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mdlbearActually a pretty good week, I think. No disasters, not much discomfort, a good follow-up appointment with my medical oncologist (who prescribed potassium chloride pills, because I'm a little low on it), and a visit with my son R! Kind of a working visit, since I was (belatedly) delivering a pile of boxes including stuff from Mom's apartment that's been sitting in the garage for the last two years. But I got to see his apartment (predictably, a disaster area), and we had a good conversation while Molly was charging in the parking lot of the conveniently-located strip mall across the street.
Which in turn required signing up for yet another charging network. These didn't even take credit cards -- you needed their phone app. Sheesh!
On the gripping hand, I got a few more appointments scheduled (including pelvic floor PT), and registered for a (virtual) cancer support group.
A couple of very good links about mortality, Sunday and Tuesday. The Sunday one is about the loss of a cat::
I do not know what happens when someone dies. I have beliefs, but I do not know. Oddly, my greatest comfort comes from my physics hobbying, and not from religion. Energy cannot be destroyed. It can transition from one state to another, but it can never be permanently destroyed. Science says that No Tail is still there. In one state or another, he still exists, and someday my energy and his will meet again. Perhaps it will be in a hundred years as a bit of warm sunlight on a grassy hill in Kansas. Perhaps it will be in a thousand years as a piece of music on a world that has yet to be discovered.
I will see you again, No Tail. In the clearing, at the end of the path.
Tuesday's is mathematical, about Graham's Number (quote in the notes). Sunday's version of an afterlife is a lot more comforting, actually.
Notes & links:
0107Su
& awake 3:30ish
* up 6am; W=190.0, S=5:03, BP=139/80; P=73; exercises +kegels,
% dry mouth
* 06:12 abiraterone; 07:14 prednisone, am pills, fiber
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* pack: R's boxes of Stuff
* guitar: Bad Guys (shortened)
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: the pad on my desk chair somehow got wet (presumably from an earlier incident with my
sweatpants.) Grump.
& laundry (2 small loads. see above. Grump.)
& re-pack the wood-and-ivory chess set -- should ask Al about it
* shopping trip - s" and g" will both be here, and the larder is pretty empty
* singing: Eyes Like the Morning. Guitar flubs all through it, but I remember the words
* drive down from Whidbey
@ From this post about the loss of a cat: (via F(fw))
" I do not know what happens when someone dies. I have beliefs, but I do not know.
Oddly, my greatest comfort comes from my physics hobbying, and not from religion.
Energy cannot be destroyed. It can transition from one state to another, but it can
never be permanently destroyed. Science says that No Tail is still there. In one
state or another, he still exists, and someday my energy and his will meet again.
Perhaps it will be in a hundred years as a bit of warm sunlight on a grassy hill in
Kansas. Perhaps it will be in a thousand years as a piece of music on a world that
has yet to be discovered.
I will see you again, No Tail. In the clearing, at the end of the path. "
: pizza, from Sopranos Pizza & Pasta - Amore (had Mafia last time)
@ cohost! -
"Paper: You Want My Password or a Dead Patient?"
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-> N suggests passing the sale of the patient lift etc off on E and/or R
* bedside water bottle to Lair for dry mouth
0108Mo * litter boxen
* up 6:50; S=7:48, W=189.2; (1 set)exercises
% some very nice cat-cuddle instead of most bed exercises
* 06:53 abiraterone, 07:59 prednisone with am drugs, fiber
* 9:15 leave for 10am Fred Huch - blood draw
* 11:15 Fred Huch - Follow-Up with Rajitha Sunkara
-> 20mEq KCl. Same horse pills Colleen used to take
-> their scale seems to read a lot lower than mine does at home. Something like 183?
* call to schedule urogynecology 206-668-4477 -> second try
~ Bartells for KCl -- which they _might_ have tomorrow. Picked up scrips for m and N
m's was at the Safeway on 15th.
& 21:26 tums, fiber, genmaicha
0109Tu
& awake 00:50ish, 3:??
* up 6:50 no mask?; W=189.2; exercises, Dutch
& 06:56 abiraterone, 07:59 prednisone with am drugs, fiber
* CPAP: change nosepiece, both filters (which were filthy) -- have not been keeping up
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* 10am Memory Keepers grief support group - zoom
@ From 1 to 1,000,000 — Wait But Why What a million dots looks like
From 1,000,000 to Graham's Number — Wait But Why
" Weirdly, thinking about Graham’s number has actually made me feel a little bit
calmer about death, because it’s a reminder that I don’t actually want to live
forever—I do want to die at some point, because remaining conscious for eternity is
even scarier. Yes, death comes way, way too quickly, but the thought “I do want to
die at some point” is a very novel concept to me and actually makes me more relaxed
than usual about our mortality. "
* 2:30 leave for 3:15 checkin for 3:30 acupuncture - bldg 1
% great confusion because MyChart+gMaps gave me weird directions
* 17:37 KCl
: looks like we may be moving Bronx out to the lair so he won't keep waking G up.
