Done Since 2021-08-15

[mdlbear]

It's just barely possible that I'm getting a little productivity back, after several years of drifting. Maybe. I did more work Thursday and Friday on $writing-gig-2 than I have in months. Maybe? And I've actually played my guitar(s) and/or sang three times this week. Which I think beats the previous two or three.

The previous occupant, c, has officially moved out of the studio ADU behind Rest Stop (AKA the Lair), so I have started moving in. Sort of. I wonder whether it will ever start feeling like home. I wonder whether it will ever be safe for the cats -- there's no entryway of any sort.

I realized yesterday (waking up from a bad dream that involved moving) that I'm grieving for some of the places I've left, as well as for the people I've lost. Also that I'm still not okay. I don't know how far from okay. I also know perfectly well that it's "normal" not to be okay after a major loss. And that between anxiety and dysthymia, I have no idea what "okay" would be like anyway.

It looks as though Monday is officially Bagel Day -- stopping at the Whidbey Bagel Factory on the way down to Rest Stop.

Notes & links:
0815Su
  * up 8:15; S=7:46, BP=116/72, P=61, W=199.0;
  @ The 1Password Disaster (And Two Brilliant 1Password Alternatives) | by Mark Ellis
    " The issues are twofold:  1) 1Password 8 will become subscription-only, thus removing
      the option to buy it outright; and 2) they’ve moved the app over to something called
      Electron. "  Ugh!  (The alternatives were MacOS Keychain and NordPass)
  @ MYKI: Offline Password Manager and 2FA Authenticator
    Myki Password Manager & Authenticator Review | PCMag stored on phone, not cloud
  @ Bitwarden Open Source Password Manager
    Bitwarden Review | PCMag
  * */15   CPAP:  change paper filter, ~ wash tub
  ~ looked for a larger version of Colleen's HS picture; didn't find one
  * 15min: symlinks and checkins for $writing-gig-2 and $writing-gig-3
    # not very much, but the first I've done since Colleen died.  I'll take it.
  x Coupeville Arts & Crafts Festival
  * grab a few more alcohol preps for toiletries kit.
  * bring down the box of swiffer wet mopping pads
  * load drugs, acohol preps, $l, $o
  * start laundry

0816Mo
  * up 6:15; S=6:11, BP=123/74, P=65; exercises, heat
  * pack.   Including a couple of hand towels and washcloths
  * Bagels, 2 tubs cream cheese -- EVERY Monday - G will get lox.  G likes everythings
  * c will be at M's, so lair more-or-less ready for move-in
    -> here for the day; some things still being packed.
  * check in on eCare for tomorrow's appt.
  @ "Tow Rope Girls" from _Fish Out of Water_ by Bounding Main
    (Words ©1920 C. Fox Smith; Set to "Queer Bungle Rye" by William Pint)
    (not clear how to parse that last.  Did Pint (contemporary) write the tune, or set the
    poem to the (maybe traditional) tune.  I suspect the latter.)
    The Tow-Rope Girls by Cicely Fox Smith - All Poetry
    mudcat.org: Lyr/Chords: Tow Rope Girls (C Fox Smith)
  * set alarms for tomorrow
  & retrieve Neptune Society mailings from spam folder.
    @ 12 Weeks of Peace:  Week 1: Dealing with Grief
    @ Thinking Ahead:  Week 1: Taking Inventory - Neptune Society
  : the little purple dragon has been named Lilac (according to m) -> Violet (m on We)

