mdlbear | Done Since 2025-01-26 (Reply)

As if it wasn't enough to be grieving for Colleen, now I'm grieving for my native country. Relieved to be out of it, but... It's hard to watch, and to know that it won't be fixed in what's left of my lifetime. And to know that my kids and my friends are stuck in it. Monday was International Holocaust Remembrance Day, which did not help.

And with my new location, I have a whole new set of worries. (Mostly about health insurance at the moment, but taxes are looming.)

I've been feeling anomalously cold, especially in the afternoon and evening. A few days ago it occurred to me to wonder whether it's anxiety and/or tension rather than temperature, because my body temperature is normal and the house is warm enough. Turns out that anxiety chills are an actual thing. (Or it could be anemia, which is another known problem, dating to October of 2023. But the chills are more recent.) Or it could be both.

I have not been particularly functional lately.

Yesterday was apparently #GlobalSwitchDay. So if you're thinking of switching.software, here's a good place to start. And here are European Alternatives.

Here, have some cat memes. (That list has some of my favorites.)

Notes & links:
0126Su * sift litter boxen
& awake 3:30, 5:30
* up 6:30; S=7:22; Dutch. kegels.
* drugs: first am x; rest am 06:53; 2*coffee; pm 21:00
* 10:30 can take naproxen: -> 10:54 440mg
@ Antifascist Digital Humanities|Codeberg
@ The H.P. Lovecraft Archive
* guitar: ship of stone, ripple, river,
* 15min: sorting, stashing plastic tubs of computer and audio stuff.

0127Mo * change litter boxen (N") Int'l Holocaust Remembrance Day
@ International Holocaust Remembrance Day - Wikipedia
& awake 3:40ish?
* up 6ish; ; Dutch, -dishes
notation: -dishes = unload dishwasher, + = load, * = both.
* drugs: first am 06:33; rest am 06:34; pm 21:23
% 07ish L QL still hurting; applying heat.
@ Genius Space Saving Ideas and Secret Storages - Smart Furniture - YouTube
clever stuff but the links go to other YT vids rather than to the actual products
@ Instagram, Facebook Under Fire for Censoring Posts From Abortion Pill Providers
~ spending way too much time looking at shelves. Something 27x27 will go between my
desk and the bamboo shelves beside it, by moving the shelves 9cm back; could fit 30 by
moving the desk another 3cm forward.
* (with N) write/print/sign/scan partnership agreement.
-> All in ~Desktop for now; ought to go to either ss@ or a new repo.
: Weirdness. The present "Music for Cats Album 1" CD is _Not_ what I ripped in 2015!
Totally different (and longer) track list but same title and cover. Album 2 has the
same tracks, but in a different order. Weird. What I ripped has only 4 tracks, in
raw wav format and without track numbers. Interrupted rip?
-> bought the download. 5 tracks. The first had 4 with totally different names
@ Home | Music for Cats | David Teie
@ Effects of music on behavior and physiological stress response of domestic cats in a
veterinary clinic - PMC
@ 36 examples of anachronyms - English in Progress
* guitar: wheelin lock-keeper (still having trouble with Bm, Bm/A)
@ If You’re A Publisher And You Don’t Know What A UOOM Is, Then Read This opt-out
* load drugs: prednisone every third day -- today skipped, so skip tomorrow too
every 3rd day for 14 days starting this week
@ Free and indie | Go Make Things
@ Einstein Probe Detects Mysterious Blast of X-Rays From the Early Universe

0129Tu * sift litter boxen
& awake 4ish - kind of a rough night, I got some head-bumps from Bronx while getting up
* up 8am; S=8:42; Dutch
* drugs: first am 08:42; rest am 08:53; 2*coffee; pm 20:30ish; naproxen 440 21:35
@ Surviving "political grief": You're not alone, and there is a path forward
(via minoanmiss)
@ Google Maps to show Gulf of America after government updates
@ Quaker groups file suit over the end of policy restricting ICE arrests in houses of
worship
@ Signal >> Blog >> A Synchronized Start for Linked Devices
Signal >> Blog >> Proxy Please: Help People Connect to Signal
& m started teaching me to crochet. Tricky, but I eventually seemed to be getting it.
* Practice -- with m -- breathing, ssolfège, Ship of Stone.
@ I Can’t Believe This Model Is Open-Sourced!!!! A Small Open-Source Model That’s on
Par with OpenAI’s O1 | by Yash Bhaskar | Jan, 2025 | Medium
@ DeepSeek’s Popular AI App Is Explicitly Sending US Data to China | WIRED
@ Ebooks - Now Available from Bookshop.org
@ Proton Mail Says It’s “Politically Neutral” While Praising Republican Party
* take up clean catfood bowls

