mdlbear | Done yesterday (Reply)

0323 Mo
  * up 6:18; W=188.6; drugs, back for flonase; coffee, emergen-c
  & to work well before 10am.
  * walk to Safeway
    ! calm, thoughtful; mindful?  Reasonable mix
    <- _Rose Garden_ engaged my sense of wonder
    -> try to correlate 20080924 happy spell with IM, River insights
       previous day: split up concert at ConChord, with QV and Wheelin'
       TG??  Ended 10-17 with realization about not understanding "joy"
    Process:  1. notice a change  2. figure out what changed
       3. figure out the trigger  4. figure out how it worked
       Fire, Aim, Ready.  Debugging: working from effect to cause
  * pay phone bills, damnit.  (DSL will be a pro-rated credit on 6609.)
  & 4pm call from Colleen.  2 hrs PT.
    parallel bars tomorrow
  * [the] 5:30pm
  & Kids fighting when I got home.  Justin's fault, mostly.
    ! angry at Justin; patched things up as best I could with Kat & YD
  & Kat made some very tasty mac-and-cheese with tiny sausages
  = You have to love a recipe that starts out "take three leeks of
    suggestively large proportions" http://hrj.livejournal.com/229148.html
  & Visit Colleen with Chaos
  = Naomi loves pickled mushrooms. (Told her about the ones we made for our
    wedding reception.)
  = the Wolfling wants a huge pickle for lunch on Wed.

The major insight of the day, which I'll write about at greater length in a separate post, was that I Never Promised You a Rose Garden engaged my sense of wonder about my mental recovery/reconstruction process. That's what finally got rid of my anxiety about it: the realization that the process was enjoyable and productive and fascinating by itself, and I don't have to worry about where it's taking me.

Kat was furious at her sister when I got home; she had a good reason, but it was Justin's telling her -- and probably misreporting -- what the YD had said earlier to someone else that set off the explosion. I told him very firmly that one does not go repeating to someone what someone else said about them, and sent him home.

Colleen had two hours of PT, and is making progress. They're going to put her on the parallel bars for walking practice today.