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A very emotionally-mixed day. I spent the day at OSCon, taking notes in emacs and hanging out on IM for a low-bandwidth chat with N. OSCon is, as usual, a lot of fun and very informative, though I was a bit disappointed at the lack of the usual free continental breakfast. Of course, with home so close I don't need it. (Lunch was excellent, though, and more than made up for the lack of breakfast.) I spent most of my time on sessions related to release management and server administration, since I may well end up doing some of that at work.

On the other hand, my brother called around 3:30 to tell me that my sister-in-law had died. She was at home, on hospice care, and it was expected, but still... I'm flying out next weekend.

I've been doing less socializing at OSCon this year than I usually do, in large part because I'm distracted. The booth conversations in the expo have been good, though -- most of the people manning the booths actually know something: most of them are the developers of the software they're demonstrating. And being local, I'm more likely to run into people I know.

I'm mostly done with In the Land of Invented Languages. More fun. I've copied my backups from the old 500GB drive to a new 1.5TB one. I now have 3 500GB SATA drives that I could use to expand the fileserver; I'm still debating exactly how to format them.

River: Distracted?

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.