Done yesterday (20090511)

[mdlbear]

0511 Mo
  * up 6:20; W=192.6; drugs, nose; coffee, C
  & Colleen notes dry mouth.  Join the club.
  & Colleen started using loperamide at my suggestion.
    seems to be working, or at least helping with control
  @ http://catsittingstill.livejournal.com/112514.html?thread=1419906#t1419906
    As my brother put it once, "Things that are a crisis get dealt with
    immediately. Things that aren't a crisis get put off while I'm dealing
    with crises, until they either become crises themselves, or stop being an
    issue." 
  * Joyce will be coming over 10:30ish: ping her then about TGq@Baycon
  & 11:15 meeting at work cancelled.  Good thing.
  * walk: once around the pond
  * 5:30pm group
  * make dinner: mac&cheese with Italian sausage
  & drink, dinner and conversation with Colleen in the living room
  * bed ~10:30 - lots of very good snuggle, talk
    I found a new, or at least unfamiliar, comfortable snuggle position.  Yay!
    ! happy, loving, loved

Colleen started using loperamide; it seems to be making some difference now, but the main effect yesterday was relieving some of the tension by giving me the feeling that Something was being done.

I basically spent the entire evening with Colleen: drinks (well, gin and olives on the side for me, just olives for her), dinner, and conversation. Then we went to bed early, about 10:30, and continued the conversation until we both went happily to sleep. It was the most relaxed, comfortable, happy time I've had in the last three weeks, at least. Maybe the last six months. Maybe more.

Comments

[elemirion]

Hurray Gin!!!! Always helps me feel better too!

Glad you are feeling better!

[mdlbear]

Thanks!

One of my friends a long time ago told me that gin contains a muscle relaxant. It always makes a good excuse.

[janeg.livejournal.com]

I am happy for you that you and Colleen could have such a relaxed and pleasant evening. I hope you have many more.

[mdlbear]

Thanks!

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

...and you're noticing that you're happy and relaxed.

[mdlbear]

Yes; that's the most remarkable part. Other people noticed last night, so that gives me a reality check, too.

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

And, of course, the more of that kind of feedback you get, the better you'll get at noticing and identifying your emotional and mental state.