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mdlbearAnxiety, grief, procrastination, pessimism, depression, and despair. It hasn't been a totally bad week, but between the above and the ongoing Nazi assault on trans people, it's been heading in that direction. It's worth noting that my son R is trans.
I am still not making enough progress on cleaning up the house for sale. Grieving probably has a lot to do with that -- at least it's the excuse I'm using to keep myself from... I don't know what. Thinking about it. If I'd gotten off my arse a year ago, my current pace would probably have been good enough. It says something about the problem, though, that I found spending an hour pruning blackberry vines preferable to making a couple of phone calls. Asking for help has always been a problem for me.
The high point of the week was Tuesday, which started with a support group meeting via zoom, and ended with the first meeting of my audio recording class at Earwig Studio via North Seattle College.
Notes & links: 0212Su * up 6:15ish; S=6:18; exercises * 6:30 tobramycin eyedrops @ Ancient Pompeii site installs 'invisible' solar panels that look like Roman terracotta tiles @ Of Course Mastodon Lost Users. Scalloped growth is not evidence of a platform in decline | by Cory Doctorow | Feb, 2023 | Medium @ About Mastodon-Flock " Mastodon Flock is a web application that looks for Twitter users on ActivityPub-enabled platforms (the “Fediverse”), such as Mastodon. [...] This is a personal project from Wes Souza, and an ode to the Windows 95 era. " ->Looks exactly like a Win95 program @ Hide it, hack it, or hawk it – ZIG/ZAG @rowanf neurodiversity " all the advice, support, information, therapy, coaching, workshops, and interventions you find inevitably point you to one of three approaches to neurodivergence: Hide it, hack it, or hawk it. " @ The stadium scam - Robert Reich " How billionaires siphon off tax money for their stadiums " @ Nine of the Most Beautiful and Affordable Train Journeys Around the World @ The Fleishman Moms Know Exactly Why They're In Trouble " Because that’s the awful thing about making a lot of money when your life doesn’t rest on an existing foundation of existing money — if you choose to build your life at a price point that’s aligned with how much you make, you will always have to make more or else risk backsliding. " Shades of me, $A, and Rainbow's End. @ Scientists discover receptor that blocks COVID-19 infection - Univ. of Sydney @ GitHub Deletes Private Forks Leaving People Shocked | by Tom Smykowski | Medium Not exactly, but when a private repo is deleted, all its forks get deleted as well. If you fork a private repo and lose access to it, your fork gets deleted. @ ~100 Bash Aliases for supersonic Productivity | by aruva | Medium * 10:27 tobramycin eyedrops * 3:09 tobramycin eyedrops * 7:20 tobramycin eyedrops 0213Mo * litter boxen & awake 12:30ish; * up 7am; S=6:19; exercises -> cat cuddle for half an hour or so -> have to re-pair the (CPAP)DS2. Again. Piece of crap. -> coffee in the Lair in parallel w\ litter and exercises. Probably lost count ? 9ish tobramycin eyedrops. Probably -- forgot to log, but I remember finding the box on my desk when I came in. @ Data brokers are now selling your mental health status - The Washington Post @ Teen girls ‘engulfed’ in violence and trauma, CDC finds - The Washington Post @ Modern Health, frameworks, performance, and harm – Eric Bailey " I would like to thank Modern Health. It was not their intent, but using their service broke me out of a deep depression by launching me into an incandescent rage. " " A person seeking help in a time of crisis does not care about TypeScript, tree shaking, hot module replacement, A/B tests, burndown charts, NPS, OKRs, KPIs, or other startup jargon. Developer experience does not count for shit if the person using the thing they built can’t actually get what they need. " @ The Ethics of Web Performance - Web