Done yesterday

[mdlbear]

0226 Th
  * alarm set for 5:315; leave by 6:15
  * W=187.4 ! grumpy: I always gain weight on Wednesdays
  * 6:30am Colleen needs to be at the surgery clinic
    ! she's scared; I'm calm
  * 8:30am Colleen: surgery 6 hours
  & breakfast in the caffeteria downstairs:  Peet's coffee and WiFi
  = WiFi in the waiting room; respond to comments
    ! OK; cheered by my friends' expressions of support.
  & 1:50 Colleen out of surgery; all went well
    ! very happy.  Very relieved.
  & 3:05-3:29 got to see her.  Swapped places with Marty.
    ! even happier.  Smiling.  
  & Wrote "The Owl and the Mountain Goat"
    ! perversely gleeful.
  & Went in and sang for Colleen.  She sent me home ~10.  Sleepy.
  & 10:45 wiped.  Go splat. ! disappointed

A very long, mostly very boring day, which is exactly what one wants when a family member is going in for surgery. I had the notion that I was relatively calm, but the contrast in mood after I actually heard that things had gone well, and again when I went in to see her, was noticable.

I'm feeling perversely gleeful about having written a parody of "The Owl and the Pussycat" about a couple of my friends. They'll probably kill me.

I was very disappointed about having to go to bed so early, both yesterday and the night before. I needed the time, damnit.

Comments

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

"Calm, but not yet knowing how things are going to turn out" is a very different emotional state from "Calm, because everything turned out well and we're enormously relieved". (And congratulations to you for being able to notice the difference!)

[mdlbear]

Thanks. I'm learning.

[acelightning.livejournal.com]

It's amazing what "subconscious" things can be consciously learned as skills. (I've read that they teach autistic children "face recognition", showing them pictures and explaining that this is a happy expression, this is an angry expression, this is a sad expresssion, this is a bored expression, etc. - they basically have to memorize them, but it appears to work, at least for some of them.)