mdlbear | Done Since 2021-08-01 (Reply)

Colleen died four weeks ago tomorrow. Her memorial gathering (I don't think one can accurately call it a "service"; we just called it a "memorial") was Tuesday; our daughter E organized it, and it was a Good Thing. Exactly what Colleen would have wanted -- her friends sitting around telling stories and occasionally singing. I put up the memorial web page on Thursday; if you missed the memorial you can find a link there to the zoom recording of the first, "formal" part, which includes a few songs. I'm going to add to it over the next couple of weeks.

We brought her ashes home Thursday as well. I still need to put a picture of the urn on the memorial page -- it's purple with silver flowers. Of course.

And somehow I have to get back to the the tech-writing project I took on several months ago. My motivation is kind of shot to hell right now, not that there's ever been very much of it. I tell people that I'm doing better than I expected, but given how little insight I have into my emotions, I don't think that's particularly informative. Even to me.

Notes & links:
0801Su
& Up 4:44; S=5:48, W=195.8; shower
% woke up trying to think of various ways to obfuscate a mostly-numeric passphrase,
to let someone to recover the password file if I die.
# when did I change "Fifteen years" to "Half our lives" in "Eyes Like the Morning" ?
git bisect new; git bisect old 8a4a38ebf45ba4d5e84149e9c30515b6abb8208e
git bisect run grep Fifteen eyes.flk
-> 16c21cb362dfceddcc43220659203ee7d6796d49 is the first new commit
git l -n1 16c21cb362dfceddcc43220659203ee7d6796d49
-> 16c21cb (HEAD, refs/bisect/new) assorted corrections and updates [2000-12-24]
* massage chairs
* 15min: rummaging around in garage. Actually more like an hour; -> low blood sugar
* 15min: disassemble 2' wire shelf unit.
* 15min: order kibble -- will be here tomorrow, so no need to go out for it
* 15min: put most of the kept-ouut artwork in a bin
* take down memorabilia boxes in mbr closet; sort or at least look at.
-> scan cheshire cat nametag, turbo-snail snapshot
* load drugs
* laundry
x scan some of our wedding photos. Look for the box(es?) of family photos

0802Mo
* up 6ish; BP=122/72, P=65 (Walgreens 113/80 64), p=3.5; exercises, heat
* singing: Eyes Like the Morning, The River
* bring down some of Colleen's Trazadone for m
* pack "How to Carry what Can't be Fixed"
* leaving ~11am
* set up mics, interface, external monitor. Test rig.
# A second laptop would be really useful right now. One to keep in the studio
% I've had the beginning of tears all evening. No actual tears, just moisture.
* finished (first pass through) "How to Carry..."
% 9:40 -> heat
% out to lair. Spent some time waffling about what to take; finally loaded up the
suitcase. Should have taken the yukata or bathrobe
-> the door was open; that's going to require work if I want to have the cats here
-> and the CPAP mask, which tested fine on Whidbey, is noisy now. WTAF? humidifier?
-> not clear there's room for two catboxes
% ... and didn't write a "state of the bear" post today for 3rd week. Maybe tomorrow.

0803Tu
* up 5:50; S=6:43; exercises
: WiFi is flaky in the lair
% nice long talk with N about our memories of Colleen
* 3pm Colleen's Memorial on Zoom
* Singing: Eyes Like the Morning, The River. Summer sang Bells of Norwich.
Lynn Gold screen-shared Stan Rogers singing "The Mary Ellen Carter"
m provided backing vocals on The River
-> Just the thing Colleen would have wanted -- all her friends sitting around telling
stories and singing.
-> My video was really unstable; looks like I was connected to the wrong access point
-> A little way into it I got the call from a woman at the Neptune Society saying that
her ashes were ready to come home. I mentioned it in the chat. Thursday.
@ Cats Are So Not Appreciated. Think Again. - The New York Times cat genetics
A new domestic cat genome assembly based on long sequence reads empowers feline
genomic medicine and identifies a novel gene for dwarfism
% I should go to bed. Unzipped everything in my download directory instead of
everything in the Colleen subdirectory. Growf.

