Done this week (20140316 Su - 22 Sa)

[mdlbear]

Mostly a good week, though you may note that I have little report on work-days. Friday noon was the kick-off for a recruitment drive at work -- my team is hiring in Seattle, and I'll be happy to give you a referral if you find an interesting-looking posting for a different location. We're looking for all sorts of people, not just developers.

Yesterday I sort of fell apart. My alexithymia means that I don't know exactly how I fell apart -- the morning bit definitely felt like depression, while the afternoon (possibly triggered by working on taxes) felt more like anxiety. Naomi and Glenn said that I appeared to be having an anxiety attack when they saw me around bedtime. Can one have a depression attack? It was fairly brief.

I don't think my current antidepressant is getting me anything but the weight gain listed as a side effect.

Links, as usual, in the notes.

0316 Su
  * up 8:05; W=208.2; d, n; shower
  @ 20 amusing Linux commands to have fun with the terminal +Jim Dennis
  @ Heather Dale's CELTIC AVALON touring show and DVD! | Indiegogo contributed
  * shopping:  Walgreen's for supplies, Container Store for closet rod hooks (damned if I
    know where my two sets from the Starport went) and a few other items; Metro for fish,
    Brussels sprouts, cottage cheese, tofu, etc.  And a gallon of peanut oil, half of
    which got used for the fish and chips. 
  * Made fish and chips for dinner.  From scratch.  Rockfish with cornmeal beer batter.

0317 Mo St. Patrick's Day
  * up 5:40ish; W=207.6; d, n; shower
  * good conversation in the Rainbow Room with Colleen and Glenn

0318 Tu
  * up 6:30; W=208.4; d, n
  @ Gravitational Waves in the Cosmic Microwave Background | Sean Carroll (APOD)
  @ The Yellow Wall Paper - Wikisource +(Mary Anne Mohanraj)
  @ Malaysia Plane Fire - Business Insider fits the facts.  f(Kate Evans)
  @ The 5 Most Spectacular Landscapes on Earth (That Murder You) | Cracked.com 
  @ 7 Visionary Women Who Paved The Way For Electronic Music | Music (solarbird)

0319 We
  * up 6:30; W=208.4; d, n

0320 Th
  * up 6:30; W=209.4; d, n
  % hit by a really fierce headache around noon.  Ouch!  Took aspirin.
  * Finally got around to calling Seattle Public Light - apparently a funds transfer from
    my account to N's didn't happen.  Weird.  So my account was just sitting there,
    inactive, with a $800+ credit on it.  For months.
  @ shadesong - Friendship and Reasonable Accommodations (ysabetwordsmith)

0321 Fr
  * up 6:30; W=211; d, n
  @ Absurd Creature of the Week: The Incredible Critter That's Tough Enough to Survive in
    Space - Wired Science The tardigrade, of course. f(Terrence Chua)
  * long, frustrating series of calls to Comca$t, but our TV service appears to work, and
    they offered me an upgrade that will end up saving me money for the next three years.
    After that the price goes up again, but I'll presumably be able to drop back to less
    expensive service at that point.  We'll see.
  * my copy of Frozen arrived
  @ smile.amazon.com Cool!
  @ Book of Kells Now Free to View Online | Trinity College Library Dublin 

0322 Sa
  * up 7:50; W=211; d, n; shower
  % major depressive(?) episode - a couple of minutes of what felt like dry sobbing.
    Triggered by Colleen's tone of voice, I think.  I don't think my current SSRI is
    getting me anything but weight gain.
  * 1pm - 2 piles (on the desk) so far
  * 2:30 3 more down; 4 piles to go.  
  * 3:40 cleared the box from Bothell Way chairside.  All 2012 stuff.
    (Then I have to go through some of the partly-sorted piles)
  % 3:56 anxiety? General distress?  Damned if I know.  Tight muscles across chest.
  % On the way up to bed, N and G said it looked/sounded like an anxiety attack