Performance Consulting | TimKadlec.com The Megawatts behind Your Megabytes: Going from Data-Center to Desktop @ Paint the Picture, Not the Frame: How Browsers Provide Everything Users Need " The clipboard is sacred space. Don’t prevent people from copying things to it, and don’t append extra content to what they copy. The same goes for browser history and back and forward buttons. " * call North Seattle College to get info about class tomorrow. (look for email) * email sent 12:06 o call 206-934-3705 if nothing by 3pm -> email arrived * 12:33 tobramycin eyedrops. pretty sure I did them this morning too, but didn't log it * 4:30 tobramycin eyedrops * 5pm Webinar Navigating Grief 101 : The second batch of Desti's pills, from Petco, arrived. Verified that it had the same tracking number as on Petco's site, but which is still showing it as awaiting pickup * 8:30 tobramycin eyedrops * home server passive status hack: cron job on nova to fetch a non-existent web page from, e.g., savitzky.net; make the uri something like /nova/yyyy/mm/dd/uptime. ssh to the host and grep the log, script called directly or from .profile-prince-william -> starport/Admin/bin/{log,get}-status-hack 0214Tu Valentine's Day & awake 3:30ish; never did get back to sleep; gave up 4:30ish, 5:30ish @ Take it back. Copyright reversion, bargaining power… | by Cory Doctorow | Medium @ She Thought Her 2.8 Million Followers Would Make Her Rich Until She Couldn’t Sell 36 T-Shirts | by Desiree Peralta | The Startup | Jan, 2023 | Medium @ Influencers Are Dead: Why This Is Your Chance To Build A Millionaire Career From It | by Desiree Peralta | Better Marketing * 7:35 tobramycin eyedrops * 10am memory keepers * 12:35 tobramycin eyedrops -- which part of "every four hours" am I having trouble with? * guitar: Bad Guys; bits of Millennium's Dawn and Lily et.al. * 15min: dishes * 4:38 tobramycin eyedrops * 5:25 leave for class at Earwig Studio. Misread _something_ -- starts at 6:30 * 6:30pm - 8pm Audio Engineering: Introduction to Recording at Earwig Studio in Seattle. -> Google Maps has a habit of sending me down very narrow (typical Seattle) streets. -> Acoustic guitar recorded with a pair of SM57s; either spaced or XY mics -> patch bay -> preamps -> compressors -> mixing board -> computer -> mixing board -> (stereo mix) -> computer. She tries to get as close to the final sound as possible going in. 24bits*48Khz samples * 9:10 tobramycin eyedrops 0215We * litter boxen & awake 3:30ish; no mask; gave up trying to sleep 4:39; maybe S=4h at most; cats -> cats left the bed ~5:20, so nearly an hour of kitty time % left shoulder hurts -> basically okay by afternoon, though. * 7:40 tobramycin eyedrops * pay AX * fix Chewy order - re-order -12# boxes- -> all the ococat paper litter is out of stock -> 2 x Fresh News Unscented Non-Clumping Paper Cat Litter, 25-lb bag @ Times Contributors Pen Open Letter Condemning NYT Bias on Trans Youth — Assigned @
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<p> Anxiety, grief, procrastination, pessimism, depression, and despair. It
hasn't been a <em>totally</em> bad week, but between the above and the
ongoing Nazi assault on trans people, it's been heading in that direction.
It's worth noting that my son R is trans.
<p> I am still not making enough progress on cleaning up the house for sale.
Grieving probably has a lot to do with that -- at least it's the excuse
I'm using to keep myself from... I don't know what. Thinking about it.
If I'd gotten off my arse a year ago, my current pace would probably have
been good enough. It says something about the problem, though, that I
found spending an hour pruning blackberry vines preferable to making a
couple of phone calls. Asking for help has always been a problem for me.
<p> The high point of the week was Tuesday, which started with a support group
meeting via zoom, and ended with the first meeting of my audio recording
class at Earwig Studio via North Seattle College.
