Done yesterday

[mdlbear]

0303 Tu
  * 5:45 woke up.  Mouth very dry.
  * 6am W=186; drugs +keflex, nose, make coffee, emergen-c
  ~ 10am the: Rothman cancelled (Kaiser Campbell psych) -> 3/13 1:30
  = last day to cancel room for Consonance (fat chance!)
  * get the:notes started in .drafts
  & saw Colleen.  Held her hand while she slept
    ! still no word for my emotional state.  
  ~ bring Colleen printout of mail from Alan re: 501C3
    had it in backpack, but she was in no condition to receive it.
    R. has the info, says Colleen, so that should be enough.
  ! distressed most of the morning; low energy, brain-fried.  Coping.
    (took until noon to notice I was distressed)
  & Walk.  Called Colleen. (cut short by bad signal and rain)
    ! feeling better.  Both walking and good news helped.
  ~ Grump.  Forgot keflex.  Grrr.  Dumb bear.
  * LJ tag: tg -> tgq; keep tg-weekend for ambiguity
  & some web research on flirting and body language
  * buy March bus pass for YD
  & buy toilet auger because our good one is lost.  Too short, of course.
  & Went in to see Colleen.
  ! 23:23 emotionally depleted.  Not as physically wiped out as last night.
  ~ 23:34 water too damned cold for a bath.

I wasn't as physically wiped out last night as I was the night before, but perhaps emotionally more so. I may not be falling apart the way I did in January, but I seem to be coping by letting everything fall by the wayside except Colleen, The River, and occasionally music. That includes paying bills, work, cleaning the house, and taxes.

Colleen is not recovering as fast as we had hoped; pretty much all my emotional energy, whatever the heck that really means, is going into keeping both of our spirits up. Or at least keeping our heads above water.

Comments

[nosebeepbear.livejournal.com]

I seem to be coping by letting everything fall by the wayside except Colleen...

As much as it sucks, that seems a perfectly reasonable and normal response. House will wait, taxes aren't due for 6 weeks, and if you weren't already behind on bills, they are unlikely to become an issue for that amount of time too. *hug*

[mdlbear]

Not too far behind, but it's annoying.