Done Since 2023-12-31

[mdlbear]

Since I missed the bubbly last year (through going to bed without thinking), I made sure that I got some this year, by way of bringing down a few bottles from the Whidbey Island house the week before. I also joined the New Year's Eve zoom circle, and sang three songs. A few more of mine (and parodies thereof) were covered by others. Went much better than I had expected, given that I've done hardly any singing in the last year. (One song in the closing jam at OVFF doesn't count for much. In a jam noone can hear your flubs. I couldn't hear my flubs.)

Public Domain Day 2024 happened, and the Mouse and the Pooh Bear have been loosed upon the world!

I drank a toast to Colleen on our anniversary, with the last of the case of The Glenlivet. Cross-posted to Callahan's Crosstime Saloon on FB.

My prostate continues to give me trouble. I hate my body. Fuck cancer.

Potentially useful link from Saturday: What Is Self-Care? Understanding How to Look After Yourself Mentally, Physically and Socially.

Notes & links:
1231Su
  & 2:20 awake in chair.  Feh!
  * up 7:29; S=4:50, BP=135/79, P=66; exercises +15s+k
  % both wake-ups were possibly hot flashes
  % abiraterone 7:40ish; prednisone 8:45 with fiber
  @ Here are some of the positive developments that took place in 2023 - WaPo
  & 11:51 cath: Bard Magic3 18Fr - tricky to insert.  Got quite a lot out.  timing?
    % less painful than the RTU because softer; otoh harder to insert
    : coloplast speedicath standard -- DDG search finds no printable instructions
  $ C $100 to Science History Institute by check.  Attempt to correct address.
  $ C $100 to Planned Parenthood by check.  Attempt to correct address
  : second safe key turned up in a box with some of Colleen's old stuff!
    -> that stuff has to be looked through _carefully_
    -> left it in the keyhole.
  * 4ish drive down to RS -> arr 5:40ish
  @ Auld Lang ‘Time’: One of the Country’s Timekeepers Makes Sure We Ring in 2024 at Just
    the Right Second | NIST NIST Web Clock
    According to NIST, my laptop's clock is 0.043 seconds fast
  * ping R via Discord
  : just noticed that the calendar hanging right where I can see it still says "October".
  * rejoined the NYE filk circle ~8pm
  * 21:39 Pulled out Plink and sang Millennium's Dawn.  Felt like it went pretty well,
    modulo a few guitar flubs Several of my songs have been covered, earlier WitC and
    Penguin Flight by Capplor, and just now R sang TEOTWAWKI... later, sant Get Up and Go,
    ... ended with Bells of Norwich, a little before midnight.
  * Bubbly for the New Year.  me, G, and k
  * 01:01 300mg docusate with pm (more or less) drugs

2024
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0101Mo Public Domain Day  * litter boxen
  @ Public Domain Day 2024 | Duke University School of Law
  & awake 6:50ish; lots of cat cuddle.
  * up 7ish; S=5:42, BP=121/76, P=65, W=190.6; exercises +kegels; Dutch
    * top off humidifier tank
  * 7:11 abiraterone acetate;  08:30 prednisone with am drugs and fiber
  & 10:00 cath:  Bard magic3 16Fr total failure.  blood in catheter.  Probably in trouble
    -> 11:19 lots of blood in urine.  No pain, though.  large type4 turd.
    -> 11:46 same, maybe a little pain.
    -> 12:07 urine; little if any blood, no pain.  13:22 no blood, no pain; 14:21 same
    @ False passage:  recommended treatment is an indwelling catheter for 4-6 weeks
  @ 'Biomanufacturing' helps building materials go green | Michigan State University
    Scientists make breakthrough discovery with living, breathing building material
    " High-risk, high-reward project "
  : seasonal (email)letter from (cousin)Alice
  & 15:00ish driven to ER by G -- 15:13 in room, gown on.  Almost empty today.
    -> 15:47 blood drawn
    -> bloodwork.  Doctor said that almost always this indicates trauma to the urethra;
       scratch or similar, rather than anything more serious, esp. since no symptoms of UTI
    -> skip aspirin and other NSAIDs for a few days
    -> temp. 99 at discharge, so recheck.
  : Sable's trackpoint and upper mouse buttons aren't working.  sleep/wake fixed it.
    Weird.  But I do have a spare keyboard if it comes to that...
  % sleepy? or depressed?