<p><cut text="Notes & links, as usual"><pre style="white-space: pre-wrap;"
><b>Notes & links:</b>
0212Su
* up 6:15ish; S=6:18; exercises
* 6:30 tobramycin eyedrops
@ <a href="https://www.theartnewspaper.com/2023/02/06/ancient-pompeii-site-installs-invisible-solar-panels-that-look-like-roman-terracotta-tiles"
>Ancient Pompeii site installs 'invisible' solar panels that look like Roman
terracotta tiles</a>
@ <a href="https://doctorow.medium.com/of-course-mastodon-lost-users-c48ef8102891"
>Of Course Mastodon Lost Users. Scalloped growth is not evidence of a platform in
decline | by Cory Doctorow | Feb, 2023 | Medium</a>
@ <a href="https://mastodon-flock.vercel.app/about" >About Mastodon-Flock</a>
" Mastodon Flock is a web application that looks for Twitter users on
ActivityPub-enabled platforms (the “Fediverse”), such as Mastodon. [...]
This is a personal project from Wes Souza, and an ode to the Windows 95 era. "
->Looks <em>exactly</em> like a Win95 program
@ <a href="https://zigzagproject.uk/2023/02/05/hide-it-hack-it-or-hawk-it/"
>Hide it, hack it, or hawk it – ZIG/ZAG</a> @rowanf neurodiversity
" all the advice, support, information, therapy, coaching, workshops, and
interventions you find inevitably point you to one of three approaches to
neurodivergence: <em>Hide it, hack it, or hawk it.</em> "
@ <a href="https://robertreich.substack.com/p/the-stadium-sham"
>The stadium scam - Robert Reich</a>
" How billionaires siphon off tax money for their stadiums "
@ <a href="https://suitcasemag.com/articles/nine-beautiful-affordable-train-journeys"
>Nine of the Most Beautiful and Affordable Train Journeys Around the World</a>
@ <a href="https://ranthrough.substack.com/p/the-fleishman-moms-know-exactly-why"
>The Fleishman Moms Know Exactly Why They're In Trouble</a>
" Because that’s the awful thing about making a lot of money when your life doesn’t
rest on an existing foundation of existing money — if you choose to build your life
at a price point that’s aligned with how much you make, you will always have to make
more or else risk backsliding. " Shades of me, $A, and Rainbow's End.
@ <a href="https://www.sydney.edu.au/news-opinion/news/2023/02/10/scientists-discover-receptor-that-blocks-covid-19-infection.html"
>Scientists discover receptor that blocks COVID-19 infection - Univ. of Sydney</a>
@ <a href="https://tomaszs2.medium.com/github-deletes-private-forks-leaving-people-shocked-56653b0b668d"
>GitHub Deletes Private Forks Leaving People Shocked | by Tom Smykowski | Medium</a>
Not exactly, but when a private repo is deleted, all its forks get deleted as well.
If you fork a private repo and lose access to it, your fork gets deleted.
@ <a href=
"https://aruva.medium.com/100-bash-aliases-for-supersonic-productivity-d54a796422d9"
>~100 Bash Aliases for supersonic Productivity | by aruva | Medium</a>
* 10:27 tobramycin eyedrops
* 3:09 tobramycin eyedrops
* 7:20 tobramycin eyedrops
0213Mo * litter boxen
& awake 12:30ish;
* up 7am; S=6:19; exercises
-> cat cuddle for half an hour or so
-> have to re-pair the (CPAP)DS2. Again. Piece of crap.
-> coffee in the Lair in parallel w\ litter and exercises. Probably lost count
? 9ish tobramycin eyedrops. Probably -- forgot to log, but I remember finding the box
on my desk when I came in.
