Done yesterday (20090920)

[mdlbear]

0920 Su
  * 15 minutes meditation in bed
  * up 8ish; W=195.8; drugs, nose; coffee
  * backups: 2009-09-20T08:49:27-0700 - 2009-09-20T09:15:59-0700
  * Expedition to Barnes & Noble and Trader Joe's
  & Quite a lot of Middle-Sized Bear time with N And again the
    fascinating, difficult question: "what do *you* get out of doing this?"
    I'm learning that I don't really _have_ to know the answer, but I'm still
    intrigued by it.
  @ TGl:  Jack Frost, The Wind That Blows the Autumn Out (Cat Faber)
  ~ find dufflebag suitable for Mufasa.  Wrap in a blanket, probably.
    sent her off with the huge suitcase, which also holds the artwork, books,
    and snuggie that she was given.
  * Good conversations and a little music all through the day
  * a little Snuggle around 10:30; couldn't sleep.

The highlight of the late morning was an expedition to the Pruneyard mall, which has a Barnes&Noble and a Trader Joe's in close proximity. I had a blast watching Naomi and Colleen zip around on their scooters. I scored a book on sleep (30% off) and a Complete Stories of Arthur C. Clarke.

I got quite a lot of wonderful, calm, Middle-Sized Bear time with Naomi. She raised the fascinating, difficult question of "what do you get out of doing this?" It's one that Jen asked during her last visit back in April, and I still don't have an answer. I'm gradually learning that I don't really have to have an answer, but I'm still intrigued by it. Or maybe it's just the pleasure of having a lovely woman snuggled up next to me.

Gave Naomi my big suitcase (it was cheap, and has maybe two or three trips left in it) so she could take Mufasa (the new djembe) up to Seattle with her; she'll bring it with her to OVFF.

I had trouble getting to sleep. But it was a very good day, a little bitter-sweet knowing that Naomi was going home in the morning.

Comments

[kyrielle]

This may or may not resonate with you, as it may be entirely different for you, but when I'm in my equivalent of Middle-Sized Bear mode, what I get out of it is in many parts. The first is that I feel valuable to the person/people I care about whom I'm being with. The second is that I feel very connected to that person. The third is that I am calm and centered - and centered in something that is-not-me. I'm not worrying about my problems, thinking ahead, planning, etc. for my things - I am with them. It's arguably meditation of a sort in my case.

[mdlbear]

Yes, that does resonate a lot. Thank you.

And I noticed the relationship to meditation, too; it's a form of being in-the-moment with the other person included as a focus. Hmm.