0102Tu
  * awake 3:45ish
  * up 7:30; W=189.2, S=8:40, BP=117/78, P=69; exercises
  * 07:45 abiraterone; 09:05 prednisone with am drugs; fiber
  @ How the Blog Broke the Web - Stacking the Bricks (redsixwing)
  @ Asexuality Is Finally Breaking Free from Medical Stigma | SciAm (andrewducker
  ~ noon Memory Keepers, in the Federal Way Library.  -> skipped
  o expect callback from Lee Ann at BardCare. (direct# 866-840-0268) initial call 1227We
    *- Ask about URL https://bardcare.com hangs; http:... redirects to liberatormedical
       the first thing I typed was https:... I treated the failure as a sign of possible
       skullduggery.  Also I couldn't find any mention of bardcare on the liberatormedical
       website, and no reference to liberatormedical on bd.com.  https://bard.com also
       hangs, while https://bard.com redirects to bd.com
    *- ask whether email needs to be sent to m@g, or whether s@s was misspelled
    *- bard RTU 16 was uncomfortably stiff
    *- bard magic3 18 worked but was floppy enough to be tricky to insert
    *- bard magic3 16 caused injury, possibly because coude marker hard to see
    *- no printable instructions for coloplast speedicath standard -- some videos
  * 1:30 leave for 2:15 checkin for 2:30 acupuncture
  *- 1:08 866-643-1994 andrew at bardcare
     -> raised points above; took 3 tries to get my email right; however everything they
        do is over phone, or website for re-orders
     -> mentioned URL problam but got no (useful) reply -- no tech support option on site
     -> They'll send 3 more samples.
     *- sent mychart message to Dr. Nyame's office asking how long I should wait before
        trying to use a catheter again.
  * created craigslist account --for Freeand, post to skagit.craigslist.org/
  @ Empty Words in Psychiatric Records: Where Has Clinical Narrative Gone?
  * back to lair 22:30ish; expect to be in bed by 11
  * load drugs

0103We  * litter boxen
  * up 6:30; S=7:40, W=188.4, BP=126/78, P=69; exercises +kegels; Dutch
  * 6:50 abiraterone acetate; 08:45 prednisone with am meds (which I nearly forgot)
  * 09:05 walk: to park
  @ dw_news | In which we level up our fight for your digital civil rights
    Home Page - NetChoice
  * 10am telehealth spiritual health with Elisabeth Geschiere
    *- introduction to family; mention of songs (forgot the title of "Where the Heart Is")
  : My and Colleen's 48th anniversary -- which I somehow misstated as "tomorrow" in the
    telehealth call.  :P
  * questionaires available for tomorrow's psych appointment
  : RIP Niklaus Wirth 1/1/2024
  * dishes, compost
  * posted River: Remembering the FlowerCat: 48
  * toasted Colleen with the last drop of The Glenlivet from the case that her uncle and
    oldest cousin gave us for our 25th anniversary.  G joined on a BYOB basis, because
    _really_ last drop.  Should post in Callahans (FB and DW).  kind of stuck.
  : oddly, I don't seem to be a member of Callahan's on DW.  In fact, there doesn't even
    seem to _be_ a Callahan's to be a member of.  Which could explain why.
  * posted Toast: To Colleen
    cross-posted to FB in Callahan's Crosstime Saloon
  @ Empathy and compassion - ScienceDirect  something called "empathic distress"
    " an empathic response to suffering can result in two kinds of reactions: empathic
      distress, which is also referred to as personal distress; and compassion, which is
      also referred to as empathic concern or sympathy "
  * 300mg docusate sodium with pm meds, fiber, and genmaicha