@ <a href=
"https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2023/02/13/mental-health-data-brokers/"
>Data brokers are now selling your mental health status - The Washington Post</a>
@ <a href="https://www.washingtonpost.com/education/2023/02/13/teen-girls-violence-trauma-pandemic-cdc/"
>Teen girls ‘engulfed’ in violence and trauma, CDC finds - The Washington Post</a>
@ <a href=
"https://ericwbailey.website/published/modern-health-frameworks-performance-and-harm/"
>Modern Health, frameworks, performance, and harm – Eric Bailey</a>
" I would like to thank Modern Health. It was not their intent, but using their
service broke me out of a deep depression by launching me into an incandescent
rage. "
" A person seeking help in a time of crisis does not care about TypeScript, tree
shaking, hot module replacement, A/B tests, burndown charts, NPS, OKRs, KPIs, or
other startup jargon. Developer experience does not count for shit if the person
using the thing they built can’t actually get what they need. "
@ <a href="https://timkadlec.com/remembers/2019-01-09-the-ethics-of-performance/"
>The Ethics of Web Performance - Web Performance Consulting | TimKadlec.com</a>
<a href="https://www.aceee.org/files/proceedings/2012/data/papers/0193-000409.pdf"
>The Megawatts behind Your Megabytes: Going from Data-Center to Desktop</a>
@ <a href="https://alistapart.com/article/paint-the-picture-not-the-frame/"
>Paint the Picture, Not the Frame: How Browsers Provide Everything Users Need</a>
" The clipboard is sacred space. Don’t prevent people from copying things to it, and
don’t append extra content to what they copy. The same goes for browser history and
back and forward buttons. "
* call North Seattle College to get info about class tomorrow. (look for email)
* email sent 12:06 o call 206-934-3705 if nothing by 3pm -> email arrived
* 12:33 tobramycin eyedrops. pretty sure I did them this morning too, but didn't log it
* 4:30 tobramycin eyedrops
* 5pm Webinar Navigating Grief 101
: The second batch of Desti's pills, from Petco, arrived. Verified that it had the same
tracking number as on Petco's site, but which is still showing it as awaiting pickup
* 8:30 tobramycin eyedrops
* home server passive status hack: cron job on nova to fetch a non-existent web page
from, e.g., savitzky.net; make the uri something like /nova/yyyy/mm/dd/uptime. ssh to
the host and grep the log, script called directly or from .profile-prince-william
-> starport/Admin/bin/{log,get}-status-hack
0214Tu Valentine's Day
& awake 3:30ish; never did get back to sleep; gave up 4:30ish, 5:30ish
@ <a href="https://doctorow.medium.com/take-it-back-e3689628f4f0"
>Take it back. Copyright reversion, bargaining power… | by Cory Doctorow | Medium</a>
@ <a href="https://medium.com/swlh/she-thought-her-2-8-million-followers-would-make-her-rich-until-she-couldnt-sell-36-t-shirts-e01ebae17e8c"
>She Thought Her 2.8 Million Followers Would Make Her Rich Until She Couldn’t Sell 36
T-Shirts | by Desiree Peralta | The Startup | Jan, 2023 | Medium</a>
@ <a href="https://medium.com/p/bed20600d9aa"
>Influencers Are Dead: Why This Is Your Chance To Build A Millionaire Career From It |
by Desiree Peralta | Better Marketing</a>
* 7:35 tobramycin eyedrops
* 10am memory keepers
* 12:35 tobramycin eyedrops -- which part of "every four hours" am I having trouble with?
* guitar: Bad Guys; bits of Millennium's Dawn and Lily et.al.
* 15min: dishes
* 4:38 tobramycin eyedrops
* 5:25 leave for class at Earwig Studio. Misread _something_ -- starts at 6:30
* 6:30pm - 8pm Audio Engineering: Introduction to Recording at Earwig Studio in Seattle.
-> Google Maps has a habit of sending me down very narrow (typical Seattle) streets.
-> Acoustic guitar recorded with a pair of SM57s; either spaced or XY
mics -> patch bay -> preamps -> compressors -> mixing board -> computer
-> mixing board -> (stereo mix) -> computer. She tries to get as close to the
final sound as possible going in. 24bits*48Khz samples
* 9:10 tobramycin eyedrops
0215We * litter boxen
& awake 3:30ish; no mask; gave up trying to sleep 4:39; maybe S=4h at most; cats
-> cats left the bed ~5:20, so nearly an hour of kitty time
% left shoulder hurts -> basically okay by afternoon, though.
