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mdlbearThere's a lot of great music online these days. Only problem is that anything with lyrics totally blocks my ability write. Or, really, do almost anything else that requires thought. (I can drink.) This bear does not multitask.
I am, however, finally getting a few things done -- decluttering the garage, a little cooking, a little singing practice, a little other housework, ... Okay, a lot of housework. I'm staying ahead of it, I think, but only just. At least I got the vacuum cleaner unclogged. Apparently Ticia isn't the only one with hairballs.
The garage is difficult. I have a tendency to go in there, look around, and find that everything I look at brings up so many memories and regrets that I just stand there. Like so many things, I've been neglecting the decluttering that I know I need to do. I finally figured out how to deal with the stack of forty-odd boxes of books -- I can shift a box if I only have to slide it, and I can shift one to another stack if I empty it half-way. I have at least glanced into all of the boxes in the stack; there are still some things I'm missing, though, and I can't tell whether I just overlooked them, or whether they're in one of the other boxes that I dismissed earlier based on what I could see in the top layer.
Washington is in Stage 1 of its Safe Start reopening plan. "High-risk populations" -- i.e. everyone in this house -- are supposed to "continue to stay home, stay safe" until Stage 4. At a minimum of three weeks per stage, that works out to the middle of August at best. (Some counties are transitioning to stage 2 early because they have no active cases. It could happen here too, but that doesn't really matter...) The real question is whether it will be safe for me and Colleen to come out even with physical distancing and similar measures, if there isn't an effective vaccine out by then. Which there won't be. Maybe next August if we're lucky. We'll discuss her risk tolerance sometime in August.
Meanwhile the CDC's reopening plan has finally come out, censored of course. Fortunately, you can find the leaked drafts below in Wednesday's links. There are a couple of good links/quotes about grieving on Sunday, and some stuff about boundaries on Friday that I'm hopefully going to turn into a post soon. (I meant to do it this weekend, but I fell into a rabbit hole (more links halfway through Friday) instead.)
This ended up a little disconnected. Sorry about that.
0510Su Mother's Day & Awake 2:30ish, probably another half-hour before I got up; back to bed ~4:30 % dream included finding a cat in the trunk of my car. Don't remember much else. * up 7am; W=199.2, S=4:59; shower * cleaned stovetop * made French toast and bacon for breakfast @ University of Minnesota students saved local hospitals from running out of PPE protective gowns designed and put into production (10K/day) in 2 weeks @ ‘Finally, a virus got me.’ Scientist who fought Ebola and HIV reflects on facing death from COVID-19 | Science | AAAS @ Coping with Grief: The Ball & The Box " Imagine your life is a box and the grief you feel is a ball inside of the box. Also inside the box is a pain button [...] The ball rattles around the box at random, hitting the pain button every time. This is how many people initially experience loss. [...] You still go through life and the grief ball still rattles around inside the box. But because the ball has gotten smaller, it hits the pain button a little less often. [...] Most people never forget the loss they experienced. But over time, the ball becomes so small that it rarely hits the pain button. When it does, it is still as painful and hard to understand as it was the very first time we felt it. " @ poundifdef/gmail-deleter: Tool for deleting email threads en masse * call Mom. -> she has a copy of Zoom on her iMac. @ How risky is it right now to get non-coronavirus medical care? | Seattle Times @ A Journal of the Plague Year: an Archive of CoVid19 via What Historians Will See When They Look Back on the Covid-19 Pandemic of 2020-NYT " Haiku: I think I know why / my indoor cat keeps trying / to escape the house. " : Desti found what looked like a hairball over in the sewing corner, and meowed until it was taken care of. As she does. That almost certainly explains Ticia's "coughing". @ dialecticdreamer. Fiction: Yozakura (part 2 of 2, complete) " “Grief doesn’t have an alarm clock. It has a half-life. Learning to live with it is different for everyone, and far too many people insist that the ‘best’ way to deal with it is to pick up and pretend that life is normal.” " * singing: Lily et.al., Riverheart. played Snuggles. Probably needs new strings too. 0511Mo & Awake 4am; % dreams about the (hopefully not)coming Rump coup. I owned a company called 2020/(the rest is hazy) and was sadly sorting through the wreckage of our remaining stock. We had a buyer for the parsnips, but they were already starting to rot. Can't remember much else; there was clothing also. % current earworm is "Blacksmith of Brandywine" mixed with a song that _really_ needs to be written - "Masters of Hate" TTTO Dylan's "Masters of War". not sure I'm up for it ? Where are the protest songs? @ WASHINGTON'S PHASED APPROACH [chart] in this PDF linked from via Safe Start reopening plan Reopening Business and Modifying Physical Distancing Measures Bottom line (actually the top line) high-risk populations stay home until stage 4 (each stage >= 3 weeks, phase 1 started 5/5. In stage 4: Resume public interactions, with physical distancing The earliest phase 4 could start would be May 5 + 9 weeks = July 7. @ Japanese Poetry Forms: Haiku, Senryu, Haiga and Tanka | Owlcation So what I (and most westerners) call a haiku is usually a senryu: 5-7-5 without the nature reference or maybe hokku (the first part of a tanka) see Haiku and Senryū - Wikipedia * about an hour in the garage; tracked down some more books; cut and measured TV shelf -> wants finishing maybe; -> wear a mask going to the garage. * got call from OnStar to renew, which I did. They had my AX on file. * Singing - Ship of Stone (badly enough that I did it twice) and The October Country. * water orchids : some very nice Desti lap time. Excellent