Done yesterday (20111031 Mo)

[mdlbear]

A good day? Mostly. I went up to the Menlo Park office for a meeting, and took my walk to and around the little artificial pond in the nearby park. I was struck by how many phone conversations I recalled while passing the place where I'd had them. Apparently location is a powerful trigger for me. (Now I'm finding that just thinking about the places brings back more memories. Eeep!)

I spent some time comparing netbooks -- I am now thinking of a Thinkpad X120e. The HP Pavilion dm1z has gotten better reviews, but I really want the pointing stick and middle mouse button.

I also spent some time researching laryngopharyngeal reflux (again). After rejecting the idea of using omeprazole (which interferes with citalopram metabolism), I decided to try raising the head of my bed about 10". This appears to have worked -- I woke up able to breathe and without having to constantly clear my throat. So... YAY!

Another patent with my name on it has issued. I have very mixed feelings about this: there's a sense of accomplishment, but I really hate the idea of software patents (which this is, like most of mine). I have 24 now.

A long phone call from a lonely Wolfling -- she's depressed, and I don't know how to help. I don't know what to call that feeling, but it hurts. Empathy? Maybe that's why I kept my feelings buried for so long, and so deep that I didn't know I had them.

A couple of good links: Ysabetwordsmith's Asexual Awareness Week Wrapup, Liralen on the difference between religion and faith (among other things). As a total outsider to religion, I've mostly seen its bad side; "faith" in particular has always baffled me.

Hmm. This one seems to have gone a little deeper than usual. Have to do more of that.

1031 Mo
  * up 7am; W=197.6; drugs, nose, teeth, dishes, exercise, light
  @ Cringely » How to get a job after the Singularity comes 
  % forgot to post 1028 Fr!  Urk?  Too much undone stuff in between.
  * Walk: ~2mi to and around the pond near the Menlo Park office
    % kept remembering phone conversations that I'd had in various places
      along the way.
  * compare netbooks.  I think either a Dell Mini 10v or Thinkpad X120e
  * ordered replacement anywhere mouse from meritline.com ($40; next best $60) 
  * pick up humira at Kaiser
  * call Mom
  * update website(s) to next party
  @ liralen - Circling About An Unseen Center
    the difference between religion and belief or faith
  @ Secure pre-caching through local superdistribution and key exchange 
    8,046,328... bringing my total to 24.  
    ! accomplished and pleased, but somewhat ashamed of my accomplishment.
  | noticable sugar rush -- from one _tiny_ package of malted milk balls.
  @ ysabetwordsmith | Asexual Awareness Week Wrapup
  @ Laryngopharyngeal reflux - Wikipedia tried raising the head of the
    bed; seems to have worked wonders.  
    " Extraesophageal symptoms are the result of exposure of the upper
      aerodigestive tract to the gastric juice. This causes a variety of
      symptoms, including hoarseness, postnasal drip, sore throat, difficulty
      swallowing, indigestion, wheezing, chronic cough, globus pharyngis and
      chronic throat-clearing.   
    "
  * PAY BILLS
  & unhappy call from Chaos.
    ! She's depressed, and I don't know how to help.  I don't know what you
      call that, but it hurts.  Empathy?  Maybe that's why I buried it so long.
  * very sleepy; headed for bed ~11:30

Comments

[judifilksign.livejournal.com]

Re Wolfling: sometimes it is not your role to actually "solve" the problem, merely to listen and empathize.

Places are very evocative of memory, which is why many cops will take witnesses "back to the scene of the crime" in order to have them remember better.

Anyone who has ever gone back to an old house in which they used to live can tell you of overwhelming memories crowding around.

What you're experiencing is also common in many housewives, who must go back to the room where they thought of something that needed doing elsewhere in the house before they could remember what that task actually was.

[mdlbear]

Not just housewives -- I often find myself charging off into some part of the house, then struggling to remember what I was supposed to be doing there. Hadn't thought of going back to the place where I thought of it, though I sometimes wind up doing it by accident.

[mdlbear]

Yeah; I know that I can't solve the problem -- it's the empathizing that hurts.