0130We * sift litter boxen Chinese New Year
@ Chinese New Year
& awake 2ish
* up 5:55; S=5:22; Dutch, dishes
* drugs: first am x; rest am 06:39; coffee; pm 21:28
@ siderea | Now is an excellent time to get Signal [Ω, tech, pols, US]
% apparently broke a fingernail -- R index finger. Of course.
* 15min: _finally_ fixed the displaced top rack prong assembly in the dishwasher.
@ Ada Palmer @adapalmer@wandering.shop Friends, let's visit the largest, most famous
disability access ramp on Earth...
@ New Asteroid Tops NASA's Impact Risk Chart, 1.2% Chance of 2032 Collision
@ Garmin GPS Watches Are Bricking and Nobody Knows Why
@ CA’s AG Tells AI Companies Practically Everything They’re Doing Might Be Illegal
@ FB flags Linux topics as 'cybersecurity threats' — posts and users being blocked
Facebook Flags Linux Topics As 'Cybersecurity Threats' - Slashdot
Facebook ban on discussing Linux? | Hacker News
@ Departing the New York Times - by Paul Krugman
@ Protecting Children from Chemical and Surgical Mutilation – The White House
: The high-pitched, pulsating sound I keep hearing (in addition to my tinitus, which I
already knew about) is coming from one of the Toshiba air filters.
* guitar: river, inherit-the-earth, lock-keeper
% 18:52 cold.
@ Wheel running in the wild | Proceedings of the Royal Society B: Biological Sci.
mostly mice, but also slugs, shrews, rats, and frogs
* finished "The Dream-Quest of Unknown Kadath" by H. P. Lovecraft
It didn't have some parts I thought I remembered. Dunsany? not, at any rate,
Idle Days on the Yann,
which I recognized as having read, but wasn;t didn't have a scene I thought I recalled

0130Th * sift litter boxen
& awake ?
* up 6:15; S=7:50ish; Dutch, o dishes
* drugs: first am 06:57; 2*coffee; rest am 06:57; pm 22:08
@ Declassified CIA Guide to Sabotaging Fascism Is Suddenly Viral
Gutenberg : Simple Sabotage Field Manual, by Office of Strategic Services
@ Trilobites In History | AMNH " Inside one of the caves, in a layer that was
subsequently dated to 15,000 years ago, they discovered a 400 million year old
trilobite with a hand-drilled hole through its tail "
% 11:21 cold. This early? WTF? -> 37C = 98.6F (using meat thermometer under tongue)
-> anemia and B12 deficiency are possible causes
* try calling VGZ if we haven't heard anything -- 0900-8490
-> aaaaaand we need proof that we have applied with yet another government agency for
long-term care insurance at svb.nl. Or something like that. It wanted proof that
I'm getting a pension; I used SS and then couldn't find my card. Logged in at
ssa.gov and printed out a statement. Maybe that will work. Might have done it
wrong, and maybe they'll call me if they notice.
-> damned if I know which file folder or box I put my card in.
-> the scanned forms are on the laptop in my bedroom, so I'll have to transfer them to
sable next time I go up there.
-* I also need to look for the KVK folder -> on my dresser

0201Fr * top up* litter boxen
& awake 3ish; didn't really get back to sleep until around 5
* up 7:15ish; 8xxx; Dutch
* drugs: first am x; rest am 07:42; pm 18:00ish
@ Inside Sydney Architect’s Clever DIY Transforming Apartment, 51sqm/549sqft - YT
(via Solarbird :flag_cascadia:: "there are so many clever syste…" - Indieweb.Social
@ Every Dead Civilization Left The
Same Note About Earth: 'They Guard Something Worse | HFY - YouTube clearly
AI-generated, except for the narration. (The captions are clearly AI)
& omelette and applejuice for m; jute twine for N; sling for the glass, juice, & jute
the glass, and the jute. Could manage the eggs, a plate, and a fork.
& never got around to practicing with N; instead we looked through all the accessible
boxes looking for some of her treasures, and finding I think most of them, and a few
of mine. Many, from both sets, are still missing. Cleared at least one box.
% and too much has been lost. Abandoned, discarded, strayed.
* guitar: Flame: Millennium's Dawn intro, Freight Train, Railroad Bill, a little work
with F and the 2-finger Bm

0202Sa Imbolc * sift litter boxen
@ Imbolc - Wikipedia
& awake 3:40ish; gave up 5:30, down 7ish
% between the cats and my brain...
* up 8am; ; Dutch,
* drugs: first am 09:01; rest am 09:01; 2*coffee; pm 20:29
% I should remember to look in my water glass _before_ I pop pills in my mouth. :P
@ CDC Purging Its Website After Trump Orders | MedPage Today
CDC Ordered to Scrub Website of Words Like 'Transgender' and 'LGBT'
@ Etsy Was Great… Until It Wasn’t - Why I’m Walking Away - YouTube
@ Humboldt Glacier’s Demise (ysabetwordsmith)
@ Safeguarding Research ✊ -
Safeguarding as much publicly available material as possible.
@ Faircamp A static site generator for audio producers.
@ The Filking Times (1988-1993) now fully available in PDF! : r/filk
The Filking Times
* guitar: ship of stone,
@ siderea | When They Say Elites, They Mean Us