villain's cat. * send email to N' with links about singing teaching @ Public Domain Mark generator / major cleanup 0512Tu * Up 615ish; ; / major cleanup @ How to Plant a Victory Garden, Even on a Windowsill - The New York Times ~ C's nephrology appointment got screwed up; she was told last week she didn't need labs, and that they would do it remote. Apparently both of those were wrong. * explore in the garage. I think I've looked in all of the boxes in the pile now. Still no sign of the missing music books, nor of The Pharos Gate (which I discovered was missing from the Griffin and Sabine series, since it came out after the boxed sets There are still a few boxes on the shelves with books, and probably some in the pile @ The Great Realisation - YouTube A bed time story of how it started, and why hindsight’s 2020 -- hopeful, so unlikely : The 3.5mm-to-.25" adapters I bought recently actually work, unlike the earlier ones that hit the wrong place on the Bose headphones' TRRS plug and don't fully connect. % 9:30 feeling kind of dazed -- not exactly the same as drifty but can't explain it / major cleanup 0513We * litter boxen: LR, BR scooped * up 6:30ish; S=7:18, W=197.2; shower @ AP Exclusive: CDC docs stress plans for more virus flareups Guidance for Opening Up America Again Framework [PDF] Note that the online viewer is unusable - can't rotate to see landscape-format tables * load Colleen's drugs * pay AX and Molly * cleaned out clogs in vacuum cleaner -- the key was using scissors to pull out clumps (held together with cat hair) and repeated suck/clear cycles to get all the clogs to the accessible part of the elbow joint. * Colleen - re-order Lomotil * Singing: The October Country, The Mary Ellen Carter, Millennium's Dawn % something seems off. Don't know what, maybe no resonance? no _confidence?_ : L' did the shopping - see 2020/sl-0513.txt # transcribing the shopping list to a text file works well for someone who isn't me @ Westercons 73 and 74 Postponed One Year Due to COVID-19 – Westercon ->cancel Westercon hotel reservation 32M9QXBK -> automatically cancelled. OK then. / Colleen very disappointed @ 10 Must-Know Tips for Making Better Conversations | Psychology Today % heat and meloxicam - back not hurting much, but there were a couple of twinges -- I've used it a little more than usual the last few days 0514Th * up 7:15; S=7:48; / major cleanup % many instances of "dammit/I'm sorry" % heat on back and right leg * 9am-4pm 2nd Eurofilk circle on jitsi; meeting id Eurofilk plus MMDD 1800CET == 9am -> Bells of Norwich, Middle-Aged Bear, October Country, The River, : Accent dental called; dropped the teeth-cleaning appointment too * btw 10 and 4 pick up C's lomotil at RiteAid * call Blue Cross to find out how much deductable is, or whether I screwed something up deductable this year is $198; it was $185 last year @ ChordPro/chordpro: Reference implementation of the ChordPro standard for musical lead sheets. * load C's missing drugs @ Officials release edited coronavirus reopening guidance | The Seattle Times @ Rachel Carson’s Touching Farewell to Her Dearest Friend and Beloved 0515Fr & awake 4:30ish; S=6.4 @ ysabetwordsmith | Self-Awareness Question: Boundaries What Are Personal Boundaries? How Do I Get Some? Why Boundaries Don't Work " Learning assertiveness takes self-awareness and practice. Often due to underlying shame and low self-esteem, codependents, especially, find this difficult, because: They don’t know what they need or feel. Even when they do, they don’t value their needs, feelings, and wants, and put others’ needs and feelings first. They feel anxious and guilty asking for what they want or need. They don’t believe that they have rights. They fear someone’s anger or judgment (e.g., being called selfish or self-centered). They’re ashamed of being vulnerable, showing feelings or asking for what they want and need. They fear losing someone’s love, friendship, or approval. They don’t want to be a burden. " -> this is going to require a lot of work -> start with a river or PJ post * up 9:55; S=8:10; & woke C up at noon, through having overslept -- she looks really good : Surety will take care of the hornets' nests today * replace CPAP disposable filter (every 2 weeks) @ Opinion | Don’t Be Fooled by America’s Flattening Curve - The New York Times * creamcheese/butter (pseudo-Boursin) spread: 2 tsp L's mix, .5 tsp garlic, .5tsp pepper benefits from having left the ingredients on the counter since yesterday afternoon * Colleen's fabric stash yielded a big enough piece for a green screen so I can now change my zoom background. Need to find something good now. Also need to remember that video settings are on the little pull-up menu next to the camera icon. * Festival of the Living Rooms. Stayed too long listening to the circle and not singing 0516Sa & awake 4ish; % slight queasiness : Desti snuggled up with her nose tucked into my left armpit makes it hard to type % something is hurting on my left earlobe -> trying to go back to bed ~5:40 * up 7am; % dreams some of which included E joining a cult, and asking directions (in English) from a young Japanese woman, using a map that I (thought I) recognized from Shih-Yokahama, and a page with pictures of various obscure tropical fruits @ 4 phases in Washington coronavirus stay-at-home order re-opening | king5.com -> Phase 2 could start as early as 6/1, so phase 3 maybe as early as 6/21, which would have phase 4 starting in mid-August & a difficult piece of writing. Took most of the day, after which I went and hid in a rabbit hole... N agreed that it was a good day's work @ Travels with John Conway, in 258 Septillion Dimensions - The New York Times (258,823,477,531,055,064,045,234,375 - a representation of the Monster Group) John Horton Conway, a ‘Magical Genius’ in Math, Dies at 82 which of course opens a rabbit hole that I promptly dive into @ AIM math: Representations of E8 via an article @ Mathematician John Horton Conway, a ‘magical genius’ known for inventing the ‘Game of Life,’ dies at age 82 @ Gas stove cooking routinely generates unsafe levels of indoor air pollution - Vox / major++ cleanup % 23:24 heat, meloxicam. I'll stay up for another 15 or so
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