Done Since 2025-11-30

[mdlbear]

There were some real lows this week -- possibly having less to do with Leslie Fish's death (see Sunday) than with my realization on Tuesday that I was a month away from Colleen's and my 50th anniversary. Possibly also including communicating with my healthcare providers, which required an email to my GP's clinic (also on Tuesday) and a phone call to my oncologist's office on Friday. I prefer using a website, but both websides and the app are broken in various ways.

And Tuesday evening there was a huge wave of something negative, but I've no idea what or why.

However, I got the things done. And there were also a couple of unexpected highs, notably Thursday afternoon when somebody from the family of previous occupants came over to get a misdirected package. And I was able to hand them a nearly-full grocery bag of stuff that had accumulated over the last year, and which I had failed to find the last couple of times I had a chance. As I noted afterwards, it apparently doesn't take much to lift my spirits for a few moments.

But four walks, and four (admittedly short) guitar sessions. I'll take it. And today is my daughter's 7th anniversary! (I had forgotten, but I'd gotten a DM Friday night to say that they needed money because their car had died. Good timing.)

Linkies! Raccoon goes on drunken rampage in Virginia liquor store and passes out on bathroom floor. Dumuzi's Dream - world's first film in ancient Sumerian. (With subtitles, of course.)

Notes & links:
1130Su
  * guitar:  Millennium's Dawn, Bad Guys
  * walk:  13:30 to Erasmusweg, 1.2km, 12hp, 37mm, 25min, 2073st
  @ Extremely sad news: RIP Leslie Fish
    Leslie Fish - Wikipedia
    Song for Leslie - Daniel Kelly
    Leslie Fish - Impromptu Wake with Daniel Kelly - YouTube
    ysabetwordsmith | Moment of Silence: Leslie Fish
  @ Around 500 million PCs are holding off upgrading to Windows 11, says Dell | Verge
  @ Breaking News: If Hegseth Gave an Order to “Kill Everybody,” He Must Be Removed and
    Prosecuted as a war criminal ...
    " And if Donald Trump approved or encouraged these actions, then impeachment and
      criminal referral are not optional: they’re required to defend the rule of law.
        America doesn’t have many chances left to prove to the world, and to ourselves,
      that we still believe in the value of human life and the restraints of democratic 
      power. This is one of them. "
  @ New Diabetes Pill Works as Well as Ozempic For Weight Loss, Trial Finds
  @ [pre-eclampsia] is one of the leading causes of maternal mortality Also, Amethyst?
  @ The mysterious black fungus from Chernobyl that may eat radiation
  @ Want to get a good night’s sleep? First of all, stop trying | The Guardian
    Seven expert and unexpected tips for people who have already tried everything

1201Mo
  @ Europe’s Breaking Up with US Big Tech | by Burk | Oct, 2025 | Medium
    " Just like Europe built its own space agency, its own currency, and its own privacy
      laws, it is now building its own digital backbone. "
  : 10:46 response via app to the message I sent Friday
  : 11:38 call from Parnassia - psychiatrist still sick; they'll call when she's able to
    take appointments again.

1202Tu
  % 11ish big wave of ??apathy ??dysthymia ??blankness ??dissociation ??something.
    absolutely a thing, but I couldn't tell what sort.
  ~ 11-14 or whenever kf/hx work session
    * guitar:  Millennium's; Wheelin' -- about 30min
  * clean, bug-spray bedroom garbage bin.  ~16:00 (i.e. before sunset, which is 16:36)
  * 19:00 - 20:30 (10am-11:30 PST) Healing Center Passages support grp - 1st, 3rd Tu
  @ The 2025 Whatever Holiday Gift Guide, Day Two: Non-Traditional Books | Scalzi
  * load drugs
  * request replacement Bunq card

1203We
  * walk:  DSB804 (a bridge not tooooo far) 11:03; .75km, 1hp, 19mm, 26min, 1586st
  x 12:45 leave for 13:30 Parnassia - psychiatrist  Leggelostraat 85 - 1.6km
    -> still sick; I'll be called when taking appointments again.
  @ Yet More on Ancient Greek Dildos | Alpennia
  @ Google Starts Sharing All Your Text Messages With Your Employer
    CISA Warns Samsung And Pixel Users—Update Or Stop Using Your Phone
    anecdotal reports are that [disabling ml settings] makes Firefox noticeably faster
  @ #bloomscrolling
  @ Privacy Guides
  * email to clinic, berestein@uhuisarts.nl about BP meds and edema.
    % spent all morning on it, and most of yesterday, and I'm mentally exhausted.
    amlodipine prescribed 0812.  Edema is a common side-effect
    Amlodipine Side Effects: Common, Severe, Long Term
    "  Check with your doctor immediately if any of the following side effects occur while
       taking amlodipine: ... swelling of the ankles or feet "
    Interactions
       " When more than 20 mg of simvastatin, a lipid-lowering agent, are given with
         amlodipine, the risk of myopathy increases.  The FDA issued a warning to limit
         simvastatin to a maximum dose of 20 mg if taken with amlodipine "
    furosemide dose for hypertension 80mg/day (usually as 40mg twice/day)
    -> furosemide / lisinopril prescribed 1112 ]
  % it just today hit me that a month from now will be Colleen's and my 50th anniversary.
  * guitar: a little noodling around mostly with F and Am
  " QOTD: 'That's depression talking.' ...
          'Yeah, it's yelling very loudly right in my ear.'  "  (me, to myself)
  @ Meta buried 'causal' evidence of social media harm, US court filings allege
  @ Fired employees file First Amendment lawsuit against EPA | Reuters

