River: end of an era

[mdlbear]

Colleen is coming home Friday!

I should be excited and happy. Instead, I'm worried, depressed, a few things I can't identify, and totally unmotivated. We're having the bedroom steam-cleaned tomorrow afternoon, and a pair of hospital beds installed tomorrow evening. I'm still not entirely packed, and the bed is still assembled.

I understand some of it. I have no idea how much care Colleen is going to need. I'm stressed because I'm almost certainly not going to be able to go to work tomorrow morning -- I'll need to clean and vacuum the bedroom floors. And so on.

Also, we've had that bed for around a quarter-century, if I remember correctly. I built it myself. Colleen grieved over chaoswolf leaving the house -- I appear to be grieving our old bed. The YD just took the mattress up to her room. I'll be sleeping on an air mattress tonight. Our lives have changed, over the last few months; I have no idea what the new "normal" will be like -- it's change, and unknown, and it scares me.

Whatever the reason, I have a great deal to do by tomorrow noon, and I'm not doing it. Instead, I'm sitting here wingeing into my posting client.

Not a happy bear.

Comments

[ocelotn.livejournal.com]

Hugs.

You've been handling a LOT of strain and change lately. No wonder that starting yet another trip into the unknown (even if, yay!, the cat will be home) is a bit overwhelming. If you were V., I'd drag you out for a little walk around the neighborhood, but I don't know if that works for you.

BTW - If you need some grunt labor tomorrow (daytime), we'll be happy to head south.

[mdlbear]

Thanks. Walking is very good for me. I usually manage to take a walk at lunchtime when I'm at work; when I'm at home it often disappears into the general round of Tasks That Must Be Done.

I don't think I'll need you; things are almost in hand modulo disassembling the bed. Alison is coming in this morning, and Jilara later, so that's probably enough for general schlepping.

But thanks for the offer -- we may well need some help next week.