River: Distracted?

[mdlbear]

I'm feeling pretty seriously out of it right now. I shouldn't snap at my daughter in total confusion when she asks me to take my laundry out of the drier. I shouldn't scrape my car on a concrete pillar getting out of a parking spot, the way I did last night. I shouldn't be so distracted that I pay $1500 to Alhambra instead of to Amex.

I should be socializing more at OSCon, the way I did the last three or four years. I should be getting more done at work. And at home. I shouldn't let bills and paperwork pile up, the way I have been.

I should make more music. I should pay more attention to the people closest to me. The people I love. I should take better care of myself.

I'm stressed, and distressed, and distracted. Probably depressed, but I can't really tell -- I'm not feeling much of anything right now.

Comments

[catsittingstill.livejournal.com]

(hug)

You're under a lot of stress right now. In my experience, people's ability to cope with multiple tasks often goes up and down, depending on their physical and mental condition, so even though you could handle all those things before that doesn't automatically mean that you can handle them all now and you're just being lazy.

I'm not sure what to tell you, except that all of those things can be set more-or-less right again. Try to take care of yourself; you've been missing out on your walks a lot, if I remember right, and walking more might help you sleep better might help you concentrate better when you're awake...

We're thinking of you.

[mdlbear]

Thanks; both my physical and mental condition have been deteriorating for a while now. When some of the pressure eases up at work, in a couple of weeks, it will help. There aren't enough minutes in a day.