Oddly cheerful update

[mdlbear]

This afternoon I found myself sitting in the little park near work where I take my walks, looking at the beautiful, huge koi, and realizing that I was still happy. I'd just been on the phone to some of my dearest friends (one of whom I'm married to), but that only reinforced my mood, it wasn't the cause of it.

Even the fact that, later in the afternoon, I managed to clobber my desktop session (note to self: even when using x2x to talk to another computer, keystrokes like control-alt-backspace and control-alt-delete go to the computer the keyboard is connected to) didn't earn so much as a casual curse. Nor did the fact that the hardware I'm using for my current project, on a tight deadline, mysteriously stopped working when I moved it into another room for a test. (And the sysadmin who bought it for me is out of town all next week -- I'll have to drag in something from home as a stopgap.)

For all I know, it could have been a TIA. I've had them, mostly causing a little numbness around the left side of my mouth. Had one yesterday, in fact: a tiny area on my lower lip went numb for a couple of hours. Yes, I took aspirin, and have increased my daily dose. That's a slightly disturbing thought; the next one could do real damage instead of just improving my mood.

My finances are a slow-motion trainwreck, and many of my friends are going through hell in various ways.

But the air was warm, the water was clear as glass, and the koi were majestic and beautiful.

Comments

[angharads-house.livejournal.com]

Thou writ'st:

" My finances are a slow-motion trainwreck, and many of my friends are going through hell in various ways.

But the air was warm, the water was clear as glass, and the koi were majestic and beautiful. "

Well, yes, we collectively seem to be at that pissing-over-the-battlements stage where many of us have an abiding sense that we are about to go down bad ugly -- but it is indeed a fine sunrise, neh?

I might add (from searing personal experience) that there often is a moment before the shitstorm starts, that one does appreciate that life has indeed been quite interesting.

My heart kicked up, hard, last night; I utterly grok what you are getting at, here.

All good things as they may, okay?

[mdlbear]

Thanks.