Done yesterday (20090519)

[mdlbear]

0519 Tu
  * up 6:25ish; W=191.2; drugs, nose, teeth; coffee, C
  . lead sheets:  * Fox  . Golden Vanity  . Living Earth [.=partly chorded]
    o John of Dreams  o Shape of Things
  * spray  * kitchen  * sewing room  * Kat's room
  * clean bedding
  * dial hot water back to safe
  * 3:30ish short walk
    <- insight: I'm really sabotaging myself by procrastinating stuff like
       lamplighters and the flex account stuff.  Why??  Would it help to
       _know_ why, or do I just need a strategy for unlearning it?
  * on the drive home
    <- I seem to be at nearly my old baseline of depression now.  Could that
       have been the point of the exercise?  Or an accidental side effect?
  * pillows for Colleen (king, full height, not down), upstairs guest room.
  x VOTE
  & nice evening in the LR with Colleen
  * bed ~11pm

Not nearly as productive a day as I would have liked, but I did manage to get in to work in the afternoon after doing an almost-respectable amount of work from home in the morning. I also finished chording The Fox, and got a couple of new songs to the point where I can play them if I don't have to sing.

A couple of minor insights from a short walk and the drive home: I'm really sabotaging myself by procrastinating things. Why? Would it help to know why, or should I just concentrate on unlearning the behavior? Is it possible that I'm doing it to get back to a level of depression and anxiety that I'm "comfortable" with?

More questions than insights, I'm afraid.

I spent pretty much the entire evening in the living room with Colleen. That was good. We seem to have established a pattern of going to bed around 11 (we'll see how long that lasts this weekend -- HA!) and we're both starting to sleep better.