Done yesterday (20091104)

[mdlbear]

1104 We
  * up 7:25; W=197.0; drugs, nose, teeth; coffee
  * Water day
  * 10 min meditation not very focussed, but relaxing.
  * walk, twice around the pond.
    | very scattered, unable to concentrate.  A couple of slowdowns when
      thinking about lack of interaction with people.  Mind=mush
  " I often wonder what it would be like to be, if not "normal", at least
    enough like other people to be able to experience a few things in close
    enough to the same way as to find them comprehensible.
   	(from a comment on a locked post)
  "
  @ http://osewalrus.livejournal.com/616089.html#cutid1 "Elija moment"
  @ Nathaniel Branden has written on it extensively (e.g. The Six Pillars of
    Self Esteem), and Jean Illsley Clarke wrote 'Self Esteem: A Family Affair' 
    http://powells.com/s?header=Search+Form&kw=Nathaniel+Branden
    http://powells.com/s?header=Search+Form&kw=Jean+Illsley+Clarke
  * bed ~11:30; a little snuggle

In spite of a little meditation in the morning and a walk around noon, my brain felt like mush all afternoon. Very scattered and difficult to concentrate. I finally did dive in to a Makefile and made some progress, though not as much as I would have liked, and fixed a bug in the one of the last two systems that actually still run my demo.

Spent most of the evening hiding out in the office until things thinned out somewhere between 10:30 and 11.

Quote from a comment made elsejournal: "I often wonder what it would be like to be, if not 'normal', at least enough like other people to be able to experience a few things in close enough to the same way as to find them comprehensible." It's an exageration, of course; many things about other people are comprehensible to me. With others, though, I'm never entirely sure.

Links: My sister-of-choice pocketnaomi pointed me at this post by osewalrus, in part to introduce me to the phrase "Elija moment". cflute pointed me at books about self-esteem by Nathaniel Branden and Jean Illsley Clarke. I'm currently starting on Ten Days to Self Esteem by David D Burns.