Done Since 2018-08-26

[mdlbear]

I guess it's been a pretty decent week in many respects. I started learning a new programming language (Go, AKA Golang), met dialecticdreamer, did some singing, put in three job applications (one of which I don't expect to go anywhere; the form didn't have a place for a cover letter), and acquired a new domain (computer-curmudgeon.com -- the site is still under construction). Also, Colleen came home from rehab on Wednesday, and progress has been made on re-organizing various parts of the house.

So why do I feel like an utter failure who can't get anything done?

To answer my own question... it's clearly because there's so much I haven't done. The yard is a mess, there are boxes sitting around from when we moved in a year and a half ago (and some of those haven't been opened since we moved from the Starport in 2012), there's mail stacked up on five different surfaces, I have three different medical referrals I need to follow up on, and so on. So, ... yeah. That.

Part of that, I suspect, is due to the fact that I've never been able to deal well with uncertainty, and so many of my decisions in the past have gone disastrously wrong. Never mind that some of those seemed like the right thing to do at the time; that doesn't help get me out of the trainwreck I'm in now. In many cases, as N puts it, I was making decisions based on who I wanted to be rather than who I am. That's probably worth a post or ten by itself.

Notes & links:

0826Su 
  * up 4:40ish; W=198.8, S=4:53;
  * Spent about ~1.5h on A Tour of Go
    ... to see if I would feel comfortable applying to a job that would require it.
    -> yeah; doable.  I'll want to finish the tour, which will take another couple of
       hours for the exercises, but it's straightforward.  Nice language.  I'll use it.
  # the above was an experiment to see whether it works to put some work before my usual
    morning reading.  -> it does, at least if I get up early enough.
    -> I don't think a 25m pomodoro sprint would be enough time to get into flow.
  * another session moving stuff from N's closet to the guest room.  Shoes ought to go
    into boxes; papers, etc. will have to go to the garage.  Found some keyboards, power
    strips, etc. that can usefully stay out.
  : Gmail has a new UI.  Gets more on the page, I think, but it's horribly slow to load
    (at least the first time, in Firefox.  Haven't tried anything else.)
  * the signs in the neighborhood reminded me, so I went to the two nearby places on the
    studio tour.  I probably won't get to any others, since it ends at 5
  * up to Coupeville to visit with C
    she went walking with PT, then wanted to go back to bed.  I left ~3:15
  @ Google and Facebook Didn't End Data Privacy - The Atlantic (thnidu)
  * continuing working on Go.  Down to the last two exercises, in concurrency.  Switched
    over to reading the blog because there was some interesting stuff in it.
  % 9:15ish headache, eye-strain.

0827Mo
  * Up 7am; W=197.8, S=7:52;
  * 8:45ish head down to Rest Stop
  & demo Linux to (guest)S (dialecticdreamer)
  * Singing, mostly with m.  We had some trouble with a broken string and the lack of a
    capo.  Bigger on the Inside, the Travelers, the Bears, October Country,  QV
  & down the rabbit hole of go's documentation

0828Tu
  * up 5:50; W=197.0, S=5:55;
  * Got computer-curmudgeon.com up on DH.
    required fixing a bug that gojekyll found and jekyll let pass -- using {%...%} instead
    of {{...}} to expand a variable.  Used git bisect to find it; I don't use it often,
    but when you need to find a bug that was introduced a long time ago, it WORKS.
  & Pinged T'; she won't be back until tomorrow.
    -> took out the garbage, changed the catboxes, and took the can up to the street
  * bought a weed puller.
  * 11:09 finished A Tour of Go
  * somewhere around midnight, finally got the cats herded into my room and me and my old
    CPAP outside it; went over to the apartment to try out the bed-box.  Couldn't find the
    other dreamwear mask, so used the wisp.  Didn't like it.
    % felt a little bad about leaving the cats locked up, but didn't want to cat-wrangle
      if I needed to come in in the middle of the night.

0829We
  * up 5:30ish; ;
    % back hurting a little; more from sitting in bed with laptop than from the mattress
    The bedbox is nice and cozy, but there are a few inconveniences.  One of the outlets
    doesn't have power -- I assume it just needs plugging in.  The pulldown table is too
    high for most purposes.  Hard to get around in -- going in some directions there is
    nothing to hold on to 
  @ Hiding from the Internet by Michael Bazzell 
    Workbook [pdf] (redsixwing
  @ siderea | [US, hist, p/a/s, med, Patreon] How We Remember and What
    the flu epidemic of 1918
  : Colleen is home!

0830Th
  * up 6: 15ish; S=7:42; shower
  @ Chase Johnsey Embraces Gender Fluidity In Ballet (ysabetwordsmith | Genderfluid Ballerinx)
  * 8:30ish T' coming
  * lunch at Mazatlan before appointment
  * 1:30  C UNW
  * V (who goes up to Careage every Thursday) brought back C's phone (had been left in the
    room, along with its charger) and tablet (found in the parking lot after having
    apparently been run over by a car, probably ours)

0931Fr
  * up 3:3054r; W=199.2, S=4:41;
    % I seem to have bitten my tongue sometime during the night
  * fixed a long-standing bug in sort-by-title.  Apparently I didn't test it
  @ Chase the Feeling — The Road Model Of Gender (archangelbeth)
  % hernia bothering me -- I'd better take it easy with lifting.
  & up to Coupeville for a plumbing replacement at MAC clinic
  & more problems with gojekyll -- it doesn't honor keep: or include: for directories
    kludge it in the Makefile.  Consider building locally and putting _site on a branch
  * SL: new potatoes, 6 baking potatoes, red enchillada sauce, 6" corn tortillas, red
    onion, bacon, green onions, green beans, chicken thighs, barley, frozen bread dough,
    good bread, juices, fruit, barbecue sauce, char sieu sauce, wipes
  * application at HashiCorp
  % went to bed around 10, after falling asleep at my desk; very sleepy

0901Sa
  * up 6:30ish; S=8;
  @ Find the Best Indie Books at Books2Read.com
    via Dirt Witch - THE MUD
  : My new thumb brace seems to be hiding.  I had it earlier this morning. -> on the bed!
  @ Recovering from a toxic job – It Figures S(L) not a very good match for my
    experience with burnout, but in that direction.
  @ Laziness Does Not Exist – E Price – Medium psychological barriers to getting
    things done.  Maybe?
  * job app: Rackspace.  Looked promising but their form didn't provide a place for a
    cover letter, so unlikely to go anywhere.
  * job app: fastly
  @ selfcare.tech - developer resources for self-care
  @ The Gift of Presence, The Perils of Advice | The On Being Project
  % How did it get to be 4:00?
  * made chili for dinner.
  : I know I ran across some Tylenol somewhere in the course of a cleanup, but I have no
    idea where it is.  C wanted some.  -> most likely my closet.