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[mdlbear]

Got a rather sad and lonely call from Colleen this morning, wanting my summary of last night's outing with Joyce, and suggesting an expedition for this afternoon.

I damned near lost it, and I'm not entirely sure why. In particular, I slowed down, stammered, repeated myself, and was generally freaky; I hope I didn't upset her. In part I'm deeply worried about the whole impending home care situation, in part there was a lot of distracting background (TV) noise on her end, and in part I had made some other, though tentative, arrangements for the afternoon (music and conversation with Joyce) and had no idea how to tell her or how she'd react.

Plus, I'm worried about a friend.

Feeling nearly sick from worry, unfortunately, doesn't solve any problems.

Comments

[septemberlilac.livejournal.com]

It's perfectly normal to be feeling stressed over impending home care. You're facing an unfamiliar situation, not sure how it's going to work and the medical 'system' isn't exactly helpful - yep, been there, hyperventilated a lot, somehow managed to muddle through. It may be scary at times and frustrating at others, but you and Colleen will get through it. Hugs to both of you.

[mdlbear]

*hugs*

Thanks.

[judifilksign.livejournal.com]

Hugs for both you and Colleen.

[mdlbear]

*hugs* Thanks.

[catsittingstill.livejournal.com]

(hugs) I'm sorry you're feeling so miserable. Try to let your worry for your friend prompt you to watch for ways you can help, without overcoming you. You need to take care of yourself too, so that when the chance to help pops up, you *can*. It's not like you love your friend less if you are less tormented.

[mdlbear]

((hugs)) Thanks. Doing better now that I've had some time with Colleen.

As for my friend, well, I'm working on that. It's not overwhelming on its own so much as one more thing to worry about.

Hello again!

[markiv1111.livejournal.com]

I haven't talked to you much since we LJ-friended each other, but you and Colleen are important people to me. You wrote "Filksong Lullaby," and you played it at the filk at the 1989 worldcon. And Colleen is one of two people in the world (since I left home at the age of 17) to hold me while I cried. You both matter a lot, and I want to be kept posted. Yes, *hugs* -- whenever you need them.

Nate

Re: Hello again!

[mdlbear]

*hugs* Hi there, and thanks! And you're welcome, too. "Filksong Lullaby", like most of the family-related stuff, will be on the next album if I can ever get off my tail and get started with it. I got a little bit derailed.

If you haven't already, follow the tag colleen-200811 for the whole story with only minimal digressions.