mdlbear | Done last week (20150802Su

Rough week, though not as bad as the week before. It scares me how close I am to the edge -- in several ways.

On the good side, the potential trainwreck at work has been averted (or possibly just postponed; too early to tell for sure). N has given me a firm talking-to (because she noticed that I respond best to a firm talking-to when I think I deserve it), assuring me that we're family even if I screw up completely, and that we'll find a way to make things work. On good days, I can believe it. Mom was also very encouraging when she called me on Sunday. My back is just about back to normal (which of course is dangerous, since I might be tempted to do too much and re-injure it).

On the bad side, the downstairs is still a disaster. We're going to have to take out a loan for the repairs, which are going to be extensive (and expensive) due to the long-standing water damage. Jeff, the guy from (water mitigation company)Servpro, was very helpful and informative. He arrived just as the plumber was leaving -- the plumber was not helpful.

On the gripping hand, the loan will mean that we won't have to worry too much about the construction budget. We decided to try to make the kitchen into a spare room. Can't be officially a bedroom because it doesn't have an alternative fire exit, but we don't use it as a kitchen.

I completely failed to notice that Tuesday was also Ame's birthday; I only remembered on Thursday when the 70th anniversary of the Hiroshima bombing reminded me. She would have beem 25 years old. (She assured me that it was ok, and besides, she has Curio now. Yes, some of my ghosts talk to me. It's comforting even though I know, intellectually, that it's all in my head. The grief is also in my head, so it works out.)

Links in the notes.

0802Su
* up 6:30; W=200.6
* stupidly locked myself out of the work laptop by mistaking it for the home machine,
after having changed the background.
* Went in to work and did the deployment I needed to do. Smooth as glass. OTOH, it
didn't fix the problem.
* Colleen wanted to go to a Joanne's to get some facing and notions for a project, so we
went to the one in Southcenter, with Emmy along for muscle. Duke's Chowder House for
dinner.
* Call from Mom. She was very encouraging. I may make it through this.
@ 249 | depression comix

0803Mo
* up 5:15; ;
* PAY BILLS
* Busy at work. Maybe things will work out.
* Windows 10 privacy problems: Here’s how bad they are, and how to plug them.

0804Tu Ame's birthday
* up 5:30; W=197.6
* 8:20 j to bus
* 10am meeting on batch job. It's going to be bad.
-> put off to 11 with just my TPM. Went *much* better than I expected: I'll get
help, and the project will almost certainly succeed. I, of course, will know how
close I came to failing. Hopefully that will be a reminder.
% catastrophizing - I duz it.
x 4pm g pickup
* Plumber. useless.
* (water mitigation company) Servpro. Very helpful.
: good talk with N after Jeff, the Servpro guy, left, mostly to discuss options. We're
going to have to get a construction loan, because they're tearing out the kitchen
cabinets and the bottom two feet of drywall in the kitchen and laundry room. Which
gives us the option of replacing the kitchen (which we don't use) with a spare room.
: Followed by a discussion of my work problems, and N telling me firmly that we're a
family no matter what happens and whose fault it is. (Pointed out that she gave me a
firm talking-to because that's what I felt I deserved.)
% I love my family!
* Chicken tikka masala for dinner.
* Night Out; Colleen, g, and I went out and met some neighbors.
@ How to read ebooks, 2015 edition, Part 2: Android – angelahighland.com

0805We
* up 4:35; W=198.4;
& some cuddle; Colleen was wakeful, too
* 8am meet with the builders to discuss $$. It's actually coming in a little under the
original budget. We're going to have to get a loan to cover fixing the water damage,
though. It's long-term, and insurance isn't going to cover much of it.
~ noonish expect call from Jasmin re: potential job
: As it turns out, I only have a half-hour concert at Sasquan, and that's my only
programming item. :P
@ Sasquan - Steve Savitzky
% sleepy in the afternoon. Yesterday, too.
~ voting deadline
% 9pm exhausted. The last month has, apparently, caught up with me.

0806Th Hiroshima + 70
* Up 4:30; W=198.0
% back hurting, since last night sometime. Not good. Used my last methocarbamol
% Walking to/from the bus stops helped a lot; essentially no problems during the day,
but a couple of warning twinges on the way home. Took it v e r y easy.
{ Ame tells me it's ok that I forgot her birthday - she got Curio as an early birthday
present. She would have been 25 on Tuesday. }
: Started working with (coworker)S -- cleared up a lot of misconceptions about how the
framework operates. There are problems (it's all based on class naming conventions)
but it's usable.
@ Review: Epson’s New Inkjet Printers Eliminate Cartridges, Save You $500 a Year
Well... we don't do nearly that much printing, and most of it on the laser printer.
But this is a good idea. I know what my next printer is going to be.
@ Project Semicolon "faith based" but
seemingly not too much so. It's a brilliant idea.
" A semicolon is used when an author could've chosen to end their sentence, but chose
not to. The author is you and the sentence is your life. "
% spent most of the day so congested I had to mostly breathe through my mouth; sudafed
in the morning helped a little.
% p=4-5 by the time I got to bed.

0807Fr
* Up 7:00; W=199.0;
% ... so apparently I'm eating more now that I'm not worried sick.
* Worked from home to give my back a rest; seems to have worked.
-> fairly productive, but the program still doesn't work.
& took a nap around 9pm (light doze)
& woke up at 3am very congested; chlorpheniramine maleate and nose-watering.

0808Sa
* up 7:00; ; laundry, dishes (put to soak)
* wikipedia dive from Chlorphenamine
" In addition to being an histamine H1 receptor antagonist, chlorphenamine has been
shown to work as a serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor or SNRI [...] Limited
clinical evidence shows that it is comparable to several antidepressant medications
in its ability to inhibit the reuptake of serotonin and also norepinephrine "
including Bupropion
" In depressed people who experience symptoms of sleepiness and fatigue, bupropion has
been found to be more effective than selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs)
in alleviating these symptoms. " ... which may explain decreased sleep!
Cold-hardy citrus
satsuma and kumquat in particular; possibly kaffir lime to a lesser extent
: Cygnus lost its ability to connect to wifi; fixed with reboot. Guessing it was due to
a driver module update.
& regrets sent re: Orycon -- I consider it dubious at this point, though that may just
be the depression talking.
: You can create a custom git command by simply putting git-foo on your path. Won't
work on ssh to dreamhost, though, because it's set up not to allow user environment
variables. OTOH git-annex can use an rsync remote plus a regular git repo. OTOH one
could create a wrapper and give a full path to it.
: YD very upset about having to work on one of her days off. Problem is, stuff hasn't
been getting done. A lot got left for Giselle, who was out sick Friday.
& laundry: brought up dry load, put away, started new load.
@ The Nature of Order by Christopher Alexander! $225 for the set, unfortunately.
% 5:16 oh. Maybe I'm hungry. Or thirsty. -> probably hungry.
@ Art Of Community Online | The Book On Community Management, by Jono Bacon
available in print, ebook, and free (CC-BY-SA) download.
& most of the afternoon and evening reading "Clean Code" and "Open Advice"