Done yesterday (20090927)

[mdlbear]

0927 Su
  * up 9:15ish; W=195.6; drugs, nose, teeth; coffee
  * dishes, start laundry
  | shoulder pain present but less than yesterday
  * backups: 2009-09-27T12:42:43-0700 - 2009-09-27T13:13:38-0700 -> /media/bak
  & "Snapped" at YD "please... please..." while concentrating
    she left the room in a huff; Colleen broke into tears.  Apologies not
    effective.  Crawled back into the office.
    ! upset.  discouraged.  saddened.
      "obviously my presence is upsetting people" (self-blame, magnification,
      over-generalization...) -> ?? 
    => need to develop automatic "just-a-moment-I'm-in-the-middle-of-something"
       response, like my "just-a-minute-I-didn't-hear-you-I'll-be-right-there"
       when I think someone's trying to talk to me from another room.
  @ http://dsmoen.livejournal.com/263511.html links Re: vitamin D
  ! 1:10 mood sort of blank.
  * Walk: by Los Gatos Creek.
    mostly talking to myself about upgrading Nova.  
    ! pretty much emotionally blank.
  & Got two compliments on the shirt.  The first from a cyclist; the second
    was at BB&B; I could probably have turned that into a conversation if
    I'd been thinking.  ! mild regret.
  & Decided _not_ to buy the pair of Roland monitor speakers at GS
    A terrific deal, but I don't actually need them.  A Cube 30M, OTOH...
  * buy 2-prong cork puller, gin
  * buy 2 twin-size mattress bags for the hospital beds; two leopard snuggies
  | low blood sugar when I came home; very tired and flaky.  Coping with
    steaks not being completely thawed proved to be more than I could handle.
    Told N "[I] probably shouldn't be around people when I have low blood
    sugar."  After chocolate chip cookies, a bowl of caprese, and a bottle of
    ale I think I'm almost human again.
    ! I think Colleen was disappointed with me. (mind-reading, magnify) ->
      maybe she's just concerned about me.
  & noodled on Millennium's Dawn waiting for the microwave; got beeped
    _exactly_ when I finished.  ! pleased, surprised, amused
  & Marty came over to fix a quilt and talk.
    " Colleen: That's what I needed.
      Me: A talk with Marty?
      Colleen: A talk with my sister.  Now I understand.
    "
    ! very happy
  ~ the Nova upgrade is not likely to happen this weekend.
  * laundry (pads need a second round in the drier)  
  * decluttering the office.  Mostly magazines, because they're easy.
    (20:50:52) ***mdlbear can see actual floor behind my chair in the office.
    (20:53:22) mdlbear: Somehow I suspect that if I haven't read a magazine in
    	       the last 5 or 10 years, I'm unlikely to find the time now. 
    (21:03:57) mdlbear: Still not quite ruthless enough.
    (21:17:09) mdlbear: ... that's better.  Second bag tonight.
    (21:27:02) mdlbear: ...third.
  * 400GB SATA drive in Vantec box for the YD.
  @ http://xkcd.com/642/ ...is probably way the hell too true
  * bed ~10:30; snuggle; several wake-ups

Sunday was something of an emotional roller-coaster.

The day started out (late, because I slept in for once) with a fun bit of IM role-playing involving a moving box and a gruel-eating grue. Apparently that kind of role-playing doesn't bother me; I'm wondering where the dividing line is, and why.

Then a little later I overloaded when the YD tried to talk to Colleen while I was concentrating on fixing something on Colleen's computer. All I could get out was "please... please..."; the YD left in a huff, and Colleen burst into tears. :( Apologies weren't terribly effective.

So I need to develop another automatic response macro, something like "Just-a-minute-I'm-in-the-middle-of-something-I'll-talk-to-you-when-I'm-done" to use in that situation. The other one that I already use with some success is "Just-a-minute-I-can't-hear-you-I'll-be-there-shortly", when I think someone is trying to talk to me from another room or when my back is turned.

My walk by Los Gatos Creek was spent talking to myself about the upcoming Nova (fileserver) upgrade. Emotionally a blank. After that I went shopping, with moderate success (although Bed, Bath, and Beyond came out much more expensive than I expected, and I decided not to get the pair of Roland studio monitors I was lusting after at Guitar Showcase.)

I got two "like your shirt" comments (I was wearing the "Virtual Reality" shirt that Colleen and Marty made for me a couple of years ago). The first was shouted at me by a cyclist, but the second was an employee at BB&B; I could probably have turned that into a conversation if I'd been quick-witted enough. She was cute.

My blood sugar was, apparently, very low by the time I got home. I was snappish again, and the fact that the steaks I'd put in the fridge to thaw were still partly frozen proved an insurmountable obstacle; Colleen and I ended up with caprese salad and tamales, and the YD made herself a peanut-butter-and-jelly sandwitch.

I think Colleen was disappointed with me, or maybe just concerned for my health.

But the day ended well. Marty came by for some sewing and conversation; a little after she left Colleen said, "That's what I needed... a talk with my sister... Now I understand." I think she does, and that she'll be more comfortable about the time I spend with my sister-of-choice in the future.

After that it was back to decluttering the office. I took out three bags of old magazines -- let's face it: if I haven't had time to look at them in the last five years, I'm not going to do it in the next five, either. I saved only the American Scientist, National Geographic, and Fine Woodworking, and read a couple of interesting-looking cover articles in Scientific American and Science. It's a start.

Shortly before going to bed I responded to the YD's second plea for an external hard drive by putting a 400GB SATA drive into an external box for her. Tonight I'll put together another one for cflute, since I was able to locate the necessary pieces.

A productive day, and parts of it were good. Can't ask for much more.

Comments

External Hard Drive

[chaoswolf]

Aside from wanting to install more games on it, she was telling me she's running out of space for her .pdf copies of game books she has on her computer. Most of mine are on CDs in my room there, but Emmy wouldn't know where to look.

Re: External Hard Drive

[mdlbear]

*nods*

400GB should be plenty. Your disk is on the list, but it's currently in the fileserver and I'll have to move stuff off of it first.