Done yesterday (20090503)

[mdlbear]

0503 Su
  * flexoril and asprin at bedtime
  & can't find Colleen's new container of flexoril.  On bed, maybe?
  * up 10ish; W=189.6; drugs, coffee, C
  * RSVP Audrey's party. (A. called; Colleen answered)
  = 33 1/3 wedding anniversary
  * flexeril located on bathroom shelf; in white bottle, not vial
  * (home nursing) Lily came for intake interview
  * 12:35-13:39 backups. 80% full
  ! 14:22 back sore, weary, stressed
  * Container Store: 4 wall standards, 6'x12" wire shelf, brackets
  ! Strong sense of unreality.  dissociation?   derealization?
    very heavy scrim in front of the world.  Reaction to stress?
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derealization
  & 5ish zoned out for about ?? an hour.  Now semi-conscious again.
  & Bev took care of Colleen all afternoon, made dinner 
    ! relieved, grateful
  * 19:25 drugs; do nose before bedtime -- didn't want to wake Colleen
  & 9ish still zoned out; plate of olives, pickles and pepperoni helps
  & 10:20-11:20 bath (fell asleep)
  * 11:20 bed

It was another long day; I was tired and stressed.

Coming home from shopping I felt a strong sense of unreality -- perhaps halfway to feeling as though I was in a dream. Colors seemed darker than usual. Apparently that kind of derealization is part of my way of coping with stress.

Spent the evening sleepy and generally zoned out. Not a very productive day.