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[mdlbear]

I ran completely out of cope last night, about 11pm, in the process of getting Colleen into the bedroom. I think I'm a little better now, but probably still fragile. I lost it several times: gibbering, almost completely non-verbal in either direction, and occasionally sobbing silently and without actual tears. This is going to be harder than I expected. I haven't been that out of cope since one night when the Y.D. was a month or so old, sitting on the floor by her crib at some ungodly hour in the morning trying to wake up enough to pick her up and change her. Maybe not even then.

Taught my son-in-law to make fried matzoh this morning -- the Y.D. is home from school today because she can barely walk with her injured knee, and wanted comfort food.

Meta: note that I've switched tags from colleen-200812 to colleen-200901 to mark the fact that she's home from the hospital now.

I think maybe I'm ok now. OK enough to get through the day; that's all I can hope for at this point.

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Re: Coping

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

As he points out, make a list of what you do, possibly with brief descriptions of how you do it - e.g., "Load dirty dishes into dishwasher. Run dishwasher. Put away clean dishes. Note: If dishwasher detergent runs low, only buy XYZ brand, because it's the only kind that doesn't set off my allergies." Then you can make the list generally available to people who want to help, and they can volunteer for whatever they feel most qualified to do.