Done yesterday (20091013)

[mdlbear]

1013 Tu
  * Up 6:55; W=198.4; coffee; drugs, nose
  | did dishes without even thinking about it
    still need to baby that shoulder some.
  & renamed to.do -> topics.do in River and PJ.
  * take Mac in to work; print tax forms
  | managed to do something very painful to my right side getting into the
    car.  Keeps feeling like it wants to spasm.
  * 5pm Tantau: CBT class
  ! I do not appear to have social anxiety, though I might have at one time. I
    have a lot of avoidance mechanisms that shield me from potentially painful
    or embarassing situations.  I _do_ have a lot of apathy, which goes along
    with depression.  The rest of the avoidance...  Don't know.
  @ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Apathy
  | cyclobenzaprine seems to be dealing with the pain in my side.  Spasm?

The main thing yesterday was taking my Mac in to work and printing out the tax forms. Needless to say, it was a huge relief. (The stupid machine didn't want to print -- I ended up putting the postscript files on a thumbdrive and printing them from my Linux box, which of course worked perfectly without any fuss.

My arm and shoulder were doing much better, but in the process of getting into my car coming home from work I managed to put a lot of pressure on my right side around the bottom ribs, and did something unpleasant to a muscle there. Cyclobenzaprine and naproxen sodium are my friends.

On reflection and going through the symptoms, I don't seem to have much actual social anxiety, though I probably did at one time. What I have now is a set of very efficient avoidance mechanisms that keep me out of potentially painful or embarassing situations. Possibly it can be dealt with the same way.

I do have a lot of apathy to go with the avoidance. That's from the disthymia, presumably.

It rained all day -- no walkies. Not really a bad day, just not a notably good one.