1204Th
  * walk:  Erasmusweg 1.2km, 6hp, 39mm, 30min, 2048st
  * Review of Medgemak app: 1 star
    *- It was okay for a while but about a month ago it stopped letting me make
       appointments, and it can't find most of my appointment history. It lost all of my
       prescriptions; they used to be on my pharmacist's page, but now it only has the
       ones I had my GP re-fill.
    -> Thank you for your review. Our advice is to contact your GP, who can reach out to
       us to initiate an investigation into your issue.
  " QOTD: Most people / responsible for developing / artificial intelligence should /
          not be trusted with a pet rock. "  (ysabetwordsmith)
  @ The inseparable relationship between constipation and blood pressure
    Causal relationship between hypertension and risk of constipation: A 2-way 2-sample
    Mendelian randomization study - PMC
  * One of the previous residents came to fetch a package, so I gave her everything we had
    accumulated over the last year that was addressed to them.    % Finally!
    ! (self-talk: I am happy. 👀  -> Apparently it doesn't take much to amuse me.)
  : apparently our Roamate is in customs right now.  Also, services@myroamate.com
  : GP called; my 9 Dec. appointment will be about BP meds.  (Not what the NP said, but...)
    also, they want me to use the app/website messaging rather than email.
  @ Just Programmer's Manual handy command runner
  @ Ruby – Den Haag Chinese/Indonesian restaurant

1205Fr
  @ Your daily orange juice could be helping your heart
  * walk:  DSB801 - bridge before turnaround, .75km, 6hp, 15min, 23mm, 1400st
    % Didn't go farther because hips were starting to hurt.
  : also finally!  G moved his suitcase off of the piano bench.
  @ Raccoon goes on drunken rampage in Virginia liquor store and passes out on bathroom
    floor | WGN Radio 720 - Chicago's Very Own (ysabetwordsmith)
    " The masked burglar broke into the closed Virginia liquor store early on Saturday and
      hit the bottom shelf, where the scotch and whisky were stored. The bandit was
      something of a nocturnal menace: bottles were smashed, a ceiling tile collapsed and
      alcohol pooled on the floor. 
      The suspect acted like an animal because, in fact, he’s a raccoon. "
  @ Dumuzi's Dream - News & Events | Trinity College Dublin [YouTube] 
    " The world’s first film shot entirely in the ancient Sumerian language is now
      available to audiences worldwide to view on YouTube. "
  x order meds from Express Scripts while I'm still on last year's deductable
    -> only bupropion, simvastatin, and doxazosin have refills left;
       bupropion is expensive, and it's the only one I'm not getting here.
  * activate new Bunq card, which arrived in today's mail
  * call Haga oncology about follow up on 0623 (23 jun) Eligard/Leuprolide injection
    -> they think I should have one more; will contact apotheek and either get back to me
       or discuss it in my appointment on the 16th
  % shivering -- called ~16:10, it is now 16:38 and if anything it's worse.  WTAF?
    Maybe it _is_ just cold??
  @ Analysis paralysis - $W
  * guitar -- Eyes Like the Morning, For Amy.
    % with a lot of emotional semi-breakdown.  No idea.
  $ C $197 (2-year rate) to AAAS via AX Au.  Update billing/shipping address
  : Roamate FB post lists customers (including me) whose chairs have arrived in port.
    They say that the ship docked 12/2, which is consistent with the email I got saying
    it's in customs.

1206Sa
  & $ wire money to E from Schwab
    apparently tomorrow is their 7th anniversary.  Good timing.
  * 9:30 D"
  * laundry ... but forgot to tell D" to change my bed.  Can do it later.
  % still having trouble wrapping my head around the fact that we only have three cats and
    two active litter boxes now.  (This affects how many bags of litter we need to order)
  @ NPM got hacked again…and what it means for you | by Cordero Core | Nov, 2025
    -> includes things to do for prevention.
  @ Researchers Find Serious AI Bugs Exposing Meta, Nvidia, and Microsoft Inference
    Frameworks python this time.
  % I seem to be in better mental shape today than yesterday.  Should take advantaga of it
  $ Pay hwwzorg.nl EUR 151.25 for alarm install and first month.
    Should call Monday to make sure payment arrived
  * order buspirone and pantoprozole via phone app.  For delivery.
    -> the app also has my complete list of meds, including the leuprolide.
    -> the app also has a lot of my appointment history, but not all - stops at 12 Nov.
    -> appointment history is 12 Nov + earlier, but it looks like I can make new ones.
    -> website has _only_ 12 Nov, but all my drugs.  Neither has recent labs.
  : Star Wars was released 1977-02-17 -- or nearly 49 years ago.
  @ Resonant Computing Manifesto
    (via It’s Time to Save Silicon Valley From Itself | WIRED)
    " There's a feeling you get / in the presence of / beautiful buildings and bustling /
      courtyards. / A sense that these spaces / are inviting you to slow down, /
      deepen your attention, and be / a bit more human.//
       What if our software could do the same? "
  % balance:  ~12s standing on R foot (may nit be reproducible), 4s on L.  Weird.