-> but not tonight
* 250mg docusate sodium with pm drugs; fiber; sleepytime tea
* load drugs.
0110We * litter boxen
* up 6am; S=7:07, BP=122/79, P=75, W=189; exercises, Dutch
* 6:05 abiraterone, 7:05 prednisone with am drugs, KCl in house
* yet another call to get scheduled with pelvic floor PT
-> got a call back this time!! Booked. -> 0201th 10am
% back pain - R QL -> heat
& ~4pm out to Lair while j and k watch movies. thought I'd go walking later. Ha!
* move fish oil to pm and put KCl in am pill sorter
& start clearing off counter(s) for Bronx - total rabbit-hole
% 16:54 back spasm. -> head for house and put heat on it
* walk - end of block.
% back pain - R QL -> heating pad
* 5pm silent movies on twitch (WS=7)
* 20:55 250mg docusate with pm drugs (which include senna). Fiber cookies; tea
" (me, for future use:) so far out of my comfort zone that I'll need a map to find it
again. Breadcrumbs won't work -- the birds ate them. "
0111Th
& awake 3:15, 6:30; cat cuddle with no mask until 7am
* up 7am; S=7:36, BP=122/80, P=79;
* 07:15 abiraterone; 08:41 am pills, now with prednisone and KCl. fish oil moved to pm
* walk: to park. A few flakes of snow, then drizzle.
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* after 3pm deliver R's boxes of Stuff from Whidbey
& charged Molly to 50% by the charger across the street. Had to install a new app:
shell-recharge. :P Sat in the car talking with R. Then went into his apartment to
use the bathroom -- even more of a disaster area than the rest of it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
% greeted with the smell of fresh sweet-potato bread when I got home.
: NO thanks to gMap's directions, saying "stay right at the fork" next to an exit :P
: k reported a condition that I immediately identified as trigger thumb;
& passed k my tube of diclofenac sodium topical gel for trigger thumb
0112Fr * litter boxen (E')
& awake 3 ish, 5:30ish;
* up 7:15ish; W=187.8, S=7:08, ; exercises, Dutch
* 7:40 abiraterone; 8:45ish rest of am pills with fiber
& signed up for 2024 Living with Cancer Support Group (zoom, 2nd Tu, 6:30pm)
: call from BardCare. red rubber catheters never got sent; should arrive tomorrow
* IMPORTANT: pick up N's prescription at Bartell's.
* SL: adjustable briefs. + diclofenac topical gel
* */15 Pay AX
* registered for Living with Cancer Support Group Evening Sponsored by EvergreenHealth
* have k bring in N's hot stone kit * and G's box from Molly
: 2 different scheduling calls from Fred while waiting for ferry.
: Snow on the ground on the island
: decided to risk going down the driveway to charge Molly, only to find the latch lever
on the charger plug frozen still. -> Thawed it out with the heating pad off my
bedroom recliner. So go me!d
* print pelvic therapy intake form - 2-sided; fill closer to 2/1 PT appointment
% 18:57 sort of brain-dead. Not sure why
* 20:28 pm drugs with fiber
* bath. My temperature regulation is pretty poor.
0113Sa
* up 7:30; S=8:01, BP=114/78, P=66; shower, Dutch
% cold. May have had a hot flash during the night
% dry mouth, back pain, a painful spot on R forearm that migt be a muscle knot
* 7:32 abiraterone; 8:42 the rest of the am pills
* laundry
& 12:30ish trip to Good Cheer thrift in Langley for k's birthday
* 3pm - 5pm Columbae check-in on Zoom https://us02web.zoom.us/j/83087319350
* SL: parodontax toothpaste
* scanned the doc describing Colleen's ancestry. Had to use Epson's app. Fast. no OCR
% 20:38 cold. took pm drugs without senna. We'll see how that goes tomorrow
% 21:46 a little pain L lower abdomen, most noticable when I breathe in. WTF?
When should I worry about lower left side pain?
" Mild lower left abdominal pain is common and will often go away on its own. "
gas is a plausible explanation. If it persists longer than 24-48h, gets worse,
or other symptoms develop, seek help...
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Date: 2024-01-15 11:23 pm (UTC)"I'll find a way to rest my spirit if i can;
Someday I might become a highwayman again,
Or just a single drop of rain..."
But I'll be back again, and again, and again..."
I've invited my beloved dead to join me for supper on Samhain.
After my stroke I tried to make a pie, and discovered that my hands had forgotten how to make pie crust. I called upon my mother and my aunt Mildred, who had taught my hands to make pies and bread and biscuits, to teach me the way they did when I was knee-high to a kitchen chair. I felt their hands guiding mine, and the pie came out fine.
I'm also reluctant to try to drive since the stroke. When I feel ready to try, I'll ask my father to help me re-learn what he taught me when I was old enough to get a learner's permit.
Necromancy isn't necessarily evil.