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At this point I could punt and simply carry all of last year's goals forward. Most of them -- Worldcon in San Jose is past its use-by date. But several of last year's goals were carried over from 2017. What makes me think I'd do any better this year? My biggest problem is still procrastination. It would be easy to blame it on depression or burnout but let's face it, those are largely effects rather than causes.

And many new challenges came in from the family health crisis that we couldn't possibly have forseen. Not my story to tell, but the drain on the household finances and on everyone's time and energy is huge.

  1. Okay, then. The number one goal is simply getting through the damned year, alive and with one or more roofs over our heads. Yeah, I know -- the problems aren't all my fault. Only most of them. That doesn't keep me from feeling responsible.
  2. There are two bucket-list events coming up; the first is my 50th college reunion. I don't want a repeat of the my high school reunion debacle. I'm going.
  3. The second is Mom's 99th birthday celebration.
  4. There's a lot of yard work that needs to get done in order to make the apartment over the garage attractive as a vacation rental. Weeding, mowing, and fixing the driveway are the high-order bits.
  5. There's also a huge amount of paperwork associated with setting up a vacation rental as well -- business license, tax stuff, all that. Not to mention putting (some fraction of) the associated remodeling on our taxes. Lots of figuring-out to do. Just the sort of thing I hate.
  6. I have to either get a job (which is unlikely and largely out of my control, but I have to at least crank out the applications) or start a business.
  7. I have to put in an amended tax return for 2017; that means finding the rest of the receipts for work done on the house. Mostly that's yard, deck, bathroom, studio, and the stairlifts.
  8. Having just found out that my posting software hasn't been passing the Music: header up to DW, I'm putting writing a good command-line DW client on the list. Most likely written in Perl, Python, or Go. Of course, it needs to be able to upload as well as post, in order to backfill the music.
  9. Speaking of music, we're working toward a concert at Conflikt in 2020. That means not only picking our setlist and rehearsing the heck out of it, but having CDs to sell. This is a huge stretch -- recording new CDs has been on my to-do list for over a decade now (CC&S came out in 2007).
  10. And then there's writing. No particular target, but definitely more curmudgeon and s4s posts.

Okay, ten is enough. Ship it.


Date: 2019-01-01 09:12 pm (UTC)
ravan: (runtyOMG)
From: [personal profile] ravan
BTW, I'm out of CC&S. Do you have any stock left?

Re: CDs...

Date: 2019-01-02 01:03 am (UTC)
ravan: by Ravan (Default)
From: [personal profile] ravan
No. Our next con is Consonance.

My business email is gimpworks at laubenheimer dot net

Date: 2019-01-01 09:19 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] ari_the_dodecahedron
Might the mental health be neither cause nor effect, but instead just part of the infinite loop of procrastinate -> depression -> burnout -> lack energy ->procrastinate some more? Not that that offers an immediate solution, but knowing it's the actual state of things sometimes helps for me.

Date: 2019-01-01 11:17 pm (UTC)
alatefeline: Painting of a cat asleep on a book. (Default)
From: [personal profile] alatefeline
Reading and listening. And thinking of you.

Date: 2019-01-02 02:36 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] pocketnaomi
The opposite of hopeful is despairing. Don't go there; it is no fun.

We're going to make this work. 2019 is going to be better than 2018 or I will shake it by the shoulders until it becomes so.

Disciplined optimism works better in groups than it does one by one. Join me in holding ourselves accountable for maintaining hope; I'll help you if you'll help me.

I love you.

Date: 2019-01-02 04:45 am (UTC)
From: [personal profile] pocketnaomi
I'm trying to do more journaling. Most of it probably won't show up to anyone but me, but at least it'll mean I'll see more of other people's and be able to comment.

Shaking 2019 by the shoulders

Date: 2019-01-03 05:28 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] markc1957
Please don't shake 2019 by the shoulders! You might give the year a concussion, and it'll wind up more screwed up than 2018 was.

Re: Shaking 2019 by the shoulders

Date: 2019-01-03 10:41 pm (UTC)
From: [personal profile] pocketnaomi
You're right. I will coax it gently until it loves us and takes good care of us.

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