs:  don't load pm stick with aspirin or supplements after Sunday
    -> managed without interference from Bronx, which was good.
  & order abiraterone -> late, so I asked for pickup in person Friday

0228We  * litter boxen
  & awake 3ish?; very itchy.  changing pad didn't help; got a towel, which did
    -> need to find the other pads; also need a shower
  * up 6am; S=6:58,
  * abiraterone 6:10; rest of am drugs 7:18
  * SA: nova:  mounted the old home partition, verified that ssavitzky's encrypted home
    directory still works (same password).  restore previous ssh host keys, verified.
  * bring scanner into house
  * scan Colleen's death certificate.  No idea why I haven't done this sooner.
    -> used the Brother flatbed, not the new scanner
  * send email to premeramembership@premera.com with my name, Colleen's name, her
    account#, scan of death cert.; mailing address for refund check
  * call  Whidbey Telecom and  * PSE to make sure those get stopped
    -* PSE account is closed, according to website.  Final bill auto-paid 0223
  * 15min:  bring UPS out to lair; hooded terry bathrobe and laundry over to the house
    : Damned if I know where the other bed pads have gotten to.  Still at RE?
  * 15min: laundry;  shower.
  * request vault copy of birth cert. via VitalChek -- somewhat arduous.
    -> reqired me to upload a photo of my DL.  First several attempts didn't work.
    -> had to use chromium to get the process started, then firefox to upload photo.  WTF?
    -> identity doc needs to be reviewed!  Good grief!  I'll get an email eventually
  % 18:36 seem to be okay with gin today (2 ice cubes in somewhat less than a full shot)
  $ C $90 to Union of Concerned Scientists (UCS) via AX
  % 20:41 sleepy
  : Bronx has gotten really good about getting into his carrier.  Both directions.

0229Th
  & awake 00:45 or so.  Probably a 5ish wake-up as well.
    : one of those involved a loud crash when Bronx knocked the French press and coffee
      grinder off the counter.  The press wound up in the sink.  Loud.
  * up 6:35ish; S=7:08, BP=120/75, P=78, W=197.5; (some) exercises, Dutch
  * abiraterone 6:45; rest of am 7:48;
  % 07:54 heartburn
  @ osewalrus | The Revisionist History of Computer II
  * look for a way to put the pill sorters on the _kitchen_ counter, in some kind of
    lidded container, which would actually be more convenient.
    -> put the plywood shelf piece on top of the plastic ped under the microwave; there is
       room for both the med bins that were there already, and the dop kit.  Win.
  : Blackroot found - it's under the bag of hard drives (which includes other stuff)
  * cats:  really easy time getting Bronx off the top shelf -- just held up his carrier
    and asked if he wanted to go... and he came down and let me scoop him off the counter
  * 15min:  take some plastic bags out to lair for trash
  @ staff on Tumblr: A message from a few of the trans staff at Tumblr & Automattic:
  & walk: 9:55; w=45min, 1.5mi, 10hp, s=3989 around the neighborhood.  long walk/talk with
    Ted Kaehler, who had realized a few minutes before that his vet was only a block from
    our house; he was there to get his gf's dog Kiki her shots.
    -> he came in briefly to meet Naomi.
  @ What Happens to Your Sensitive Data When a Data Broker Goes Bankrupt? – Markup
  @ Maybe the BEST C64 Demo I have yet seen ! - YouTube
  @ WOW! Incredible new JWST images of 19 galaxies | Night Sky News February 2024
  * made a $gPhotos album for Bronx.
  * 22:11 250mg docusate sodium with pm drugs
  % also, I have not been drinking enough water the last couple of days
  * SA:  today's weirdness - I can log in as ssavitzky on nova, but not via ssh
    -> also can't log in from the console!  Which proves that it isn't the ssh config.
    -> maybe next try copying the hashed p/w from backup's shadow file
    -> AHA!  the username in passwd and shadow was `foo`, which I had used earlier as a
       temporary hack when I couldn't re-make ssavitzky with encryption.  But weird.
    -> now to find out if it works after a reboot -> YES.  At first I thought it wasn't
       working from the GUI, but it turned out that caps lock was on.  Because cat.