0804We Ame
* up 5:30ish; S=5.9; exercises, heat
@ She exposed how Facebook enabled global political manipulation. Now she's telling her
story. | MIT Technology Review
@ Release Notes for siduction 2021.2.0 – siduction Linux
* posted mdlbear | Memoir: Fifty years together

0805
* up 5:30ish; S=6:57; exercises
@ The Insecurity Industry - by Edward Snowden - Continuing Ed ([LWN.net])
" Even if we woke up tomorrow and the NSO Group and all of its private-sector ilk had
been wiped out by the eruption of a particularly public-minded volcano, it wouldn't
change the fact that we're in the midst of the greatest crisis of computer security
in computer history. "
Revealed: leak uncovers global abuse of cyber-surveillance weapon | Guardian
@ De-anonymization Story - Schneier on Security ([LWN.net])
" Location data is not anonymous. It cannot be made anonymous. "
* 8ish G leaves for CA
* 9:15ish leave with N (and urn) for...
* 10am Neptune Society 4320 196th Street SW, Suite C, Lynnwood, WA 98036
-> they (Shannon?) transferred the ashes into the urn for us. Probably do it all the
time. Brought back the urn and the death certs in a lovely purple "shopping" bag.
-> she's now residing in the family shrine at RS between two Ganeshas; I'll bring her
up to Whidbey tomorrow. After that she'll probably come back. Or commute.
* clean up after unzipping Downloads/*.zip
unzip -l Art_of_the_Poster_1880-1918.zip | cut -c 31- > foo;
for f in `cat foo`; do if [ -f $f ]; then rm $f; fi done
@ What it means when 75 percent of COVID-19 cases occur in vaccinated people. (minoanmiss)
* put up (somewhat WIP) Rainbow Bridge: Karen Colleen Savitzky 1952-03-16 -- 2021-07-12 memorial page
% spent basically all day writing, which I haven't done in a long time.

0806Fr 1991 WWW 30 years, 1945 Hiroshima 76 years
* up 5:45; S=5:57;
@ August 6 - Wikipedia
" 1991 – Tim Berners-Lee releases files describing his idea for the World Wide
Web. WWW makes its first appearance as a publicly available service on the
Internet. "
@ The World Wide Web project WWW Project History
* bring suitcase, CPAP, etc. in from lair. Suitcase -> Molly after removing CPAP, dop
% 9am having trouble with motivation, now that I've put up the memorial page. Even
though it's not finished -- don't want to tackle that right now.
# discussion with N of how to manage cats in the studio -- litter box in shower stall.
still have to find a good barrier for the door
* 11am Healing Center intake appointment with w/ Sonja Whitaker. j's room for privacy
donate at www.healingcenterseattle.org/give
* Set myself up as Colleen's Inactive Account Manager for her Google Account
~ leave massage chairs in Molly because no callback -> brought in; picked up~6pm
* take urn up
% meloxicam 10ish with pm drugs
: Cards from: Ellen Barr, (Candace Gjertsen, Jhenya Hart, Danielle, and Austin)
package of smoked salmon from (Lynn Gold, Warren, Diana Koivunen, and Grace the Bichon)
(box got recycled before I realized that I should have saved the return address)
last week, cards from: Tom Gryn, Alice Robbins
@ BayCon : BayCon has lost a friend today | Facebook (Michael Silady)

0807Sa
& Awake 4:55; S=6:18; heat
* up 7:45; S=8:03, BP=123/75, P=57, heat, shower
% remarkably little back pain this morning (at least after heating pad)
* put silver-and-opal necklace around neck of urn (unless E particularly wants it)
* sl: diclofenac (Voltaren) topical gel
* 6 bagels. Get another dozen on the way south.
@ Two Million Dehumidifiers With Well-Known Brand Names Recalled Due to Fire and Burn
Hazards; Manufactured by New Widetech | CPSC.gov
Dehumidifier Recall Summary_News | New Widetech Industries mine is by
hOmeLabs and not subject to the recall.
@ Alt-Right Coloradans Went to War with an Alpaca Farm — And the Farm Won
" For nearly nine months, Tenacious Unicorn Ranch, a safe haven for trans and queer
Coloradans, faced violent threats from right-wing extremists. Until, that is, they
turned to their local anarchists for help. "
/ $140 for Colleen's ambulence ride from UW Hospital to Prestige Edmonds.
/ disassemble Colleen's transfer pole and trapeze.
/ Remove cord and controls for electric blanket
% meloxicam 9:40 with pm drugs
: Mystery solved: the noisy CPAP mask is caused by not having the humidifdier! Weird.
-> see whether it's quieter with a larger-diameter hose