Done yesterday (20090616)

[mdlbear]

0616 Tu
  * up 7:00; W=191.8; drugs, nose, teeth; coffee, C
  ! slightly embarrassed - careless with the coffeemaker 
  * 10am E needs her computer looked at.  Probably new power supply.
    Gave her the PS from Harmony; a bit noisy but it seems to work
  * take van to work so Colleen can have lunch with Marty
  & 12:46 pass N a url to draft of "I Like Pie".  
    (12:48:49) ***Naomi giggles. I like it a lot.
    => credit Anna and Dara for "I like pie" as the signal for "I haven't the
       foggiest idea what you're talking about but that's okay."
  @ The Looking-Glass on Smoked Fish
    => learn it, make lead sheet
  & Colleen made major progress: _walked_ out to car, and back in.
    Got into the car from the sidewalk, too.
    ! delighted.  mudita.
  * Took advantage of an unexpected schedule hole to take a walk
  <- aha: I don't like competition in general.  "Nice people work together,
     they don't fight or compete."  Something like that, perhaps.
  x (2:43 cancelled) 5:00pm Mindfulness group  ~ print homework
  ! down.  Didn't call anyone, didn't get much done, don't feel like going
    out.  My idea of a good time seems to involve staying home and moping.
  & IM with N
    ! Noticed that I was laughing!
    ! upgraded default status report from "surviving" to "ok"
  & 11:02 "It's still rather odd to think that some people may be coming to
    our parties to see me."  
    ! I find this disturbing.  Another multi-decade blind spot.
  * 11:20 falling asleep; going to bed.

Another good day. I realized, during a late-evening IM conversation with N, that I need to start responding to "How are you doing?" questions with "OK" now, rather than the "Surviving" that I've been using for the last week or so.

There was also a point in that conversation when I laughed, and noticed that I was laughing. That felt rather odd.

Another odd thing was realizing that some people may be coming to our parties and our Wednesday open houses to see me rather than Colleen. That was rather disturbing, since it indicated yet another multi-decade blind spot in my self-image.

The insight of the day was realizing that my loathing of sports extends to a strong dislike of competition in general. I seem to have a deep feeling that good people should work together, not compete or fight.

It was a very good day for Colleen: she went out shopping (and came home in between for a bathroom break), and walked out to the car both times, and back to the house once. The first time, the car was on the street and she was able to step down off the curb.

This is huge: it's the first time she's actually walked outside the house since the day of her surgery at the end of February.

Comments

[shadowe_wraithe]

YEAH COLLEEN!!! You Go Girl! And Ditto for You!

I am glad to see that things are progressing in the positive for both of you. I wish I was closer, I would be one of those stop by often and cheering you both on.

Love, Hugs and Blessings,
Shadowe

[mdlbear]

Thanks!

[phillip2637.livejournal.com]

Your view of competition interests me. I like sports (selectively) because they can represent fair and open competition with rules that are accepted by the participants. (Though, I like pro sports less as 'pro' gains more emphasis than 'sport'.) I contrast that with the kind of sneaky competitiveness that damages other aspects of human interaction and which I both try to avoid and try to avoid doing.

BTW, I may not always comment on the health and progress items you post, but enjoy hearing that there *is* some health and progress. :-)

[mdlbear]

Glad to hear you enjoy reading these. Thanks.

There are two aspects to sports, depending on whether I'm considering them as entertainment, or as an activity. I don't like either; being a spectator is excruciatingly boring for me, and participating is simply out of the question.

There are a very few sport-like activities, such as walking and sailing, that I may participate in as long as there is no competitive aspect, and a few like gymnastics and figure-skating that interest me as entertainment but again where I would rather see performances and not competitions. Dancing falls into both categories.

[ranch101.livejournal.com]

Same here. I lurk, and eagerly read about progress and diversions. Always glad to know how you guys are doing, though I stay quiet mostly.

[mdlbear]

Hi! Good to know you're still out there.

Someone to see.

[chaoswolf]

It's not uncommon, Dad. I mean...there have been weeks where someone actually had wanted to see you and seeing Colleen was an added benefit because it wasn't their intention initially. I can't recall a specific example, but it has happened.

Re: Someone to see.

[mdlbear]

Weird.