Amethyst Rose: 12

[mdlbear]

Twelve years ago tonight our second daughter was stillborn. Her name is Amethyst Rose. Today I finally wrote a song for her (lyrics) -- somehow I never could do it before. I don't think it's a song I would have -- or could have -- written a dozen years ago.

It's based on my series of annual posts on alt.callahans; you can find them by searching on Google for "amethyst rose". (Maybe this year I'll finally put them on my website.)

It's strange... somehow, even the first year after, I've always pictured here as a girl of twelve: dark hair, tall, a sprinkle of freckles on her face. What will become of that image, now that her age has come to match it? I can't tell. But it's a comfortable place now, that fantasy. I imagine I'll be back.

Comments

[kshandra]

Amy's been on my mind a lot in the last few weeks....

[My god - has it been a month already since gesi lost Fishie?]

Your song is beautiful, as I imagine she would have been.

Happy birthday, stolen child.

[rowanf.livejournal.com]

Stunningly beautiful song. The Amethyst Rose posts on Callahans always made me cry. I think the song is a wonderful sign of healing - and it made me cry too. Hugs to you and all your family.

[freyjaw.livejournal.com]

{sob} {hug}