Done yesterday

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The big insight for the day came between my walk, when I suddenly realized that for the last day or so I'd felt as though I was no longer afraid of something, and 7pm when I think I finally figured out what it was, and posted The view around the corner.

The trigger, which I posted about yesterday, was probably I Never Promised You a Rose Garden -- the realization that although the process may be difficult, confusing, and sometimes scary, there are also beauty, wonder, and joy in it. Also the realization that it's an ongoing process; it doesn't matter where I'm going as long as I can enjoy the journey.

It was a good walk; not as happy as Saturday's but calm and contented. I was thinking more -- largely about future River posts -- but was able to notice my thoughts at times, and make a conscious decision about whether to continue or go back to observing. I'm getting better at that.

I found Colleen a bright-purple insulated coffee mug at Long's, and surprised her with it after my walk. It was good to see her that delighted with something -- the nursing home must be awfully bleak.

I cooked dinner, frying a package of chicken thighs in butter and herbs, then poaching them in wine, and used up the left-over (gluten-free) mac&cheese for the starch. Quick and tasty.

Hippo, birdie, two ewes...

...to firewolf74!!! Have a great one!!

Quote of the day

(from several conversations today:)

Me: Good drugs and good friends -- an unbeatable combination.