* 7:40 tobramycin eyedrops
* pay AX
* fix Chewy order - re-order -12# boxes- -> all the ococat paper litter is out of stock
-> 2 x Fresh News Unscented Non-Clumping Paper Cat Litter, 25-lb bag
@ <a href="https://www.assignedmedia.org/breaking-news/times-contributors-pen-open-letter-condemning-nyt-bias-on-trans-youth"
>Times Contributors Pen Open Letter Condemning NYT Bias on Trans Youth — Assigned</a>
@ <a href="https://www.washingtonpost.com/education/2023/02/14/oxford-high-michigan-state-shooting-survivor/
>Oxford High student survives second shooting at Michigan State - The Washington
Post</a>
* 11:40ish tobramycin eyedrops
@ <a href="https://www.newyorker.com/humor/borowitz-report/elon-musk-to-seek-life-on-mars-and-keep-it-from-unionizing"
>Elon Musk to Seek Life on Mars and Keep It from Unionizing | The New Yorker</a>
@ <a href="https://www.wired.com/review/hogwarts-legacy-review/"
>Review: 'Hogwarts Legacy' Has No Magic | WIRED</a>
" In the yawning emptiness at the heart of Hogwarts Legacy I see the quiet solidarity
of queer people and our allies in game development. "
@ <a href="https://www.wired.com/story/peloton-treadmill-recall/" >Peloton Recalls Tread
and Tread+ Treadmills After Dozens of Injuries, 1 Child Death | WIRED</a> (2021)
* 3:40 tobramycin eyedrops
# apparently I downloaded all the data from Colleen's google account in December
-> move into a directory (Colleens_Google_Data/) under Downloads
-> I'd been worried because I couldn't get into Colleen's gmail account a week or two
ago. Does not include passwords stored in Chrome
* 7:40 tobramycin eyedrops
0216Th
& awake 00:45;
* up 5:30ish; no mask, blue-blocker glasses phone fully charged but turned off. WTAF?
A cat was sleeping in my lap. Possible conspiracy.
% L shoulder hurting a little; p=2?
% didn't get out of bed until after 7am; just wanted to curl up and ?drift ?hide
@ <a href="https://garymarcus.substack.com/p/the-rise-and-fall-of-microsofts-new"
>The rise and fall of Microsoft’s new Bing - by Gary Marcus</a>
* short walk because no exercise this am
* 9am tobramycin eyedrops
* 11:50 leave for Bill Pierre Chevy at 12:15
* 12:15 Molly at Bill Pierre Chevy. Advisor: Kevin Estey
~ ~1pm -> 3:25 tobramycin eyedrops
@ <a href="https://danielleofri.com/filling-the-ritalin-rx/"
>Filling the Ritalin Rx – Danielle Ofri</a>
* 7:40 tobramycin eyedrops
* looking for label-maker. Lair? -> yes
: not clear where my fuzzy red shirt went. Probably back on Whidbey
-> (Fr) was in the laundry bag where it belonged. Just hiding.
0117Fr
* up 7am; S=7:40;
* 7:30ish tobramycin eyedrops
* assemble N's treadmill
x 10am screening call from Seattle Gastro Health. Colonoscopy will be scheduled then
-> consultation with doctor scheduled for next Thursday the 23rd
@ <a href="https://www.science.org/content/article/hidden-hydrogen-earth-may-hold-vast-stores-renewable-carbon-free-fuel"
>Hidden hydrogen</a> Does Earth hold vast stores of a renewable, carbon-free fuel?
~ noon - take Molly back to Bill's for tires -> reschedule for Monday because tires
haven't arrived yet.
* Back on Whidbey: let N know that I'm home.
* after arrival: * water orchids * sort mail
@ <a href="https://itnext.io/writing-code-without-plain-text-files-cb8f1ed2c0ad"
>Writing Code Without Plain Text Files | by Erik Engheim | Jan, 2023 | ITNEXT</a>
Hashed ASTs -- basically HashLisp crossed with Git. Sort of.