0817Tu
  * up 7ish; S=7:37; exercises
  * leave 9:15 for Dr. Downey -- $G says 8 min.
  * 9:45 checkin for 10am appointment Dr. Downey NW hospital McMurry building Suite 300
    https://www.uwmedicine.org/sites/stevie/files/2019-12/A4289.UWMC-NW_VisitorMaps.pdf
  * 15min:  make link files for the Neptune Society series.
    @ Twelve Weeks of Peace:  Week 1: Dealing With Grief
      Thinking Ahead:  Week 1: Taking Inventory
      (will take a great deal longer than 6 weeks - requires talking to strangers)
    & read through both series (because I do that).  Will now go back to 1 day at a time
  @ The T-Mobile Data Breach Is One You Can’t Ignore | WIRED 
  * measure space above water heater for shelf (will one of the slide-on baskets fit?)
    -> 14" wide, 16" deep.  purple ped is 24" high, so it _will_ fit under the desk
  @ Interoception: the hidden sense that shapes wellbeing | Science | The Guardian
    " it is only when the brain detects the alteration to the body’s internal state,
      through interoception, that we actually experience the feeling and allow it to
      shape our behaviour. "
  * */15   Molly 

0818We
  & awake 3ish;  % some acid reflux -> tums
  * up 7:15ish; S=5:48 (plus some dozing);
  * dishes
  * check BECU statement to get current income (Colleen's share should be gone -> it is)
  @ Joint Statement from HHS Public Health and Medical Experts on COVID-19 Booster Shots
    | HHS.gov -> : My second dose was 2/17, so been fully-vaccinated on 3/3.  8 months
    after that would be early November.
  @ Overview—Eleventy, a simpler static site generator.
  @ Israeli data: How can efficacy vs. severe disease be strong when 60% of hospitalized
    are vaccinated? -> Simpson's paradox - Wikipedia
    " the fact that older people have an inherently higher risk of hospitalization when
      infected with a respiratory virus means that it is always important to stratify
      results by age "
  * AC arriving today ->  ~ hand truck Home Despot Aisle 58 Bay 002 -> from home
  ~ one of the old multi-outlet extenders -- with screw, for lair -> ordered, arr. Fr
  * 15min: remove Colleen's meds from medications file
  @ T‑Mobile Shares Additional Information Regarding Ongoing Cyberattack Investigation |
    T‑Mobile Newsroom -> Our Response to the Data Breach (Aug 2021) | T-Mobile
  * 15min: bring in purple 3-drawer ped and put under desk.  Would fit under the return if
    the wheels were taken off.  However, it rolls back far enough to be out of the way.
  : response on uploading chart from UW:  " under the 3-line "Menu" button, you will find
      "Ask a Question" under Communication.  From there, you may "Ask Your Clinic A
      Question," and "Attach an Image or Video." "

0819Th
  & Awake 3:45ish; S=5:07;
  * up 7ish; S=6:39, BP= 102/68, P=67;
  # get external ip address -- one would like to use this to set Location: in posts
    curl icanhazip.com       # if that's unreachable, the following will also work:
    host myip.opendns.com resolver1.opendns.com | grep 'has address' | cut -d' ' -f4
  * hard-boil some eggs for m
  * make example repo, files for $writing-gig-2.
    % pleased with myself?  It's the most I've done on it recently;  maybe ever.
  * yak-shaving.:  empty, load, run dishwasher.  Need the wok for making stir-fry tonight;
    since it was in the sink with dishes in/on it, ...
  % 5pm sleepy, or something like it.  Drifty.
  * 15min: move mic stand with guitar hook to behind me in desk area.
  * dinner: chicken stir-fry.  Should have made more rice.
  * guitar - a verse or so of Lily et. al., Eyes Like the Morning, and Wheelin'

0820Fr
  & awake 3ish; S=5.1; back to bed 4am
  * up 8ish; S=8:50;
  @ There’s Only One Right Way to Cook Scrambled Eggs scrambled in the pan.  Which is
    the way I've been doing it all along.  (low heat, which I _haven't_ been doing much)
  * found command line for getting SSID:    iwgetid --raw
  @ OnlyFans’ porn ban is indefensibly cruel.
    OnlyFans Says It Is Banning Sexually Explicit Content - The New York Times
    OnlyFans’ inexplicable ban on porn might be explained by this BBC investigation
    OnlyFans’ porn ban is crypto’s opportunity of a lifetime | TechCrunch
    " crypto industry which could capitalize on the shutdown and a recent wave of
      increasingly consumer-friendly crypto payments infrastructure products to create a
      platform that won’t crumble under the influence of payment providers. "
    OnlyFans’ Explicit Content Ban Betrays Its Creators | WIRED
    Why OnlyFans ditched sexually explicit content: credit card companies - CNN 
  @ 18 Best Cloth Face Masks: Ones We Actually Like to Wear (Updated 2021) | WIRED
  % some pain in my right ear.  Does not appear to be a pressure-equalization problem
  * quite a lot of progress (finally!) on $writing-gig-2, spurred on by email from $editor
  x 15min: singing - setlist?
  * tried to install one of the multi-taps (the one on the front wall) -- failed.  Turned
    my legs into rubber in the process.  The night lights aren't quite bright enough;
    might work if there were more places to put them.  Or find a brighter one for bathroom