0104Th
  & awake 5:30; S=5:50; cat cuddle more than sleeping
  * up 7:30; W=188.4, S=7:49, BP=130/79, P=73; exercises, 
  * 7:35 abiraterone acetate; 08:43 prednisone with am drugs
  : call from scheduling to set up re-evaluation appointment with radiation oncology
  * walk:  widdershins around the block
  @ james_davis_nicoll | Which Hugo Winners Have You Read: the poll! -> 28 (andrewducker)
  @ Italy divided over new pineapple pizza | CNN
  * 10:50 join zoom mtg for 11am telehealth 1 hour app't with Dr. Nicole E Bates
    in FredHuch psych department
    <- dysthymia; alexithymia -- very bad at identifying my emotional state
    <- very low libido but didn't have much use for it anyway after Colleen died
    <- somewhere on the aromantic and autistic spectra
    -> since it's activating, try moving all the bupropion to morning, for better sleep
    -> definitely join a support group
  * N coming back - with loot from Zabar's
  * dishes
  @ Earliest Mickey Mouse in public domain as ‘Steamboat Willie’ loses copyright
    ‘Winnie-the-Pooh’ just entered the public domain. Here’s what that means for fans
    climate-change Pooh parody featuring deforestation
  @ synecdochic | Online security and privacy tune-up suggestions for 2024!
  @ uBlacklist search filter
  % tried some of the tofu instant miso soup I ordered a while ago -- pretty bland
  * Walk: with m and k to Bartells; Monkey Grind on the way back.
    * SL:  docusate sodium; Fleet liquid glycerine suppositories
  @ Emotional Blunting: Causes, Symptoms, Treatment
    " safely stimulate one or more of your senses. This may include cuddling with a
      stuffed animal, taking a warm bath or shower, gripping a piece of ice, or eating
      spicy or strong-flavored food. "
    (Or cuddling a real animal, preferably feline.  Or human.)
  : call from (patient navigator)Andrea Suzuki -- I had apparently asked about selling or
    donating durable medical equipment.  In addition to Craigslist and FB Marketplace
    (which I hadn't considered), she mentioned Bridge Disability Ministries
    https://briegemin.org in particular as someplace that might be able to handle
    donations of prescription devices like CPAPs)
  : call from (urological oncology) re: catheters.  Stay with 18Fr.  They think I should
    cath 2-3/day.  We'll see.
  @ Command Line Interface Guidelines
    The Anti-Mac User Interface (Don Gentner and Jakob Nielsen)
  * 22:29 250mg docusate sodium with pm drugs
  * move 150mg bupropion pills to am.  Change lid.
  & 22:38 sleepytime tea, fiber cookie
  : Meross app isn't running routines!  WTF?  Still works running scenes manually

0105Fr  * litter boxen
  & awake 1:50ish, 5:30ish
  * up 7:17; S=8:10, W=190.8, BP=123/76, P=75; exercises
  % dry mouth
  * 07:30 abiraterone 
  @ Stop Being So Hard on Yourself
  -> call 206-668-4477 to schedule appointment with urogynecology for pelvic floor PT
  & drive past Fremont Animal Clinic to pick up g", who had been misdirected onto the
    wrong bus by a crappy app
  * leave closer to 4pm  -> arr: 18:30ish
  % 19:53 feeling cold after hot buttered rum, still hungry after cottage cheese and
    pickles, itchy mainly on my left side as usual, and unhappy.
  * laundry
  : there are wasps in the box room
  % 23:24 woke up in recliner
  & bath
  : Blackroot has been used more recently than I thought -- 2022

0106Sa
  * up 6:50; W=192.2, S=5:55, 
  * 6:55 abiraterone; 08:16 prednisone with am drugs and fiber
  % back pain - L QL -> heat
  @ NASA funds 13 futuristic technologies for space missions • The Register
  * dishes
  : leakage around front of back toilet.  wtf?  Or was it all piss?
  @ A Guide to Multivoice Filking - Meet a Meta with (SerenaEW), [Archive of Our Own]
  @ What Is Self-Care? Understanding How to Look After Yourself Mentally, Physically and
    Socially (archived in PJ/2024/01/06--self-care-tips.md)
  ~ pack: 2 partial sets of V+B flatware from the Lair.  RE is critically short of forks.
    * take forks, large spoons, and knives out of one bag of V+B; take down to Lair
  * collect boxes for R -- 2 moving boxes, 2 bankers boxes, and some flat/irregular stuff
    -> including Curio's (actual) collar, after taking pictures.
    & re-stack E's boxes of DVDs and kitchen stuff together
  & found a place for N's decorated (real)eggshell -- inside the little dragon cup.
    -> It's now in the "curio cabinet etc" box.
  * 22:15 pm pills and fiber cookies
  * 22:40 kegels (10- and 1-second) timed with xdaliclock