* 4:20 tobramycin eyedrops
% 5:50 driting pretty badly. Lack of sleep? Maybe, but I slept well last night.
-> disengaged?
@ <a href="https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/long-covid-now-looks-like-a-neurological-disease-helping-doctors-to-focus-treatments/"
>Long COVID Now Looks like a Neurological Disease, Helping Doctors to Focus Treatments
- Scientific American</a>
* 8:20 tobramycin eyedrops
* guitar: Desolation Row, Bad Guys
0218Sa
* Up 6:40ish; W=197.2, S=7:24, BP=119/72, P=80; exercises, shower
% hips unusually stiff. forgot bite guard as usual
* 7am tobramycin eyedrops - note: end of my "16 day supply"
@ <a href="https://twitter.com/ZoeSchiffer/status/1626699135012446208"
>Zoë Schiffer on Twitter: "NEW: Twitter is planning to unveil a new policy as soon as
this afternoon that only Blue subscribers will be able to use SMS-based two-factor
authentication, according to company sources."</a>
@ <a href="https://perennialagriculture.institute/2023/01/10/trees-with-edible-leaves-pais-latest-publication/"
>Trees with Edible Leaves: The Perennial Agriculture Institute</a> <a
href="https://perennialagricultureinstitute.files.wordpress.com/2023/01/trees-with-edible-leaves.pdf"
>[pdf]</a> (<a href="https://minoanmiss.dreamwidth.org/1116522.html" >minoanmiss</a>)
@ <a href="https://www.thepinknews.com/2023/02/18/canada-trans-asylum-seekers/"
>Canadian petition urges government to allow trans asylum seekers</a> !!!
* noon tobramycin eyedrops
@ <a href="https://wordpress.org/plugins/advanced-excerpt/"
>Advanced Excerpt Plugin</a> (<a href="https://solarbird.dreamwidth.org/1875908.html"
>solarbird</a>)
* install hacked Hansen theme on GS - still needs work -- Blog page is 2 columns instead
of 4 (with sidebar in the right column). Probably true for many others too.
* 15min: begin clearing stuff off kitchen counters in prep for deep clean
* 15min: toss (into a Chewy box) toaster oven and dead coffee grinder.
* 15min: re-attached between-door trim strip on baking cupboard. Glue + screws.
* (about an hour) prune blackberries away from deck stairs (both sides). Ouch!
pruning shears (side cut), leather gardening gloves, yard trash bag in rolling bin
% It says something about me (I don't know what) that I find that job a _lot_ less
scary, stressful, and unpleasant than making a couple of phone calls.
* 4pm tobramycin eyedrops
* take out trash.
@ <a href=
https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2023/02/16/microsoft-bing-ai-chat-interview/
>Microsoft's new AI-powered Bing Chatbot told our reporter it ‘can feel and think
things’ - WaPo</a> Actually, it makes stuff up and it's a really convincing liar.
* 835 tobramycin eyedrops -- it's been 16 days since I started, and the paperwork said
16-day supply, so this would be my last dose. Whew!
@ <a href="https://ubuntu.com/security/esm"
>Ubuntu Expanded Security Maintenance | Security</a> via the following on nova:
" Expanded Security Maintenance for Applications is not enabled.
35 additional security updates can be applied with ESM Apps.
Learn more about enabling ESM Apps service at https://ubuntu.com/esm "
-> nova is running Ubuntu 18.04.6 LTS; time to switch to Debian or Mint.
* write/install crontab for status ping on nova. It creates an entry in the HTTP access
log for savitzky.net every 4 hours, using the `log-status-hack` script, which can be
used to tell whether Nova is running. The house on Whidbey is subject to occasional
power outages. Entries are retrieved via ssh with `get-status-hack`
-> (sherman Dog 141) /vv/users/starport/Admin/bin/get-status-hack
/status/nova+22:03:01+up+1+day,+4:34
* almost-hot bath
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