0821Sa
  & awake 2am; S=3:25; -> gave up 4:20
  % woke, whimpering, from a dream about moving -- we'd been sleeping in a van or other
    vehicle outside a house that was something like 188 Perry Ave.; movers had just
    arrived and I stumbled into clothes to show them where things went.
    -> Some of the places we've lived -- Perry Ave., the Starport, and Rainbow's End in
       particular were, if not exactly _people_, were at any rate _characters_; I'm
       mourning the places I've left nearly as much as the people I've lost.  No need to
       tell me that it's okay; I know.
    -> whimpering / dry sobbing
  # 2:20 no WiFi connection... -> 4:25 connected to RS2
  & Awake 4:20; some reading; back down 5:20
  * up 7:15ish; S=7:12;
  * guitar: bad guys (on Plink)
  * 9am drive up; arrived ~11:15ish.  Lobster roll on the way up - hours 11-3 Fr-Sa
  @ California judge overturns Prop 22 ballot measure that classified Uber and Lyft
    drivers as contractors, finding it unconstitutional - The Washington Post 
  & run self-test on raven.  Complains of status change but there have been no recent
    errors.  -> Reinstall the suite -> run basic (5m) PASS, extended (64m) PASS self-tests
  * 15min: locate items to go down to RS (see combined list in 0822Su)
  : A number of things from Mom's -- including her cable box and R's Bose radio -- appear
    to have gone missing.  E?  Or am I overlooking something incredibly stupid?
    -> R's Bose is in his box where it ought to be (on the bottom where it was easy to
       miss); the box I thought I remembered as containint the cable box is in fact a box
       from a phone re-purposed to hold a glass bowl.
  & shut down Mom's iMac - no good reason for it to be on.
  @ Monoclonal antibodies are free and effective against covid-19, but few people are
    getting them - The Washington Post
    " The Regeneron product is authorized for people 12 and over with mild to moderate
      covid-19 who are not hospitalized and don’t need supplemental oxygen.
      The treatment is effective within 10 days after symptoms appear "
  % 1. it may not exactly be grieving.  Grief+anxiety+depression?  2. I am NOT all right.
  * 15min: singing - in car? no.  Latrt... target: 9pm
    Bells of Norwich, Ship of Stone, The River
  * 15min: declutter desk more like 10, but still... reduced mail pile
  % 9:45ish - can't get started.  Should go to bed
  * 12:34 heading for bed

Comments

[spiffyvoxel]

Irony, I moved (back) to 1Password last year. I've tried Bitwarden in the past and it's good except for the iPad app which had a weird glitch that made it freeze whenever I tried to select a username / password from Safari. I guess a quick tyre-kick won't hurt, maybe they've fixed that issue now.

Electron is both a blessing and a curse, great for developers but not so great for users who find memory gets used up over time. Dropbox was the worst offender in my experience, although Discord has tried to top that in the past.

Glad to hear you're getting some writing done.

[mdlbear]

I've been thinking mainly of keepass2, but to be honest I'm getting by with firefox's password manager plus a text file.

[spiffyvoxel]

Yes, Firefox is pretty good as a password manager, and has added advantage that it's accessible elsewhere through Firefox Lockwise, at least on mobile devices. I keep my two-factor authentication separately, using Authy.

[lilysea]

~ Reading and thinking of you ~

[mdlbear]

Thanks!