River: what memory? what motivation?

[mdlbear]

No matter what it my look like on my daily "Done yesterday" posts, a lot of things are getting forgotten or passed over. The taxes aren't even started, except for a little bit of filing and organizing.

A lot of things I said I would do have fallen by the wayside, or are getting done very late. I seem to have left a book that I was reading somewhere, probably the surgery waiting room, and my nailfile (with attached USB stick) probably in a restaurant.

I may have a little more cope, but it doesn't seem to be translating into getting tasks either started or finished. I'm clearly not getting enough sleep, but I can't get back to sleep when I wake up at 4 in the morning. Here it is not even 10:30 and I'm falling asleep at the keyboard. If I go to bed now I'll be up at 22 or 3am.

I'm feeling sleepy and grumpy and lonely and sad and lost. I'll probably be find after I've had some sleep.

Comments

[hvideo.livejournal.com]

I've found my own energy levels way down recently too. Maybe it's all the February rainy weather, but I suspect it's something else.

Hopefully by now you will be asleep and will stay that way until morning.

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

I hope the drugs are improving your ability to tell when you're actually depressed, and when you're depleted (hungry, sleepy, exhausted).

[mdlbear]

Only a little, maybe. I fell asleep rather than falling apart, so it must have been primarily depletion, but I think there was a lot of depression at the time.

[catsittingstill.livejournal.com]

I hope you're feeling better now.

[mdlbear]

Somewhat. Still very tired and a little down, but I appear to be coping rather than falling completely apart.