0301Fr  * litter boxen (me -- no E' today)
  & awake 2ish??; put on pantsu and nightshirt -- seems to have helped with the itching
  * up 6am; S=6:27, W=191, ; exercises, Dutch
  * abiraterone 6:10; rest of am drugs, fiber 7:12
  @ How Wi-Fi sensing became usable tech | MIT Technology Review (osewalrus)
  & wikipedia dive from Titanium, because of my titanium snork that just showed up.
  * 3pm pick up abiraterone at FredHuch
  * pick up Cipro, Fleets at Bartells.  Ask for text reminders rather than voice
  * SL: Bartell: cipro, fleets, applesauce, pick up drugs for N
  ~ tried to dump drugs, but the bin was full :P
  ~ tried to call Island Disposal but was too late 16:39
  @ Washington Passes Strippers’ Bill of Rights - The Stranger
  * 15min:  take out trash from Molly's front footwells.
  % 19:50ish want to eat dinner but nothing seems really appealing.  Of course I've been
    grazing all day; needing food and wanting food are kind of detached from one another,
    and I'm not sure how I feel about either of them right now.  Depressed?  or need food?
  % 21:11 have had beef+barley soup.  Still kind of lethargic.  Should go to bed.

0302Sa
  & awake 00:30ish;
  * up 6:30; W=190.4, S=7:40, ; exercises
  * abiraterone 6:35; rest of am drugs 07:45
  : Mom's iMac just Does Not Fit anywhere on the end of the counter where I wanted it
  & sent message via web contact form to Island Disposal.  Call Monday to verify.
  @ Hormonal Treatment Strategies Tailored to Non-Binary Transgender Individuals - PMC
    " me: The idea of being trans-non-binary is amusing enough to sustain my sense of
      humor through what would otherwise be a rather tedious and sometimes frightening
      series of treatments. "
  : why the !!@#$ would anyone want to follow me on duolingo?  But someone did.
  @ The US Buried Nuclear Waste Abroad. Climate Change Could Unearth It | WIRED
  @ ComPromptMized Here Come the AI Worms
    " TLDR We created a computer worm that targets GenAI-powered applications and
      demonstrated it against GenAI-powered email assistants in two use cases (spamming
      and exfiltrating personal data), under two settings (black-box and white-box
      accesses), using two types of input data (text and images) and against three
      different GenAI models (Gemini Pro, ChatGPT 4.0, and LLaVA). "
  @ A Leap Year Glitch Broke Self-Pay Gas Station Pumps Across New Zealand | WIRED
  @ Trader Joe’s Illegally Closed Store To Stop Union Effort: Feds | HuffPost Impact
  # After looking to see whether I had ever written more than one post about things with names (I have only
    tagged one, though I know
    there are more), it occurred to me to look for my first Thankful Thursday posts, which
    turned out to be in December
    2008 and September
    2009.  Which led to other things I barely remember (including who the heck
    I was then).  My web presence is a shambles.
  * walk:  to taqueria via Fremont
  % 16:00 headache -- right temple -> acetaminophen.  Has been going 1-2 days at least
  * take box labeled "shred" to OfficeDepot
    -> wanted to charge Molly afterward but no luck finding an unoccupied working charger
    % very low energy (me as well as the car) - apathetic.  Probably depressed
  @ The Last Glimpses of California's Vanishing Hippie Utopias there but for fortune..
  * guitar:  eyes like the morning.  mostly pretty good.
  @ The Other Significant Others: Living and Loving Outside the Confines of Conventional
    Friendship and Compulsory Coupledom – The Marginalian
    The Other Significant Others: Reimagining Life with Friendship at the Center: Cohen,
    Rhaina: 9781250280916: Amazon.com: Books
    " This is a book about friends who have become a we, despite having no scripts, no
      ceremonies, and precious few models to guide them toward long-term platonic
      commitment. These are friends who have moved together across states and continents. "
  % 19:37 cold.  Nevertheless I have just downed about a glass and a half of ice water.
    Now making a cup of honey ginger, but dehydration could explain some of the low energy
  * 21:15 charging.  charger estimates 60m to 80% -- now 40% ... 22:35 done
    % there was a blanket left in Molly, and I'm using it.

Comments

[redsixwing]

*offers hugs*

I think I'd like to read that book, thank you.