mdlbear | Done last week (20150628Su

Not a great week, but not terrible. The new antidepressant seems to be helping, and I've been moderately productive. Well, at work, anyway. Wasted all morning Friday on chat with CenturyLink trying to figure out why gigabit internet is available for new accounts (like for our basement "apartment") but not for the line we already have. I'm most likely to simply open the new account and drop internet from the house phone. Having a hardwired phone is good for emergencies anyway.

Thursday I finally got over 10,000 steps; first time since I got the new phone, which includes an always-on pedometer app.

Went out to buy fans yesterday. Home Depot sold out two weeks ago; so did Target. Bed Bath and Beyond had them, but most were expensive. Ended up spending 40 on a stand fan for the Rainbow Room, and 30 for a table fan for Emmy. Really wanted box fans, but there were none to be had.

Colleen and I watched the fireworks on livestream from one of the local stations.

Lots of anxiety, still some depression, and a fair amount of back pain. The latter may be related to the chair I've been sitting in in the Rainbow Room -- it has inadequate back support. Will probably have to do something about that, because I need to spend more time with Colleen there. As for the depression, my overall mood seems to be up a little, but it may be more variable. Still get overwhelmed, and I seem to have gotten worse at functioning through it. We'll see whether the ramped-up dose improves things.

Lots of good links in the notes:

0628Su
* up 9am; W=207.6, B=126/85, P=96; shower,
: My silk Hawaiian shirt just split up the side. Grump.
@ My name is only real enough to work at Facebook, not to use on the site — Medium
@ Full Text of the U.S. Supreme Court’s Majority Decision Finding Same Sex Marriage Is
Legal — Medium
& Wikipedia dive starting at "Invictus", from a FB reference.
: Rainbow Room is 14'x18'6", so 259 ft^2. Now to find an air conditioner suitable for
about 300 ft^2 (to allow for the gaps). Need at least 10000 BTU.
* Out to Walgreens (for Colleen), Petco (for Curio), QFC (gin, cole slaw, and ground
beef, mostly)
* trip to deliver stuff to G cut into dinner prep time, and it was just me and Colleen
anyway, so had cole slaw and leftover pasta.
@ Convert keys between GnuPG, OpenSsh and OpenSSL - Sysmic.org

0629Mo
* up 6:15; W=207.6; laundry
@ mapleMaker Mini V2 | mapleMaker Media (hackaday)
* Reasonably productive at work. Got out a 2-part CR
: it's too damned hot -- 88 last time I looked. I moved to Seattle to GET AWAY from
this kind of weather.
% blepharitis acting up again; left eye as usual.
% 10:15 sleepy.

0630Tu
* up 6:35; W=208.8; laundry, dishes
* Laundry, piggies. Scraped my arm on the cage.

0701We
* up 6:15; W=208.2; laundry
& apparently sometime around last Thursday I started using 07 for the month instead of
06. Maybe I was distracted? -> Corrected, though not on DW/LJ
@ Using iptables to rate-limit incoming connections almost certainly explains why I
had to add a sleep-time option to pull-all. 4 seconds seems to work.

0702Th
* up 5:45; W=208.8; laundry
: A fresh case of cat food had turned up yesterday, but I didn't notice, so fed chicken
(which we have a lot of) to the ninjas. More is on order, because I noticed we were
getting low and didn't realize we had a subscription. Can't hurt.
% blood sugar crash in the late afternoon; probably insufficient protein for lunch.
% 7:08 slowdown
* S=10205 - first time I've gotten over 10K steps since owning a phone with an always-on
pedometer.

