Done Since 2021-08-15

[mdlbear]

It's just barely possible that I'm getting a little productivity back, after several years of drifting. Maybe. I did more work Thursday and Friday on $writing-gig-2 than I have in months. Maybe? And I've actually played my guitar(s) and/or sang three times this week. Which I think beats the previous two or three.

The previous occupant, c, has officially moved out of the studio ADU behind Rest Stop (AKA the Lair), so I have started moving in. Sort of. I wonder whether it will ever start feeling like home. I wonder whether it will ever be safe for the cats -- there's no entryway of any sort.

I realized yesterday (waking up from a bad dream that involved moving) that I'm grieving for some of the places I've left, as well as for the people I've lost. Also that I'm still not okay. I don't know how far from okay. I also know perfectly well that it's "normal" not to be okay after a major loss. And that between anxiety and dysthymia, I have no idea what "okay" would be like anyway.

It looks as though Monday is officially Bagel Day -- stopping at the Whidbey Bagel Factory on the way down to Rest Stop.

Notes & links:
0815Su
  * up 8:15; S=7:46, BP=116/72, P=61, W=199.0;
  @ The 1Password Disaster (And Two Brilliant 1Password Alternatives) | by Mark Ellis
    " The issues are twofold:  1) 1Password 8 will become subscription-only, thus removing
      the option to buy it outright; and 2) they’ve moved the app over to something called
      Electron. "  Ugh!  (The alternatives were MacOS Keychain and NordPass)
  @ MYKI: Offline Password Manager and 2FA Authenticator
    Myki Password Manager & Authenticator Review | PCMag stored on phone, not cloud
  @ Bitwarden Open Source Password Manager
    Bitwarden Review | PCMag
  * */15   CPAP:  change paper filter, ~ wash tub
  ~ looked for a larger version of Colleen's HS picture; didn't find one
  * 15min: symlinks and checkins for $writing-gig-2 and $writing-gig-3
    # not very much, but the first I've done since Colleen died.  I'll take it.
  x Coupeville Arts & Crafts Festival
  * grab a few more alcohol preps for toiletries kit.
  * bring down the box of swiffer wet mopping pads
  * load drugs, acohol preps, $l, $o
  * start laundry

0816Mo
  * up 6:15; S=6:11, BP=123/74, P=65; exercises, heat
  * pack.   Including a couple of hand towels and washcloths
  * Bagels, 2 tubs cream cheese -- EVERY Monday - G will get lox.  G likes everythings
  * c will be at M's, so lair more-or-less ready for move-in
    -> here for the day; some things still being packed.
  * check in on eCare for tomorrow's appt.
  @ "Tow Rope Girls" from _Fish Out of Water_ by Bounding Main
    (Words ©1920 C. Fox Smith; Set to "Queer Bungle Rye" by William Pint)
    (not clear how to parse that last.  Did Pint (contemporary) write the tune, or set the
    poem to the (maybe traditional) tune.  I suspect the latter.)
    The Tow-Rope Girls by Cicely Fox Smith - All Poetry
    mudcat.org: Lyr/Chords: Tow Rope Girls (C Fox Smith)
  * set alarms for tomorrow
  & retrieve Neptune Society mailings from spam folder.
    @ 12 Weeks of Peace:  Week 1: Dealing with Grief
    @ Thinking Ahead:  Week 1: Taking Inventory - Neptune Society
  : the little purple dragon has been named Lilac (according to m) -> Violet (m on We)

0817Tu
  * up 7ish; S=7:37; exercises
  * leave 9:15 for Dr. Downey -- $G says 8 min.
  * 9:45 checkin for 10am appointment Dr. Downey NW hospital McMurry building Suite 300
    https://www.uwmedicine.org/sites/stevie/files/2019-12/A4289.UWMC-NW_VisitorMaps.pdf
  * 15min:  make link files for the Neptune Society series.
    @ Twelve Weeks of Peace:  Week 1: Dealing With Grief
      Thinking Ahead:  Week 1: Taking Inventory
      (will take a great deal longer than 6 weeks - requires talking to strangers)
    & read through both series (because I do that).  Will now go back to 1 day at a time
  @ The T-Mobile Data Breach Is One You Can’t Ignore | WIRED 
  * measure space above water heater for shelf (will one of the slide-on baskets fit?)
    -> 14" wide, 16" deep.  purple ped is 24" high, so it _will_ fit under the desk
  @ Interoception: the hidden sense that shapes wellbeing | Science | The Guardian
    " it is only when the brain detects the alteration to the body’s internal state,
      through interoception, that we actually experience the feeling and allow it to
      shape our behaviour. "
  * */15   Molly 

0818We
  & awake 3ish;  % some acid reflux -> tums
  * up 7:15ish; S=5:48 (plus some dozing);
  * dishes
  * check BECU statement to get current income (Colleen's share should be gone -> it is)
  @ Joint Statement from HHS Public Health and Medical Experts on COVID-19 Booster Shots
    | HHS.gov -> : My second dose was 2/17, so been fully-vaccinated on 3/3.  8 months
    after that would be early November.
  @ Overview—Eleventy, a simpler static site generator.
  @ Israeli data: How can efficacy vs. severe disease be strong when 60% of hospitalized
    are vaccinated? -> Simpson's paradox - Wikipedia
    " the fact that older people have an inherently higher risk of hospitalization when
      infected with a respiratory virus means that it is always important to stratify
      results by age "
  * AC arriving today ->  ~ hand truck Home Despot Aisle 58 Bay 002 -> from home
  ~ one of the old multi-outlet extenders -- with screw, for lair -> ordered, arr. Fr
  * 15min: remove Colleen's meds from medications file
  @ T‑Mobile Shares Additional Information Regarding Ongoing Cyberattack Investigation |
    T‑Mobile Newsroom -> Our Response to the Data Breach (Aug 2021) | T-Mobile
  * 15min: bring in purple 3-drawer ped and put under desk.  Would fit under the return if
    the wheels were taken off.  However, it rolls back far enough to be out of the way.
  : response on uploading chart from UW:  " under the 3-line "Menu" button, you will find
      "Ask a Question" under Communication.  From there, you may "Ask Your Clinic A
      Question," and "Attach an Image or Video." "

