mdlbear | Done yesterday (20110902 Fr) (Reply)

0902 Fr
  * up 6:40; W=196.8; drugs, nose, teeth, hair, dishes, exercise
  * wear EWS T-shirt to work
  @ lightgetsin | Data accessibility 
  x take the van; Colleen wants to go out -> Liz can't lift
  @ The Ferrett's Journal - The View From A Thousand Different Points
  @ The Wordsmith's Forge - The Inelasticity of Demand
  * take netbook and power brick, since computers may get moved early
  = last day in SJ office
  : some confusion about the chair that I brought with me from Menlo. 
  % should maybe have pulled my work to.do file before I packed my computer.
    Not a big deal -- I don't have anything left to do here.  Miss my email
    environment more; the consequence of not using IMAP.  OK, should have
    synced to the little 1TB backup drive -- that's what it's for.
  * Turned in badge and key.  Told Anna about the drive, but I think it's ok
    to still be using it.  Never got a laptop here; brought my own.
  * lunch provided at all hands mtg -> got a fern for my new office, plus
    some chocolate-covered almonds.  Many goodbyes.
  * PAY BILLS - should have done it yesterday
  % I seem to be back to being as bad as ever about phone calls to friends.
    Do Not Like.  Do Not Want.  Not sure what to do about it.  It seems as
    though all it takes is a couple of unanswered calls, and I give up.
  ! worried.  Unhappy with myself.

Hmm. This is a hard one. I'd call it ok, except that I spent pretty much the entire work day saying goodbye to people, which is sad. I'll stop by occasionally, and try to keep in touch in other ways, but it'll still be difficult.

My last day at EWS coincided with with the monthly all-hands meeting, where each of the three of us who were going back to research got handed a fern for our new office, and a couple of bags of chocolate-covered nuts. And tasty food -- burritos from Chipotle -- augmented by platters of spring rolls and fruit brought in by (lab tech) Grace.

I got several hugs, which was nice. People said they'd enjoyed working with me, and mentioned Middle-Sized Bear qualities like gentleness -- that felt a little odd, but good. I gave out a few of my personal cards.

On the gripping hand, I seem to have gone back to being as bad as ever about making phone calls, and especially to friends. I Do Not Like this, and it makes me feel bad about myself, but I'm not sure what to do about it. It's weird, because I like talking to people, but I don't want to interrupt anything more important (of course, anything must be more important than talking to me, right?). *sighs*