0703Fr holiday.
* up 5:45; W=208.8; Shower, laundry, dishes
& We forgot to take in the Smith Brothers delivery; I'm assuming the milk is bad.
: Apparently gigabit internet is available, but only for new accounts. They won't
upgrade the existing line, and won't port the number if I get a new line (for the
basement "unit"). Tempted to just get an internet only account, then drop the old
one. 1G: 110, 100M: 70, 40M: 30. (Lower speeds are listed, but they're the same
price.) I was told that I could get 20, and that that's a "fiber speed", but that I
wouldn't be able to upgrade after that. MAKES NO SENSE.) In any case the website
won't let me go higher than 12M. And if I combine internet with phone, the price *for
internet* goes up! That's probably because it's giving the real price, not the
introductory discount.
-> wasted all morning on this. :P
@ Folk Music and Movements: The Tradition Continues | BillMoyers.com f(Moss Bliss)
(cross-posted from huffingtonpost.com)
* Paid amex bill; activated new card. Chip and signature; not clear what that's
supposed to accomplish. It's purely counterfeit prevention, and does nothing to help
with lost/stolen cards.
Chip & PIN vs. Chip & Signature — Krebs on Security
Chip-and-PIN vs. Chip-and-Signature
Why New Credit Cards May Fall Short on Fraud Control - WSJ
* Bills:
Amex, mortgage, UB cash reserve, Seattle (both; overdue), Viewtech
: There's another huge pile of envelopes on my desk, and I'm not even really done with
the last batch yet. % despair, hopelessness, maybe desperation.
* Went out to Metro; cheese boards for dinner. Bought a fair amount of other stuff that
won't need to be heated. Spent maybe a little too much.
% flaked out in the kitchen; reacted badly when Emmy tried to calm me. :P
I suspect that in general, being soothed is something I'm going to react badly to if
I'm already afraid that I'm freaking the other person out, and just barely holding it
together.
* Still reading Nurk by Ursula Vernon. Fun. Reading in fits and starts;
I'm not sure fiction agrees with me much these days.
* 9pm called G; visit tomorrow. He's a lot more comfortable now.
! Worried about Curio, worried about G, worried about N, worried about money, worried
about work, worried about _everything_. OK, so... depression with anxiety. Great.
% Been sitting in the Rainbow Room with Colleen for a couple of hours; moving now (9:15)
because my back is hurting.
% Did I mention that I seem to have pulled something in my left side? Possibly several
times; I seem to have re-injured it.
: Speaking of which, I seem to have forgotten to take my work laptop out of my bag.
! 22:42 overwhelmed? sad? dry sobs.
: Dysthymia is now, apparently, called Persistent depressive disorder (from a shallow dive on google)
* Up to bed ~11:15. Sleepy

0704Sa Independence Day
* up 7:30; W=208.8; cuddle, laundry
@ About - Gratipay (viaResource page for git-weave 1.0)
A crowdfunding site which is, itself, crowdfunded.
cf Risk, Verification, and the INTERCAL Reconstruction Massacree
" Now, friends, you may be wondering why I bothered to do all this rather than simply
starting a repo with ais523’s latest snapshot and munging my week’s worth of
changes into it, and all I’m going to say about that is that if the answer isn’t
intuitively obvious to you you have missed the point of INTERCAL and are probably
not a hacker. "
@ Free Website Monitoring Tool with Unlimited Text & Email Alerts
Uses a Google Docs spreadsheet and Google Apps script f(Chris Malme)
* 15min: some puttering with the pile of envelopes. Didn't make much of a dent, but at
this point *anything* is going to help.
! noon: more-or-less ok (as I said to Colleen when she asked, and realized that it
seemed accurate).
@ OpenSSH/Cookbook/Multiplexing - Wikibooks for speeding up pull-all
@ ysabetwordsmith | Making Music Accessible Rainbow's End is accessible. That was
one of the big selling points.
@ Preserve Data in a Mason Jar Using Raspberry Pi | Make: Raspberry Preserve
Raspberry Preserve – A BitTorrent Sync client in a Mason Jar | Hackaday
* Made tuna salad for dinner -- came out quite well. I had mine on rice cakes.
* Visited G in the hospital. Spent about 2:30 there, was relieved by N, who had finally
gotten her first restful sleep in over a week.
* Watching fireworks livestreamed on KIRO 7 Eyewitness News Live | www.kirotv.com