River: rough water

[mdlbear]

I keep forgetting how big a bite hospital visits take out of the day. You start out the weekend thinking it's a chance to get a few things done, with nothing on the calendar. Two or three visits each day, plus a couple of hours running errands the other person would normally have run during the week, and you're sitting around Monday night staring at a pile of dirty dishes and wondering what hit you.

It evidently takes a toll in emotional and physical energy, too. The emotional part, especially, is something I simply don't have a good handle on yet -- I don't know how to think about it.

I'm coping better than I was two months ago, but it's still rough water.

Comments

[lisa-marli.livejournal.com]

I got news for you. The emotional part never seems to go away. All these years of taking care of my mother and Harold and I still get wiped every time. Yeah, a bumer to know, but at least you know that you are not alone on this, and not going crazy.
And I haven't figured out that time thing either. I'm still behind from Harold's big illness of August 2009. There are piles on my desk...
*sigh*
*hugs* to you and Colleen. I hope her body starts behaving soon. Holding a con in a hospital room would probably get them upset with you. :D

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

Seeing someone you love in distress/pain is always emotionally wearing, especially when there's nothing you yourself can do about it. And simply being in a hospital, surrounded by people who are sick and afraid and in pain and disoriented, will have an adverse affect on anybody with more sensitivity than a concrete block.

Note well, though, that you are coping better.

[catsittingstill.livejournal.com]

You do seem to be coping better. And if you spent as much time as possible with Colleen, trying to make her feel better, and just being there for her then 1) that takes a lot of time, and that's normal and 2) that takes a lot of energy, and that's normal too.

I think you're doing a good job; try not to get down on yourself for leaving other stuff unaccomplished for now. You and Colleen are more important.

[mdlbear]

Thanks. It's hard, though, especially with a con coming up.