0819Th
  & Awake 3:45ish; S=5:07;
  * up 7ish; S=6:39, BP= 102/68, P=67;
  # get external ip address -- one would like to use this to set Location: in posts
    curl icanhazip.com       # if that's unreachable, the following will also work:
    host myip.opendns.com resolver1.opendns.com | grep 'has address' | cut -d' ' -f4
  * hard-boil some eggs for m
  * make example repo, files for $writing-gig-2.
    % pleased with myself?  It's the most I've done on it recently;  maybe ever.
  * yak-shaving.:  empty, load, run dishwasher.  Need the wok for making stir-fry tonight;
    since it was in the sink with dishes in/on it, ...
  % 5pm sleepy, or something like it.  Drifty.
  * 15min: move mic stand with guitar hook to behind me in desk area.
  * dinner: chicken stir-fry.  Should have made more rice.
  * guitar - a verse or so of Lily et. al., Eyes Like the Morning, and Wheelin'

0820Fr
  & awake 3ish; S=5.1; back to bed 4am
  * up 8ish; S=8:50;
  @ There’s Only One Right Way to Cook Scrambled Eggs scrambled in the pan.  Which is
    the way I've been doing it all along.  (low heat, which I _haven't_ been doing much)
  * found command line for getting SSID:    iwgetid --raw
  @ OnlyFans’ porn ban is indefensibly cruel.
    OnlyFans Says It Is Banning Sexually Explicit Content - The New York Times
    OnlyFans’ inexplicable ban on porn might be explained by this BBC investigation
    OnlyFans’ porn ban is crypto’s opportunity of a lifetime | TechCrunch
    " crypto industry which could capitalize on the shutdown and a recent wave of
      increasingly consumer-friendly crypto payments infrastructure products to create a
      platform that won’t crumble under the influence of payment providers. "
    OnlyFans’ Explicit Content Ban Betrays Its Creators | WIRED
    Why OnlyFans ditched sexually explicit content: credit card companies - CNN 
  @ 18 Best Cloth Face Masks: Ones We Actually Like to Wear (Updated 2021) | WIRED
  % some pain in my right ear.  Does not appear to be a pressure-equalization problem
  * quite a lot of progress (finally!) on $writing-gig-2, spurred on by email from $editor
  x 15min: singing - setlist?
  * tried to install one of the multi-taps (the one on the front wall) -- failed.  Turned
    my legs into rubber in the process.  The night lights aren't quite bright enough;
    might work if there were more places to put them.  Or find a brighter one for bathroom

0821Sa
  & awake 2am; S=3:25; -> gave up 4:20
  % woke, whimpering, from a dream about moving -- we'd been sleeping in a van or other
    vehicle outside a house that was something like 188 Perry Ave.; movers had just
    arrived and I stumbled into clothes to show them where things went.
    -> Some of the places we've lived -- Perry Ave., the Starport, and Rainbow's End in
       particular were, if not exactly _people_, were at any rate _characters_; I'm
       mourning the places I've left nearly as much as the people I've lost.  No need to
       tell me that it's okay; I know.
    -> whimpering / dry sobbing
  # 2:20 no WiFi connection... -> 4:25 connected to RS2
  & Awake 4:20; some reading; back down 5:20
  * up 7:15ish; S=7:12;
  * guitar: bad guys (on Plink)
  * 9am drive up; arrived ~11:15ish.  Lobster roll on the way up - hours 11-3 Fr-Sa
  @ California judge overturns Prop 22 ballot measure that classified Uber and Lyft
    drivers as contractors, finding it unconstitutional - The Washington Post 
  & run self-test on raven.  Complains of status change but there have been no recent
    errors.  -> Reinstall the suite -> run basic (5m) PASS, extended (64m) PASS self-tests
  * 15min: locate items to go down to RS (see combined list in 0822Su)
  : A number of things from Mom's -- including her cable box and R's Bose radio -- appear
    to have gone missing.  E?  Or am I overlooking something incredibly stupid?
    -> R's Bose is in his box where it ought to be (on the bottom where it was easy to
       miss); the box I thought I remembered as containint the cable box is in fact a box
       from a phone re-purposed to hold a glass bowl.
  & shut down Mom's iMac - no good reason for it to be on.
  @ Monoclonal antibodies are free and effective against covid-19, but few people are
    getting them - The Washington Post
    " The Regeneron product is authorized for people 12 and over with mild to moderate
      covid-19 who are not hospitalized and don’t need supplemental oxygen.
      The treatment is effective within 10 days after symptoms appear "
  % 1. it may not exactly be grieving.  Grief+anxiety+depression?  2. I am NOT all right.
  * 15min: singing - in car? no.  Latrt... target: 9pm
    Bells of Norwich, Ship of Stone, The River
  * 15min: declutter desk more like 10, but still... reduced mail pile
  % 9:45ish - can't get started.  Should go to bed
  * 12:34 heading for bed