River: Nice while it lasted?

[mdlbear]

My recent string of happy days seems to have ended as abruptly as it began; no telling at this point whether it will resume after a brief setback, or where the real baseline is.

It happened, ironically, as I was thinking about joy, and realizing how little I understood the concept. Someone had mentioned a friend's "ability to reach out for joy" -- and I realized with something approaching shock that I not only lacked that ability, but apparently lacked the ability to recognize it in someone else.

At this point I'm not even certain I've ever felt what other people describe as joy, let alone been able to actively seek it out. If I have it was brief, unexpected, and totally out of my control.

At this point I'd settle for mild happiness.

The centipede's dilemma? Well, in any case my plan is to try to enjoy the weekend, which promises to be busy and happy, before trying to think or write about either my very real problems or this new-found, possibly imaginary one.

Comments

Re: Joy is good.

[impresaria1.livejournal.com]

Hi!
So nice to hear from you. Tryptophan gives me relief of all depressive symptoms within 20 minutes. I'm going to go take some in a moment; I usually take it at bedtime. I totally respect if it's not your cup of chai.

I am reeling after getting three emails from Rob. No, he doesn't want to see me; he just wants to see James on his birthday. I feel horrible!

Re: Joy is good.

[mdlbear]

No, he doesn't really want to see James, he just wants to make you feel horrible.

May have to look at tryptophan, especially if the D doesn't work.