River: Why it's a problem

More support, if any were needed, for why I think that not being conscious of my emotions is a problem:

Last night I was feeling a lot of upper-body tension, mostly across my chest and shoulders. Anxiety? That's what it usually means. But then I noticed the thermostat, which was down to 66F from our usual 70. I decided that sleepytime tea, naproxen, warm snuggle and a hot bath would probably take care of either case, and they did.

I still don't know what the problem really was. If I really was afraid of something, it's still out there waiting to scare me again. I was just lucky that, in this case, I was able to handle either alternative with the same treatment.

And some things, like mild depression and contentment, don't have physical symptoms that I can recognize. I think it would be important to tell those apart, so that I know what to stop doing or keep doing. That's a large part of why my depression went untreated for decades -- I couldn't tell it was there.

It doesn't feel any different inside my head. Isn't it supposed to?

Done yesterday (20100522 Sa)

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I've already mentioned the bit about not being able to tell the difference between anxiety and cold.

The main thing was the YD's interview at DeVry University. She's very enthusiastic about it, and it will probably be good for her. Very focussed, and she seems convinced that she wants to concentrate on a BS in business administration. No interest in liberal arts. Well, she's an adult (just barely) and hard to argue with.

I wish we'd put more away for her. We can afford it, but it'll be tight for a couple of years. Day-tripping Baycon, at minimum.

Walk, about 1.5x around the Rose Garden.

I don't remember whether it was a good day or not. Probably not so much.

Some good links under the cut.